Rumination

[coolcow1289]

Have any of you ever had success in stopping rumination? I have certain thought patterns that trigger anxiety and panic. CBT was completely useless (and expensive)

Major triggers are envy, thoughts about the future, comparison, being evaluated, etc.

Basically I wake up okay, and my brain just starts going off. And by the end of the day, I can't do anything. I'm exhausted. I go home and take sleeping pills at 4 in the afternoon and crash.

I'm on escilatopram 5 mg. Maybe if I up the dose? I hate being on drugs.

 

[Insufficent]

Today I managed to get out of bed, because my friend needed help and I got distracted enough.
I'm currently having massive flood of instructive thoughts and "what if" scenarios in my head about situations where I need to defend my decisions in work.
These damn thoughts always end up being violent and so they make me angry out of nothing.