reconsidering

[meowzers3276]

im reconsidering my ctb date because i just got the opportunity to secure my next place to live in a relatively ideal spot with no roomates, but with my bf. im the breadwinner so if we make this deal its on me for the entire year long lease. i said yes bc i cant tell him no without a fight or telling him my plan but he's going to pay them a deposit now ahead of time and moving isnt til june

i feel sorta excited and maybe it could be a change but i'd have to well not ctb to see. and im on day 2 after upping my antipsych dosage i just feel sleepier but i guess i can see more silver linings.

so far still plan to ctb asap but wow its affordable we can have our cat and a yard and i will finally be out of my parents grasp. because even tho i "moved out" they are still in the same building as me and still trouble me and stress me. so i may push ctb date if things keep looking up but so far im still gonna do it, i will be dead so all i can do is say sorry to him from the grave

 

[hereandthere13]

i said yes bc i cant tell him no without a fight

this is concerning