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Baka

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Aug 14, 2026
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I took a nice drive along the view of a pretty ocean. While seeing that beautiful view, all i could think was "I want to die". The idea of falling off a building as I listen to music.

What is wrong with me? As I do anything, the thought of death sings within my mind. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry
 
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CrawlingInMySkin

CrawlingInMySkin

Blood is Red, and Sweet as Cherry Wine
Jun 14, 2026
257
Nothing wrong with you, mate. We're all here because we want the same thing, the peace of nonexistence. We're all ashamed at times of wanting to ctb. And welcome to the forum, I'm sorry about whatever brought you here but you'll find a great community. I hope you find what you're looking for. And I'd love to hear what kind of music you like, music is a huge part of my life and I love listening to it and talking about it. Love and peace, mate♥️
 
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iw2begone

Cryptid
Mar 5, 2025
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I took a nice drive along the view of a pretty ocean. While seeing that beautiful view, all i could think was "I want to die". The idea of falling off a building as I listen to music.

What is wrong with me? As I do anything, the thought of death sings within my mind. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry
It can be a self feeding cycle, you think of wanting to die, which means you are more likely to think about death when you see something. Like, now I consider I may leave the world, whenever I see something that evokes any emotion, I'm thinking if I want to leave that behind and constantly evaluating it.
 
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trellium-q

Existence is dismal and useless.
Aug 6, 2026
9
Nothing to apologize for. We're alive. We don't have to like it.
 
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