Venting Rage Megathread.

[Brick In The Wall]

I feel like this should be a fucking thing. Discuss whatever the fuck has pissed you off today, past day, or week/month. Just let it out.

The ONLY rules here are to respect the guidelines of the forum, and to respect one another.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I have so many things I want to rage about I just don't know where to begin lol

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I have so many things I want to rage about I just don't know where to begin lol

Well you aren't alone, you've come to the right place my friend!

So I suppose I should help kick this shit off. I'm more then a bit upset lately. Which is why I've been not giving two shits about much of anything.

No one seems to care when you're in our position. I've been abandoned by family and friends who say they'll always be there. But they dip at the drop of a pin of course.

I'm trying a new method of recovery with some success yes. But nothing seems to be either fast enough or good enough for me. I'm in anger management courses now, not because I'm an angry type of guy. But the courses and the situation are definitely starting to make me into what they're trying to "cure" me of.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

Well first things first, why did my parents give birth to me? Why did they have to give birth to me? Me of all people. I'm sure as hell that I didn't ask for this and yet they physically abused me thinking they were doing it cause they "loved" me or they couldn't control their own emotions.
Was obedience more important than your own child's wellbeing? Was pressure on getting good grades more important than your own child's well being?
And why does my grandparents keep comparing me with my cousins and my brother?
I'm not a toy that you can 'love' and then start comparing others with.
And this is just the beginning

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Well first things first, why did my parents give birth to me? Why did they have to give birth to me? Me of all people. I'm sure as hell that I didn't ask for this and yet they physically abused me thinking they were doing it cause they "loved" me or they couldn't control their own emotions.
Was obedience more important than your own child's wellbeing? Was pressure on getting good grades more important than your own child's well being?
And why does my grandparents keep comparing me with my cousins and my brother?
I'm not a toy that you can 'love' and then start comparing others with.
And this is just the beginning

Yes, let it out!

You're not a fucking toy, and no you didn't ask for this. Fuck good grades, fuck your cousins, and your brother. They aren't you. You are what matter in this situation.

So many parents have kids just to have them. But then they have no clue on how to raise them. I'm also a victim of this same old world mentality.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

Yes, let it out!

You're not a fucking toy, and no you didn't ask for this. Fuck good grades, fuck your cousins, and your brother. They aren't you. You are what matter in this situation.

So many parents have kids just to have them. But then they have no clue on how to raise them. I'm also a victim of this same old world mentality.

I think most traditional parents have this mindset. It sucks. It's like they don't know that they're the problem. And they blame you for everything you do wrong.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I think most traditional parents have this mindset. It sucks. It's like they don't know that they're the problem. And they blame you for everything you do wrong.

Again you're correct. Let it out. I'd like to hear about more. You said it's only the beginning, so let it loose.

I'd also love to see anyone else share to this thread. Don't be so shy, you know it's been pent up for too long. That's part of why you're here.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I'm angry at the world. Why do people pretend to care about you? Why do people use you? Why do people have to use each other and tear down each other and manipulate each other to survive? Why do people project their feelings onto you?
And on social media, why do people show off so much? It's not like you're getting any prize at the end. Why are people obsessed with that kind of thing? It's as if they're more afraid of reality and death more than anyone else in the world.(more than us on this site)
And why the stigma on mental health?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Someone else now cmon, don't be shy. This is most assuredly a part of why most of us are here. Consider this free therapy.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

Yeah don't be shy :)

 

[SlackJim]

I'm angry that people love me enough to make it too difficult to ctb, but not enough to help me get better

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I'm angry that people love me enough to make it too difficult to ctb, but not enough to help me get better

It's like the only thing people seem to good at. It should be their college major or something.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I'm angry that people love me enough to make it too difficult to ctb, but not enough to help me get better

That's something that's pissed me off numerous times before. How'd they stop you with ctb, did they guilt you?

 

[Hydrokhoos]

This is really what I needed today. I finally pulled myself out of a bad spiral enough to study for a final I had today. The entire study guide was about different statistical methods, with examples about how you would look at different factors associated with suicidal tendencies.

It's not even a statistics or psychology class.

It made it really hard to study and not hyperfocus on how I could use descriptive statistics to explain how my life got so fucked up.

Wtf, Dr. B. Not cool.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

This is really what I needed today. I finally pulled myself out of a bad spiral enough to study for a final I had today. The entire study guide was about different statistical methods, with examples about how you would look at different factors associated with suicidal tendencies.

It's not even a statistics or psychology class.

It made it really hard to study and not hyperfocus on how I could use descriptive statistics to explain how my life got so fucked up.

Wtf, Dr. B. Not cool.

I didn't know you could use statistical methods for suicidal tendencies.
It's like everything's just to pass a grade and nothing in college is supposed to help you am I right college professors? (sarcasm)

 

[Brick In The Wall]

This is really what I needed today. I finally pulled myself out of a bad spiral enough to study for a final I had today. The entire study guide was about different statistical methods, with examples about how you would look at different factors associated with suicidal tendencies.

It's not even a statistics or psychology class.

It made it really hard to study and not hyperfocus on how I could use descriptive statistics to explain how my life got so fucked up.

Wtf, Dr. B. Not cool.

Now make a pie chart, line graph, and generally relish in the pain. How ironic that your course work should bring you to that. But you'd most assuredly master this one. Use it to your strength!

 

[NitriteAnatomy]

And don't really give two shits. A lot of people don't like to hear the truth of things and would rather turn a blind eye to everything, willingly. Many try to justify or even back up the fuckers that caused many of us to feel this way. My country is full of shit and not all the people here agree with wtf is going on, but nope, we all get lumped in since 'Murica. I'm tired of seeing bullies in life and on here, I'm sick of the bullshit we are all made to feel in our lives.

Yet, we can be bitched out or treated like dirt for feeling this way? Feeling the need or want to off ourselves, feeling like humor is the best outlet no matter what we really feel. Can't voice your opinion, anywhere, without all hell breaking loose half the time ( I have been guilty of this a time or two, as well, so I'm definitely no fucking angel). I hate what the world's become, I sure as fuck hate what society has become and seriously wish a fucking asteroid would hit us so we can get a reset.

Oh right, we have god complexes and would rather build whatever strikes our fancy in regards to ending people (except suicide, because it's ok to kill others, just not yourself). I also hope A.I. goes full fucking Terminator on these fucking morons, serves them right.

 

[Sensei]

I'm going absolutely f**king insane when I have to listen to the mindless clones I commute with. I don't give a millionth of a f**k what car colour is your favourite, when you collected your daughter from day care, that the house prices have gone up, that the weather probably will be better next week, that you've found a new recipe for mashed potatoes, or whatever the hell pops up in the vacuum of your heads. Are you totally empty? Are you dead? I have to listen to you one hour before work and one hour after work every f**king day. I can't leave the car. I must listen to you. One day I'll bring a VX gas canister so you can continue babbling in hell.

 

[OneBigBlur]

And don't really give two shits. A lot of people don't like to hear the truth of things and would rather turn a blind eye to everything, willingly.

I agree, I told my therapist the truth today about how little she gives a shit and she still made up an excuse. Must be nice to be delusional! Unfortunately for many on here, nobody cares in their real lives and I'm constantly seeing that in their goodbye threads.

The Terminator would be too merciful for humanity tbh. I'd rather just see them destroy themselves.

I'm going absolutely f**king insane when I have to listen to the mindless clones I commute with. I don't give a millionth of a f**k what car colour is your favourite, when you collected your daughter from day care, that the house prices have gone up, that the weather probably will be better next week, that you've found a new recipe for mashed potatoes, or whatever the hell pops up in the vacuum of your heads. Are you totally empty? Are you dead? I have to listen to you one hour before work and one hour after work every f**king day. I can't leave the car. I must listen to you. One day I'll bring a VX gas canister so you can continue babbling in hell.

I fucking laughed so hard at reading this.

 

[BlueWidow]

Brick In The Wall, you are a genius! This is the best thread idea ever!

I don't have much to rage about right now because I just put it all in a different thread. It would've been too long to put here. I don't want to hijack your thread. But when I have something I can rage about quickly, I'll be back!

 

[WhyIsLife56]

What makes this annoying is that I think I have food stuck in my throat. I either ate too quickly or didn't chew well. Might need to go to the ER :(

 

[NitriteAnatomy]

What makes this annoying is that I think I have food stuck in my throat. I either ate too quickly or didn't chew well. Might need to go to the ER :(

Fastest way to explain how to do this, if it's needed.

 

[noctiva]

I'm so angry at myself! I hate that I am not as good as I would like to be, that I'm not as kind as considerate as desirable, that I cannot make people that are special to me feel special and heard and seen. And I get rejected for my shortcomings every time and yet I do not get better! I am angry that this has pushed me towards ctb but I do not want to cycle through this experience again and again and again.
I've tried to be good enough this time, but still I failed. The cycle has to end here and now, I've had enough of never being good enough!

A buddhist nun I really love says that depression is just internalized anger, and I think she is right in my case at least.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

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Fastest way to explain how to do this, if it's needed.

I looked online and it said drink water or some sort of liquid to get the food into the stomach but it doesn't seem to work at all

I'm so angry at myself! I hate that I am not as good as I would like to be, that I'm not as kind as considerate as desirable, that I cannot make people that are special to me feel special and heard and seen. And I get rejected for my shortcomings every time and yet I do not get better! I am angry that this has pushed me towards ctb but I do not want to cycle through this experience again and again and again.
I've tried to be good enough this time, but still I failed. The cycle has to end here and now, I've had enough of never being good enough!

A buddhist nun I really love says that depression is just internalized anger, and I think she is right in my case at least.

Oh it's internalized all right. Whether it's sadness or anger or a mixture of both.
If said life is a gift, why are people on a suicide forum?

I'm angry at the world. Why do people pretend to care about you? Why do people use you? Why do people have to use each other and tear down each other and manipulate each other to survive? Why do people project their feelings onto you?
And on social media, why do people show off so much? It's not like you're getting any prize at the end. Why are people obsessed with that kind of thing? It's as if they're more afraid of reality and death more than anyone else in the world.(more than us on this site)
And why the stigma on mental health?

Continuing my rant here, if said life is a gift, why are those people on a suicide forum? It doesn't make any sense. Like it really blows my mind

 

[BlueWidow]

I'm so angry at myself! I hate that I am not as good as I would like to be, that I'm not as kind as considerate as desirable, that I cannot make people that are special to me feel special and heard and seen. And I get rejected for my shortcomings every time and yet I do not get better! I am angry that this has pushed me towards ctb but I do not want to cycle through this experience again and again and again.
I've tried to be good enough this time, but still I failed. The cycle has to end here and now, I've had enough of never being good enough!

A buddhist nun I really love says that depression is just internalized anger, and I think she is right in my case at least.

A therapist wants told me a similar thing.

Depression is anger turned inward on yourself.

 

[MeltingHeart]

Im Angry my SN has not arrived!!

 

[BlueWidow]

The Role of Anger in Depression

The more we can take our own side and resist the tendency to turn our anger on ourselves, the more we can challenge our depression.

www.psychologytoday.com

The Perplexing Notion of Depression as “Anger Turned Inward”

An attack-self coping response to shame is prominent in depression.

www.psychologytoday.com

Two articles about depression as anger turned inward.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I'm angry that it took me so long to build up any semblance of self- esteem & someone knocked every ounce of it out me. Which I know I didn't need deserve

 

[c824767]

i am angry that my boyfriend wants to rent out a room to some homeless first nations who have a perfectly good place to stay in Tofino with their band but they feel they want to be sleeping in the street on the east coast of Vancouver Island. How crazy is that !

 

[OneBigBlur]

I looked online and it said drink water or some sort of liquid to get the food into the stomach but it doesn't seem to work at all

Oh it's internalized all right. Whether it's sadness or anger or a mixture of both.
If said life is a gift, why are people on a suicide forum?

Continuing my rant here, if said life is a gift, why are those people on a suicide forum? It doesn't make any sense. Like it really blows my mind

Normal people ignore what reality is actually like because it's inconvenient for them. Most of them know that life isn't actually a gift but as long as their own lives are okay they have no problem ignoring the suffering around them. The people that show off on FB are often showing the illusion of a good life and they tend to be the most shallow and materialistic people in existence.