ambivalent_thespian
Depressed Theatre Adult
- Oct 5, 2023
- 39
i'm currently sitting on a closed off portion of a bridge. my car is a short walk away. i don't want to keep going on. i'm so so close to taking my car and intentionally getting into a fatal accident. there theoretically wouldn't be any victims because it's late enough at night that the place i'm planning on going to should be closed, but i might scout the area beforehand to be sure. this might not be the best place to ask this but i need a reason not to do it. please. I don't want to die, I'm happy here, but I still hear her voice in my head. I can't get any help for this because my symptoms are subclincal. It's not fair, why does she get to do this to us? I'm an adult, but I'm under 21. I theoretically have my whole life ahead of me but what's the point when I can't even get the help I need? It'll never get better and this was an impulsive decision. I don't want to do this but i don't know why I shouldn't. I don't think anyone really cares about me or understands what I went through. Please.
decided to not go through with it but i guess support would still be welcomed
decided to not go through with it but i guess support would still be welcomed
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