relief of having the option

[sadgirlallonherownn]

My sn and meto arrived a few days ago and it feels really nice to just have the option to be able to end it at any time, sometimes i just take out my sn and look at it and it makes me feel so much relief, like I wont ctb until a few days, still got some more things to sort out but knowing "I can get out of this hellhole of a life at any time I want" is just such a comforting and relieving feeling, if everything goes to shit I wont have to wait, I can just go whenever I want, even if its not my intended day of ctb and it makes me really happy, the only time I felt true happiness ever since I was clinically dead for 58 seconds back in may during my last od attempt, it feels good to be able to have the option and Im so happy about it, I can finally find peace from this torturous existence, from all this pain. It honestly is a weird feeling, knowing that I can die at any moment, kinda melancholic but also really happy? Idk how to describe it, its just such a pure feeling relief

 

[PI3.14]

This is a feeling shared by so many here.

It's still sad that having the option of a relatively peaceful death is bringing us relief, it says a lot about the suffering we've been and perhaps are still going through.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

My sn and meto arrived a few days ago and it feels really nice to just have the option to be able to end it at any time, sometimes i just take out my sn and look at it and it makes me feel so much relief, like I wont ctb until a few days, still got some more things to sort out but knowing "I can get out of this hellhole of a life at any time I want" is just such a comforting and relieving feeling, if everything goes to shit I wont have to wait, I can just go whenever I want, even if its not my intended day of ctb and it makes me really happy, the only time I felt true happiness ever since I was clinically dead for 58 seconds back in may during my last od attempt, it feels good to be able to have the option and Im so happy about it, I can finally find peace from this torturous existence, from all this pain. It honestly is a weird feeling, knowing that I can die at any moment, kinda melancholic but also really happy? Idk how to describe it, its just such a pure feeling relief

Same sentiments. It's like feeling everything all at once. Comforting and liberating to some degree. Haven't set a date yet as well, but sn and meto is here. May we find peace.

 

[sadgirlallonherownn]

This is a feeling shared by so many here.

It's still sad that having the option of a relatively peaceful death is bringing us relief, it says a lot about the suffering we've been and perhaps are still going through.

Yea, I read a lot of threads on here and seeing the suffering everyone goes through is actually insane, everybody deserves to escape that and I really hope everyone that wants to will get the option for it, just how I have it now

Same sentiments. It's like feeling everything all at once. Comforting and liberating to some degree. Haven't set a date yet as well, but sn and meto is here. May we find peace.

I also dont have an exact date set, more of a range, between the 13th-17th october but I really hope we both will find peace from suffering after all this pain we had to endure

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel like that as all I personally want is peace from this dreadful, futile existence, all I want is to never suffer again, I wish you the best.