Relationships where I give much more than the other person.

[Defenestration]

I'm tired of not mattering to people...

I'm always the one who sends the first message, and people only reply one time out of four.
I'm tired of always being the nice guy who comforts, listens, and helps others, and I get almost nothing in return.
I'm in a lot of unbalanced relationships where people reply with two words out of politeness, while I invest way too much.

At the same time, I have severe social anxiety, so I isolate myself and avoid people a lot... and being borderline, I feel abandoned all the time. I'm fed up with people...

I hate this life

 

[TheOneFreeDude]

I can definitely see where you're coming from and can relate to that somehow. I'm not diagnosed with anything but PDD but I can't help but feel I'm not worthy of love or affection, meaning even when I receive true love and affection I don't feel deserving of it, and everything feels fake, and I end up sabotaging myself and fucking my emotional health more every time. Loneliness/depression -> find someone who actually loves me -> can't help but feel like I'm being a burden -> end up fucking everything up every time -> loneliness/depression.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I used to be like that. I eventually gave up.

 

[RosebyAnyName]

Same here. I started reaching out to people, making an effort to put myself out there, and getting nothing in return. I also gave up on other people.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I used to have a lot of friendships that didn't give me anything in return. I eventually ended all of those friendships and never looked back. I've pretty much given up on making friends with people entirely at this point. I'd rather be lonely than waste my time.

 

[Defenestration]

Thanks, hard to live
Death is better

 

[Slark]

I'm tired of not mattering to people...

I'm always the one who sends the first message, and people only reply one time out of four.
I'm tired of always being the nice guy who comforts, listens, and helps others, and I get almost nothing in return.
I'm in a lot of unbalanced relationships where people reply with two words out of politeness, while I invest way too much.

At the same time, I have severe social anxiety, so I isolate myself and avoid people a lot... and being borderline, I feel abandoned all the time. I'm fed up with people...

I hate this life

I know how much that hurts. I hope you find better friends who value you. You can always call me whenever you want to talk.