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I'm planning to ctb again.

it sucks to admit but i can barely function as a human being. I can barely go a month with a friend before pushing them away because I feel that im not wanted or im overstepping. ive stepped away from the forum due to drama that i deserve and put on myself. I plan on the end of the month. I wont go into details about why as i feel i am becoming an attention whore with the amount of times ive posted vent posts here.

I want to go by gunshot. I cannot get easy access to a shotgun but I have access to an AR-15. Should I be cautious of over penetration? I will most likely drive out into the desert and become coyote food but I don't want the bullet to come down and kit someone. I would be a couple miles out from civilization but I am unsure of how the bullet will act. Additionally, I haven't been up to date with SN and am unsure if there is too much heat to buy it, or if I can even buy it in the first place without getting a knock from local pd for a wellness check.

I am still deciding but I may ask for someone else to help. Anyone in northern arizona or southern utah would work. i have no idea what method i would do if i ctb with someone.
 
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I'm planning to ctb again.

it sucks to admit but i can barely function as a human being. I can barely go a month with a friend before pushing them away because I feel that im not wanted or im overstepping. ive stepped away from the forum due to drama that i deserve and put on myself. I plan on the end of the month. I wont go into details about why as i feel i am becoming an attention whore with the amount of times ive posted vent posts here.

I want to go by gunshot. I cannot get easy access to a shotgun but I have access to an AR-15. Should I be cautious of over penetration? I will most likely drive out into the desert and become coyote food but I don't want the bullet to come down and kit someone. I would be a couple miles out from civilization but I am unsure of how the bullet will act. Additionally, I haven't been up to date with SN and am unsure if there is too much heat to buy it, or if I can even buy it in the first place without getting a knock from local pd for a wellness check.

I am still deciding but I may ask for someone else to help. Anyone in northern arizona or southern utah would work. i have no idea what method i would do if i ctb with someone.
You're not going to hit anybody else. Find a big rock wall or a cave just to be sure. Do not worry.
 

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