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lotus.dead

lotus.dead

I just want to be an angel...
May 4, 2026
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I don't have much access to drugs and medicine since my parents hold them. But at night I pretend to swallow my sleeping and calming pills, secretly keeping them in a container. One day, I'm going to swallow them all. But I just feel like this isn't severe enough... what do you think will happen to me?
 
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LostZombie

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Oct 10, 2025
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ODing is really unreliable, and it would also depend on the pills if I could get the dosages and types of pills I could do some calculations to see if it is even a viable to even try. I would 100% advise against it but it's your choice at the end of the day. All that I ask is for you to make a educated decision with all the resources we have available in the megathreads.
 
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subtract7671

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Feb 6, 2026
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OD almost never works. You'll likely have a bad time but stay alive.
Even in the case where those pills are the most potent ones given for that kind of condition (benzos or z-drugs) the lethal dose is hundreds of times higher than one pill. If these are herbal pills or melatonin you are even more SOL for that being actually deadly.
 
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maki

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Apr 18, 2026
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i attempted once with my antidepressant and other prescription meds. i ended up vomiting a bunch after an hour. would not recommend using over the counter or prescriptions medicine for a ctb attempt ( ´ ▽ ` )b
 
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