Venting Recovery has made me more depressed

[BloomingAzaleas]

I don't really know what I can really say about this.
When I finally decided to have a life outside of my comfortable misery, I started to see how far from being functional I really am, and how much farther I'm falling.
My room is getting messier and messier, I isolated myself from people who care about me, I can't bring myself to cook anything anymore, and for the first time, my grades are starting to drop.
I think it has something to do with my want to make a change, but the struggle with discipline and how far I am from making a change for the better makes me feel like a fool for ever thinking I could live a life at all.

Despite all this new pain, I still will try to continue, but I feel like now a swimmer caught out in the deep, not realizing how far they swam, and now I'll struggle, drown, and sink to the bottom of this abyss….

 

[montanatype]

well, yes, that's what happened to me too, it's something natural, but it varies from person to person, some just need a little push, in your case, maybe you just need to try a little harder, in other cases, it doesn't matter how much of a drowning person's slaps are given, destiny is already sealed, leaving aside whether destiny exists or not, there is simply nothing

 

[BeijaFlor]

I don't really know what I can really say about this.
When I finally decided to have a life outside of my comfortable misery, I started to see how far from being functional I really am, and how much farther I'm falling.
My room is getting messier and messier, I isolated myself from people who care about me, I can't bring myself to cook anything anymore, and for the first time, my grades are starting to drop.
I think it has something to do with my want to make a change, but the struggle with discipline and how far I am from making a change for the better makes me feel like a fool for ever thinking I could live a life at all.

Despite all this new pain, I still will try to continue, but I feel like now a swimmer caught out in the deep, not realizing how far they swam, and now I'll struggle, drown, and sink to the bottom of this abyss….

my dear, dear, friend....

what youre experiencing, is enlightment...

beware, of false virtue...

dont listen to lies....

focus, seek deep within yourself

know thyself

there are others like you

we are here

we hear you

we relate to you

be empowered by our voices

know that our voice is not sunk within darkness

join hands, and raise a glass

im not religious but, same as jesus christ, the cross we bear, doesnt have to be beared upon ourselves alone

dont listen to the lies

dont listen to the lies

dont listen to the lies

 

[22yearsbroken]

Recovery is what you ment to do.. i did training in being a recovery coach.. and i wont lie it works for many people and thats amazing and i would never ever dissrespect certain groups and programs at all the work they do is fantastic and have saved ao many lives...but for me i did feel like a gave away my evrything .. i lost the person i was all that was... well me trained to follow rules you break tbem you get berated or punished in a way... i lost my my eing my personallity my mind changed ...and not for my beat it was only for the best of others

Recovery is what you ment to do.. i did training in being a recovery coach.. and i wont lie it works for many people and thats amazing and i would never ever dissrespect certain groups and programs at all the work they do is fantastic and have saved ao many lives...but for me i did feel like a gave away my evrything .. i lost the person i was all that was... well me trained to follow rules you break tbem you get berated or punished in a way... i lost my my eing my personallity my mind changed ...and not for my beat it was only for the best of others

Please forgive my awful spelling

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I don't really know what I can really say about this.
When I finally decided to have a life outside of my comfortable misery, I started to see how far from being functional I really am, and how much farther I'm falling.
My room is getting messier and messier, I isolated myself from people who care about me, I can't bring myself to cook anything anymore, and for the first time, my grades are starting to drop.
I think it has something to do with my want to make a change, but the struggle with discipline and how far I am from making a change for the better makes me feel like a fool for ever thinking I could live a life at all.

Despite all this new pain, I still will try to continue, but I feel like now a swimmer caught out in the deep, not realizing how far they swam, and now I'll struggle, drown, and sink to the bottom of this abyss….

Very relatable I feel like I am 13 years behind everyone else and it requires a lot of work to learn all the skills you need in adult life.

 

[webb&flow]

well, yes, that's what happened to me too, it's something natural, but it varies from person to person, some just need a little push, in your case, maybe you just need to try a little harder,

in other cases, it doesn't matter how much of a drowning person's slaps are given, destiny is already sealed, leaving aside whether destiny exists or not, there is simply nothing

the only way to verify is to try! (And regardless of whether it's "sealed" or not (whether destiny does exist is actually integral to the question, as this entire notion hinges off of it), it's a person's decision to decide whether it's worth bearing the brunt. If that will is established, it doesn't matter how much "fate" or "Odin" fucks you over, that is worth it and valid solely out of their wish to.)