Relief when you feel confident about going through with it

[CatLove56]

Their is something about going through a huge fit of despair and then suddenly finding a huge amount of relief knowing I can "easily" take control and end it like I should have done years ago. Very euphoric. Knowing that it's relativity simple to hang myself and it would all be over comforts me in my lonely existence. I don't think their is anything wrong with accepting you're not cut out for life. I hope you all are well considering what we go through :)

 

[Reflection]

I used to feel a lot of dread before I found a good anchor point for the rope, knowing I can finally do it when I'm ready does make me feel relieved in a way. I still wish it doesn't come to actually going through and that some kind of miracle happens but oh well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel comfort and relief at that, I certainly see myself as not meant for something as cruel and painful as existence which just causes me to suffer, I wish you the best.