Well… I had therapy again today. We talked about the fact that I don't feel any better than I did when I got here 5 weeks ago. She agreed that I seem just as unsafe. We talked about how I constantly think about how much it's going to hurt my family and how much it kills me to think of them identifying my body after I burn to death. We talked about the fact that I've been here for a typical length of stay so they need to start planning on a discharge date.
I also met with the doctor today. He told me that because things haven't been improving that my insurance is starting to push back on covering this. The problem is they know I won't be safe so even if they don't continue covering they aren't going to let me leave. So I would have to pay out of pocket. Perfect. I want to die and now I'm going to get left with crippling debt I'll never be able to pay off in a lifetime.
I'm in a nightmare right now.
I also met with the doctor today. He told me that because things haven't been improving that my insurance is starting to push back on covering this. The problem is they know I won't be safe so even if they don't continue covering they aren't going to let me leave. So I would have to pay out of pocket. Perfect. I want to die and now I'm going to get left with crippling debt I'll never be able to pay off in a lifetime.
I'm in a nightmare right now.
