BitterlyAlive_

BitterlyAlive_

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Dec 8, 2020
2,394
I've gained a lot of weight back this year and I'm so angry about how disgusting I look.
 
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NumbItAll

NumbItAll

expendable
May 20, 2018
1,090
I fucking suck at all my favorite hobbies, no matter how much I practice, and I suck at life in general. I can keep trying though...
 
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MindFrog

MindFrog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
723
Fuck those shitty cops who think It's so easy to kill a person. The moment they get a gun, they think everyone has to bow down to them.

A family of two died this morning from a stupid argument. Two fucking gunshots just because of a noise complaint. An old woman and her son died on fucking camera. And the culprit already has charges for homicide before but still has his gun? This planet is full of shit!
 
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BitterlyAlive_

BitterlyAlive_

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Dec 8, 2020
2,394
It's so easy to kill a person
It is easy, for the wrong types of people. I hope that this was some newbie who had a really unfortunate kneejerk reaction, not that he shouldn't be punished, and not some person who just didn't give a fuck.


I'm angry at myself again. I hate myself for being such an annoying piece of shit
 
J

JGT

Member
Jul 22, 2020
48
Humans going behind my back about everything. Never knowing who to trust. Saying one thing, doing another
I'm raging that my hormones allow me to do things to get women!
 
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MindFrog

MindFrog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
723
I hope that this was some newbie who had a really unfortunate kneejerk reaction
Unfortunately, its not. The guy deliberately pointed the gun on them, and shot twice on one of the victims. It just... It makes me so mad. The guy can be jailed but the punishment will never be the same as shooting someone in cold blood. I doubt the relatives can even get justice if it wasn't filmed.

And no, you're not annoying, man. I get want you mean. Don't worry about it.
 
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MrBlue

MrBlue

Arcanist
Jul 1, 2020
416
I'm pissed off with how fucking useless I am! I need to be as competent and useful I can possibly be to offset all my glaring weaknesses, because I won't be able to intergrate with others if I have nothing to offer.

I'm also now mad at cops over in the US again, they're like just another gang wandering around!
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
I hate people who are cowards and don't say things to peoples faces. Instead masquerading themselves with deceitful thoughts
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
I hate being on this earth. Every day I am forcibly bombarded with an array of stupidity, cruelty, and all the other wonderful qualities of other people against my will by virtue of existing in modern human civilization.

No matter how much of a hermit or how isolated you get somehow you are still forced to confront and bear with the brunt of other human beings actions which you have no control over and which inevitably affect you.

I hate it here. I should have never existed.

I wish I could scream. Be unrestrained. But I'm too tired. And I know it would do nothing.

I'm tired of fighting against the tide.
 
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BitterlyAlive_

BitterlyAlive_

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Dec 8, 2020
2,394
Just remembered something that pissed me off the other night. In New York City when the ball dropped, the fucking huge clock shown was a CAR ADVERTISEMENT. What the fuuuck why are we always having products shoved in our faces? Why couldn't it just be a normal clock ffs
 
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Pizarnik

Pizarnik

Member
Jan 1, 2021
8
I'm mad at people making me feel guilty for everything (I have enough with myself), tired and angry of being the punching bag of everyone, but I'm even more angry with myself for minimizing my pain and making everyone else's problems my priority when they clearly don't care about me at all.
 
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Ramirez

Ramirez

Criminally insane
Jun 10, 2019
396
Just remembered something that pissed me off the other night. In New York City when the ball dropped, the fucking huge clock shown was a CAR ADVERTISEMENT. What the fuuuck why are we always having products shoved in our faces? Why couldn't it just be a normal clock ffs
Cuz you need to spend your money and keep the economy going like all the other slaves. Or you decide not to. That's when they wanna lock you up. Cuz you ain't free.
 
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BitterlyAlive_

BitterlyAlive_

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Dec 8, 2020
2,394
Cuz you need to spend your money and keep the economy going like all the other slaves. Or you decide not to. That's when they wanna lock you up. Cuz you ain't free.
We live in a society
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,711
I just finished season 2 of The Boys. Honestly everything I liked and hated about the first season was amplified so I'm pretty conflicted. I didn't read the comic but I do know they've taken some liberties with it. I mainly hate how the show is very gratuitous with both its violence and its social commentary. It's so unsubtle with its messaging and it tries to assault the viewer with the force of...well, a speedster running into you at full speed.

I guess what bothers me more is that it's an Amazon Prime exclusive which means it's a show about giving a big middle finger to big companies while getting all its budget from a major company. Also the show really hammers in trying to make people feel bad for ever liking superheroes which, fuck you, I like them.

But I gotta admit I do still like some of the characters and while the messages and themes are hypocritical they're not exactly wrong. They don't let people get away with anything and the show is very much black-and-dark-gray morality as opposed to black-and-white.

Still I could have done with less unnecessary uses of the word "fuck" and less head exploding being shown in excessive detail. Also I was sad to see the way this season's primary antagonist was defeated. Though I guess she could still come back......
 
BitterlyAlive_

BitterlyAlive_

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Dec 8, 2020
2,394
It's so annoying when people don't keep their word (this definitely includes me, I hate it when I also don't follow through...)
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
I wanted to use SN, but I know who can get me a firearm and right now I am really fucking tempted to buy it, just so that I can blow my brains out during the next bullshit conference call. Just so that maybe, just maybe in the last moments of my life I will shock some of those people into getting a grip and some perspective, and maybe taking a moment to think that there is more to life that just making 10 cents on a dollar and losing your shit over some bullshit like a typo in an email to a client. It's just so ridiculous, all the fuss and drama and hysterics over fonts in the spreadsheet, over missing the mothly goal by 2%. Freezing in terror over the concept of your actions resulting in loss of some undisclosed theoretical amount of money for a corporation that makes millions and goes through disposable outsourced workers from a low-wage country like you, like a horny teenage boy goes through a pack of Kleenex. I know the money make the world go round, but maybe if in the middle of another long ass rant about date format in Excel you'll hear a loud bang, see a gory picture and will be suddenly reminded of the concept of mortality, the concept of format consistency in client reports wouldn't seem like that much of an issue for a while.
Logically, I know I'm just angry, I know that doing this will achieve nothing but traumatize some people who don't deserve that. People don't change and they don't learn, and also my intentions can be horribly misinterpreted once I'm dead. So I wouldn't do it. But man I wish I would.
 
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gtrfvr

gtrfvr

live and let live or die
Dec 4, 2020
70
anybody ever have intrusive thoughts that you'd never actually do? disgusting stuff like "I'm going to smack you then rape you then force you to write a diary about being raped" the kind of stuff to make you want to throw up? I'm squeamish, could literally never do any of that
 
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Kassender

Kassender

Experienced
Aug 29, 2018
210
anybody ever have intrusive thoughts that you'd never actually do? disgusting stuff like "I'm going to smack you then rape you then force you to write a diary about being raped" the kind of stuff to make you want to throw up? I'm squeamish, could literally never do any of that
Oh yeah.

Heinous stuff.
My last boss was a major piece of shit (everyone like him for some reason, though), and there were days where those thoughts ranged from 'break into his car and smear shit all over the seats' to 'break his face, then cut his balls and make him choke on them.'
Then i kinda see it and i start trembling.

Like ' wtf, you're the psycho, no wonder people steer clear of you!'
I realize how fucked up i am everytime, the amount of rage i actually have inside scares me.

Do i need to outline that i would never do that ?
 
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signifying nothing

signifying nothing

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Sep 13, 2020
2,553
fucking humans
 
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AnxietyAttack44

I just wanna go to my husband already.
Jun 5, 2020
1,092
Everything I do get's destroyed, every time I try something get's in my way. It never can be simple and easy. Not one single positive thing has happened to me in over a year, it is pure destruction day after day no matter how much I try to keep my head above the water. I ask for something small, easy and simple, and when it get's in my reach, it is shattered like sand castle by some asshole, evil, sadistic, grinning entity called life.
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
Fuck this job. Fuck that other job. Fuck venture economy and trying to have employment in it in general. Fuck societal standards. Fuck being a good person. Fuck all your "you live and learn, dust yourself off and try again" smiley face positivity quote bullshit. Fuck counselling, those greedy fuckers that suck your money for pretending to listen just to tell you everything you've already knew in the end. Fuck psychiatry and the assumption I need to be drugged and restrained for my own good. Fuck the country I was born in with a big rusty pole on a splintery post, the unfairness of how much harder I have it just for being born here and not a lil bit further to the west is ridiculous. Fuck banks. Fuck my life. Fuck life in general. I wish it was possible to just explode at will so I don't have to deal with this bullshit for another minute.

...the stupid part that no one was even mean to me this time, and it probably is really my own fault. I do understand that being my boss I wouldn't know how to handle this better either. And on one hand I know what I should do as a decent person. But on the other hand also fuck it, I'd much rather quit my job and then quit my life immediately.
 
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Makko

Makko

IƤ!
Jan 17, 2021
2,430
Fuck this job. Fuck that other job. Fuck venture economy and trying to have employment in it in general. Fuck societal standards. Fuck being a good person. Fuck all your "you live and learn, dust yourself off and try again" smiley face positivity quote bullshit. Fuck counselling, those greedy fuckers that suck your money for pretending to listen just to tell you everything you've already knew in the end. Fuck psychiatry and the assumption I need to be drugged and restrained for my own good. Fuck the country I was born in with a big rusty pole on a splintery post, the unfairness of how much harder I have it just for being born here and not a lil bit further to the west is ridiculous. Fuck banks. Fuck my life. Fuck life in general. I wish it was possible to just explode at will so I don't have to deal with this bullshit for another minute.

...the stupid part that no one was even mean to me this time, and it probably is really my own fault. I do understand that being my boss I wouldn't know how to handle this better either. And on one hand I know what I should do as a decent person. But on the other hand also fuck it, I'd much rather quit my job and then quit my life immediately.
Class struggle and neo-colonialism are real. I'm speaking from the other side of the fence though. It's the reason why we have everything that we have, so it's not going away.
 
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Deleted member 22624

Deleted member 22624

One foot in the grave
Oct 7, 2020
1,085
Can I just say, fuck life. Everything is bittersweet with an extra fucking dollop of bitter. I need to go!!! Please fucking god. I need to hurt someone to go. When will I do it? Will I betray them? I need to get a bit more familiar with local trains, then I need to overcome SI. But not going allowed stops that. I'm a fucking adult, more than rational enough, I deserve to have this choice. Can I betray them? Why won't they just let me go ffs, they say they are and understand but when it's crunch time I'm totally on my fucking own with stacks of guilt to not go. It's each man for himself but nobody admits it. When you're suffering, people will just eventually coy away, leaving you to a lifetime of suffering. Compassion is irrelevant if there's nothing more anyone will do. So I'm left like some animal ejected from the group, ignored and left to die slowly. Well I'm not going to fucking do this ad infinitum. I'm only here for others, as bad as that sounds. I need to be honest because I'm running out of fucks to give! I want out!! Please please don't keep keeping me here!!!
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
I let all my rage get out by singing to Linkin Park and scream like he did. I always feel so much of his sorrow when he screams that's why I do the same even though it's not easy with a girls voice. I do my best. Others scream in front of the mirror. Don't cut myself anymore. I hate life and all norms they impose on us. And no one does S about it!!:hmph:
 
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Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
"HAVE YOU SEEN ME BEFORE. HA HA."
I don't personally know you so why should it matter.

What's all this weird shit going on around me?
"FIGURE IT OUT!"

Well who are you?
"FIGURE IT OUT!"

Where do I fit in this?
"FIGURE it out!"

Now my life's even worse.
"TOO BAD. YOU CALLED US!"

You never told me who the hell you are.
"TOO BAD!"

I don't want to be around you. I don't like how this is going.
"IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT YOU CAN LEAVE!"
"FIGURE IT OUT"

Can I get my prescription filled?
"WE DONT FEEL SORRY FOR YOU"

This is confusing and doesn't make sense.
"YOU CALLED US AND IT DOESNT MATTER ANY WAY BECAUSE YOU'RE DYING. NO ONE WILL MISS YOU ANYWAY. YOU HAD TOO MANY CRACKERS IN YOUR MOUTH"

This is depressing and I don't want to be in it.
"GET OUT"

You left me worse off.
"BREAK HER DOWN EVEN MORE"
"YOU SEE THAT GUY WHO BREAKS THEM DOWN THEN GIVES THEM A JOB"

I didn't ask for a job.
"I DONT GIVE JOBS. I HIRE PEOPLE "

I don't like this. Is this help? Now I'm really confused. Do you call employees cats? It's depressing. I don't like the culture or most of the people I've come across. I refuse to be in this. It's bad for my self esteem, giving me worse depression.
-2018 I'm on disability. Leave me alone.
"BREAK HER DOWN EVEN FURTHER"
"WHAT WE ARE TRYING TO DO IS BREAK THIS ATTITUDE.

What attitude?
"WE DONT LIKE YOU. YOU ARE UGLY, FAT AND DONT DRESS LIKE US"

I don't want to be in this. This experience is causing me to feel really low and has changed me as a person. I don't want to be in this. My PTSD and depression are beating me down.
"GOOD" "HELP YOURSELF!" "STOP ACTING"
"IT'S YOUR FAULT. WE DON'T MAKE MISTAKES"
 
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ClairyFairy

ClairyFairy

Wizard
Jan 22, 2021
623
I'm a stupid fucking idiot who can't do anything right. My family only speak to me because they have to. They use the word love but I know I'm a burden. They want me to be happy when I feel angry. I don't want people to care about me. It makes what I have to do harder. I feel like they only care because they have to. How embarrassing would it be to my parents and siblings that one of their own ctb? It would be awful for them to admit that shit. They care about what other people think. Not what I think and I'm so pissed off about all of them and all of this
 
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Deleted member 22624

Deleted member 22624

One foot in the grave
Oct 7, 2020
1,085
To be in pain but have people care is the most conflicting feeling, I can't even stand thinking about it anymore, I get moments where I hate myself and moments when I just want to go
 
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DetachedDreamer97

Enlightened
Mar 17, 2018
1,402
I may not be the brightest of the bunch, but I am not someone to be underestimated or dismissed as another fool who doesn't know what he's talking about. Thing is, in certain things depending on my obsessions, I'll have a stronger background in the subject than those same naysayers who try that bullshit with me. I share an idea based on my strengths, you best not try and dismiss or discredit me and then walk away like you've already won the argument, when it's just begun, ESPECIALLY if you ignored the crucial elements, you dumb ass ignoramuses!!! If I'm wrong about something, then thats fine. Explain and then we'll discuss the issue and I'll see if there's a way to mitigate the flaw. If not, then that's when the idea goes to the archives or the recycling bin. Okay?!
 
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Konjac

Konjac

Specialist
Oct 25, 2020
300
I wrote a massive rant BUT in true spirit of this thread it fucking deleted itself so I'm just gonna

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIMSOFUKCINGANGRYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAFUCKMYLIFDEIWANGTTOFUCKINGDIEASHJAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaAA

*mic drop*
 
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