nottinghams
Official Written Apology for Being a Buzzkill
- Apr 15, 2024
- 276
So I am perfectly comfortable and ready to die. I have everything I need. I have a time. What's stopping me is feeling really physically ill.
fevers, memory loss, trouble seeing, aches, trouble walking...
its so debilitating that I actually can't get up to kill myself.
I am ready to go so I don't want to waste time going to the doctor, but I might have to if being sick is preventing me from killing myself.
Or honestly if you have any ideas on how I could treat myself just enough to ctb tonight or something.
In fact im so sick its affecting my state of mind toward it, making me lose my motive a little. Also its effecting poor planning.
what should I do? Should I see a doctor? or do you have any ways I could treat myself enough to Do It?
I know this must seem so silly but its actually incredibly debilitating.
fevers, memory loss, trouble seeing, aches, trouble walking...
its so debilitating that I actually can't get up to kill myself.
I am ready to go so I don't want to waste time going to the doctor, but I might have to if being sick is preventing me from killing myself.
Or honestly if you have any ideas on how I could treat myself just enough to ctb tonight or something.
In fact im so sick its affecting my state of mind toward it, making me lose my motive a little. Also its effecting poor planning.
what should I do? Should I see a doctor? or do you have any ways I could treat myself enough to Do It?
I know this must seem so silly but its actually incredibly debilitating.