Venting Rotting away ... at home

[Praestat_Mori]

There's nothing else to do. I'm rotting at home every day. Waiting for this to be over or a wonder happening. What a fucked up life.

 

[strangelife]

I'm so sorry, why are you always at home, do you have no mood to go out or are you sick and can't?

 

[TimetoCatchtheBus]

Haha. Same. If I wasn't laughing I'd be crying.

 

[Olisop21.]

I just want to die. I'm desperate.

 

[divinemistress36]

Bed rotting is an art

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

you are definitely not alone. i've been this way for longer than i can remember. only difference may be that i prefer it this way? doesn't seem like we have much to lose so if there is something you'd like to go out and do, drag yourself out and see if you can enjoy it.

 

[Kurai]

Same

 

[Little_Suzy]

There's nothing else to do. I'm rotting at home every day. Waiting for this to be over or a wonder happening. What a fucked up life.

Same! Bed rotting sucks! Let's have some fun.


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[Praestat_Mori]

I'm so sorry, why are you always at home, do you have no mood to go out or are you sick and can't?

Luckily I'm not sick on top of my misery I just don't have the means (=money) to live the life I want to live.

 

[unabletocope]

Same here, just need to hit that breaking point out of life

 

[iloverachel]

Same here.

When I leave the house, I remember nobody cares and i don't belong anywhere, so I am just trapped at home in my own dark thoughts

 

[sorlox]

I feel you. If only there was something or someone worth to get up, but there isn't T_T

 

[Z-A]

Very relatable. I only go to my gf's house and do groceries sometimes. All my hobbies are indoors so I never go out because almost nothing brings me joy outside anymore.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

Luckily I'm not sick on top of my misery I just don't have the means (=money) to live the life I want to live.

what would be the first thing you'd want to do?

 

[Tears in Rain]

Luckily I'm not sick on top of my misery I just don't have the means (=money) to live the life I want to live.

Roughly how much money, earned per year, would be enough to make you want to live?

 

[CloudyNightSky]

Same here it's miserable. Day after day and nothing changes. I think since the coronavirus it's gotten even worse.

 

[mrelief82]

Same, i just want to be gone ….

 

[Praestat_Mori]

what would be the first thing you'd want to do?

Traveling. Journey around the world.

Roughly how much money, earned per year, would be enough to make you want to live?

50-100k $ / year - that's one thing but I also don't want to have a terrible work-life balance - that's the other thing. I would need to start allover again like if I just left school, I have no relevant skills and I'm closer to 50 than 40.

2 or 3 million as a base and I can definitely live a good and secure life until I'm 100 (that's in case I stay healthy ofc).

 

[AlouA]

There's nothing else to do. I'm rotting at home every day. Waiting for this to be over or a wonder happening. What a fucked up life.

it's a bit odd that I'm glad to see some familiar names here, like yours mori

 

[Praestat_Mori]

it's a bit odd that I'm glad to see some familiar names here, like yours mori

Where have you been? I remember you name. :-)

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I also feel like I'm rotting at home. My boyfriend and I are trying to go out more but it's hard when we have no one to meet, there's nothing within miles of us and most days is raining.
Both of us being depressed and now overweight doesn't help.

 

[Tears in Rain]

50-100k $ / year - that's one thing but I also don't want to have a terrible work-life balance - that's the other thing. I would need to start allover again like if I just left school, I have no relevant skills and I'm closer to 50 than 40.

People go back to University as mature students all the time, and some countries offer decent grants. Is that out of the question in your country?

I get that it will be tougher to get jobs being closer to 50, but you're not that over-the-hill.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

People go back to University as mature students all the time, and some countries offer decent grants. Is that out of the question in your country?

I get that it will be tougher to get jobs being closer to 50, but you're not that over-the-hill.

There would be options but I have no idea what really interests me. Chances r low that this is gonna be a success, I failed uni already decades ago. It wouldn't solve the income problem rather it would cost money that I don't have. I've given up I won't survive another failure. It's kinda vicious cycle I'm trapped in.

 

[Gonnerr]

Me too , until i have the guts to drink SN. I have everything to go out of this world , i just need time to sum up the courage to drink it.

 

[Passersby]

Hi Mori, Its good to see you, I know what you mean and I can relate to this as well because I also rot and have been trapped for yrs. I hope something will work out for you eventually one way or another and you don't have to continue to rot and suffer. I know we cant keep doing this longterm. It's not sustainable. Time is running out.

 

[Finalnight]

There's nothing else to do. I'm rotting at home every day. Waiting for this to be over or a wonder happening. What a fucked up life.

I feel the same, rotting away every day, staying in home because OCD would hit me even more if I dare to go outside, among all my mental issues this one won't stop, no matter how hard I try

I never knew how bad someone could suffer mentally until I got this, Asperger had already made my life a nightmare, I couldn't put into words where I am now but what's sure is I won't allow my suffering to keep going

I'm really sorry you feel this way, you're not mentally ill fortunately, and if traveling isn't within your possibilities rn maybe you could try looking for any activities until you find one you really like

 

[vadim]

I hate being home all the time and want to tear my skin off in frustration, but the urge to withdraw from society and hole up in my room is too strong. I'm bored and lonely and desperately want human connection, but I also don't want to do anything or see another person. FML

 

[lnlybnny]

it feels like everyday i get more and more withdrawn from society and it gets much harder to go out every year (i've been living like this for years). i just get very annoyed if i have to go out generally

 

[theboy]

what happend

 

[Unknown21]

So, relatable, I'm sorry for your suffering.