Recovery <Relapse

[hiddenbpd]

Today has been my breaking point. Today has reminded me why I love the idea of dying.
Today has shown me that recovery is too fkn difficult and it is not my life path. Recovery is not possible for me.
I will always fall back to this place that is uncomfortably comfortable. The place where I am worth nothing and am no more than a burden to those around me. I will never be someone that people genuinely like. I will never have the amount of motivation and drive to get out of this hole. This is where I belong- suicidal, broken, lonely, and lost.
Farewell recovery. I will now be planning to ctb .

 

[sulli]

i feel like i could have written this omg, you explained all my feelings of today & last night to a T. bpd has me relapsing and i feel like it'll always drag me right back down in the end. i'm right there with you

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I feel ya.