rethinking all of my friendships

[tsykoais]

okay so tonight, i texted my friend and their number wasn't working so i reached out on instagram to ask them why their number wasn't working for weeks and they said they blocked me and didn't want to be friends anymore because i was too "personal" and that it was getting annoying and that wasn't the energy they needed. i just said "it's fine, i'm not forcing you to be my friend and it was nice knowing them" and blocked them. i shared things such as my ed/depression with them and some of my other friends and now i'm wondering how many people i've bothered with sharing that information. came to this site because i feel like it's the only place i can share.
and honestly i didn't mind cutting off that friend, because i'm so done with life i feel like i'd be better off without anybody, but the thought of me bothering people by sharing my depressive thoughts suck and makes me feel like even more of a burden.

 

[Alexia]

that's so fucked up. so many people only act like they want closeness and give a fuck about anybody when in reality they don't

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Unfortunately, as you age, you learn the hard fact that, oftentimes, when things become difficult, or more complicated than some would like, some people simply retreat. I guess some people only want smooooooth goings in their lives, and when a little complication arises, they just can't handle it. A true good friend does stick around, though, when times get tough. Maybe this is a good way to weed out the ones who aren't.

 

[HopefulSleep]

I never had any proper friends, the kindest people I know are online friends

 

[FuneralCry]

You certainly cannot trust and rely on other people in this cruel world, this is just the reality. I'm not even surprised that person acted in such a way, as a lot of humans are so incredibly self centred and uncaring, they only want to be there when it suits them. I personally see it as being for the best to be alone and avoid other people.

 

[OceanBlue]

If they have something to gain from the relationship, they will be more tolerant.

People often feel burdened by depressive thoughts, the goal of the majority is to escape reality, not face it.

You can still share your feelings, but with a like-minded person, avoid the 'good vibes only' crowd.

You're not a burden, life is a burden and it was imposed on you. I hope you feel better soon

 

[Rational man]

A friend who unconditionally loves you will accept you for everything you are, during the highs and the lows..You would do the same i presume.?. I learnt hard and fast when i became ill. Most people disappeared, my family became alienated from me. One or two friends stuck by and im grateful. You need genuine friends not ' energy vampires ' when you're ill. So maybe being alone is better than being with people who cannot handle true life because life is about suffering is it not.?

 

[Huntfish34]

I know and understand what you are talking about all Too well. Friends / family/ people in general can lie and backstab you in a mere .02 sec sadly. Something I have been trying to work on for Years. =/

I wish you Nothing but the best, Godspeed -