Rather CTB by yourself or with a partner?

[maplebar]

If by yourself, why? Likewise, if with a partner, why? Would it have to be a romantic partner, a friend of yours, or anyone?

By myself, I don't know anybody who would be willing to do it with me. Nor do I really want somebody with me, I can't really picture myself in that situation..

 

[urgent]

In my fantasy CTB because right now I haven't been able to find a peaceful way, it would be with my partner and it would somehow be a Carbonm leak and we'd just be cuddled on the couch with our 2 bulldogs and we would all together peacefully
In my other fantasy that I want to really happen I get picked up by a vet I meet who brings the Ativan injection then the N by iv and I'm out and I guess I might pee like the pups do on the hotel bed then after I'm dead he starts a small fire by me with a cigarette and leaves so when they find me it will look like an accident so no one will think they missed something or feel guilty and no one will know I had to leave them and think I don't care, because I care, it's not about them it's the pain, being in bed in agony crying in pain No More Fkng PAIN no one knows the vet who parked down the street and has a hat and covid mask and he is careful! Now if only I were there right now I'd finally be in peace!
Anyone know a vet? Or a doctor,?
That could make my dreams come true and give me mercy! And I've always told everyone no funeral just cremated if I didn't burn already Any vets, doctors, a guy with helium or nitrogen and a mask or anyone who knows anyone, even take a drug dealer to get me enough fenty but burn me then to I want to make sure I'm gone

Interesting. It seems I am in the minority. Personally, I want to ctb with a romantic partner. I feel as though it will make the whole process easier for both parties and also provide companionship during their last moments. I am also fine with being someone's "trip sitter" person, where I watch over them and provide my support during their last moments. I don't think anyone deserves to go out sad and alone not by choice

 

[Forveleth]

Did you decide where,when and how yet?.

How and where yes. When I will not know until the time comes.

 

[liquid jen]

Not a romantic partner, but ideally I go with someone else. Commitments are easier to well...commit to if you have someone else relying on you to. If I can just get the nerve to bring it up and plan with someone then I'm set, no backing down.

 

[Jisatsu]

The idea of being in the most vulnerable moment of you life and spending that time with someone else who is doing the same ... speaks volumes to me.

 

[urgent]

In my fantasy CTB because right now I haven't been able to find a peaceful way, it would be with my partner and it would somehow be a Carbonm leak and we'd just be cuddled on the couch with our 2 bulldogs and we would all together peacefully
In my other fantasy that I want to really happen I get picked up by a vet I meet who brings the Ativan injection then the N by iv and I'm out and I guess I might pee like the pups do on the hotel bed then after I'm dead he starts a small fire by me with a cigarette and leaves so when they find me it will look like an accident so no one will think they missed something or feel guilty and no one will know I had to leave them and think I don't care, because I care, it's not about them it's the pain, being in bed in agony crying in pain No More Fkng PAIN no one knows the vet who parked down the street and has a hat and covid mask and he is careful! Now if only I were there right now I'd finally be in peace!
Anyone know a vet? Or a doctor,?
That could make my dreams come true and give me mercy! And I've always told everyone no funeral just cremated if I didn't burn already Any vets, doctors, a guy with helium or nitrogen and a mask or anyone who knows anyone, even take a drug dealer to get me enough fenty but burn me then to I want to make sure I'm

In my fantasy CTB because right now I haven't been able to find a peaceful way, it would be with my partner and it would somehow be a Carbonm leak and we'd just be cuddled on the couch with our 2 bulldogs and we would all together peacefully
In my other fantasy that I want to really happen I get picked up by a vet I meet who brings the Ativan injection then the N by iv and I'm out and I guess I might pee like the pups do on the hotel bed then after I'm dead he starts a small fire by me with a cigarette and leaves so when they find me it will look like an accident so no one will think they missed something or feel guilty and no one will know I had to leave them and think I don't care, because I care, it's not about them it's the pain, being in bed in agony crying in pain No More Fkng PAIN no one knows the vet who parked down the street and has a hat and covid mask and he is careful! Now if only I were there right now I'd finally be in peace!
Anyone know a vet? Or a doctor,?
That could make my dreams come true and give me mercy! And I've always told everyone no funeral just cremated if I didn't burn already Any vets, doctors, a guy with helium or nitrogen and a mask or anyone who knows anyone, even take a drug dealer to get me enough fenty but burn me then to I want to make sure I'm gone

How and where yes. When I will not know until the time comes.

Do you mind sharing how? I'm trying to find a way.

 

[Miku _fanboy101]

Id want to ctb with my boyfriend but he doesn't like the fact I want that. He's trying so hard to build a life and I am too but I'm ready to let go and he isn't, which is okay I respect that but I don't want him to find me dead (kinda?). I'd rather to die with him so I don't leave him alone and I'm not alone either. I'll miss him and he'll ask why I did this.