• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block.

ambivalent_thespian

ambivalent_thespian

Depressed Theatre Adult
Oct 5, 2023
39
i'm currently sitting on a closed off portion of a bridge. my car is a short walk away. i don't want to keep going on. i'm so so close to taking my car and intentionally getting into a fatal accident. there theoretically wouldn't be any victims because it's late enough at night that the place i'm planning on going to should be closed, but i might scout the area beforehand to be sure. this might not be the best place to ask this but i need a reason not to do it. please. I don't want to die, I'm happy here, but I still hear her voice in my head. I can't get any help for this because my symptoms are subclincal. It's not fair, why does she get to do this to us? I'm an adult, but I'm under 21. I theoretically have my whole life ahead of me but what's the point when I can't even get the help I need? It'll never get better and this was an impulsive decision. I don't want to do this but i don't know why I shouldn't. I don't think anyone really cares about me or understands what I went through. Please.
decided to not go through with it but i guess support would still be welcomed
 
Last edited:
  • Hugs
Reactions: monetpompo, Praestat_Mori, L9my and 2 others
imtiredasf

imtiredasf

Member
May 23, 2025
61
I'm glad you decided not to.
Ambivalent is also a good word.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
Reactions: L9my

Similar threads

OhMyStars
Replies
3
Views
259
Suicide Discussion
hippiedeath
hippiedeath
K
Replies
3
Views
251
Suicide Discussion
kalashnikova
K
T
Replies
3
Views
141
Suicide Discussion
FadeToBlack1109
F
Aiyuxiao
Replies
22
Views
865
Suicide Discussion
Aiyuxiao
Aiyuxiao