Relationship with parents.

[Unseelie]

I have a pretty rocky relationship with my mom and dad. I think I love them. And I think they love me. But we don't like each other. Every day is a new argument. So I guess this is the problem. When I kill myself, is it better if I reconcile with them or not before I go through with it? Even if that means I just pretend that everything is fine between us. I don't want their final memories of me to be of arguments with me. But at the same time, it might be easier for them to digest if they hate me a little. Which they kind of do right now. I don't want them to blame themselves either. I'd love to hear your thoughts. Mean replies, and "do whatever you think is best replies" need not engage with this post. I just need help sorting through my stupid thoughts.

 

[Irisse]

I can't speak for parents as I'm not one, but if a person dear to me commited suicide I would prefer that our last memories are happy and joyous. Otherwise I'd think that they died hating me and I'd never get closure. In my opinion it's better to reconcile with your parents, as if you truly loved each other, their grief will be the same, even if you think they hate you.

 

[Hvergelmir]

If you can clear things up, I think you should.
That they "hate you a little" will not make your passing easier. They're more likely to blame the rocky relation for your passing, and subsequently themselves.

Good relations will also make all your lives more comfortable, for as long as you're still alive.

 

[Unseelie]

I can't speak for parents as I'm not one, but if a person dear to me commited suicide I would prefer that our last memories are happy and joyous. Otherwise I'd think that they died hating me and I'd never get closure. In my opinion it's better to reconcile with your parents, as if you truly loved each other, their grief will be the same, even if you think they hate you.

Thank you for your thoughts.