Help psychological shock?

[Niko]

somebody here must know what this means? psychological shock?

something kind of awful happened to me recently and i'm too embarrassed to discuss it right now. but my automatic reaction seems to be that i've entered a kind of shocked state.. my brain and body are almost paralyzed and all i can manage is to sleep or stare into space while i wait for sleep again. i've tried stimulants and caffeine but still i can hardly move and barely breathe.

i'm trying get myself to snap out of it but it's like a spell is on me? is this normal? does this happen to people? did i just eat something weird? it feels biological more than psychological, and i have no control here.

I need to fix this somehow because it's making my life worse than it already is. how the fuck do i get out of here??

 

[Niko]

i will admit i still do have some sort of energy that allows me to post on here and eat snacks

 

[hunter_lewis]

i will admit i still do have some sort of energy that allows me to post on here and eat snacks

I would try seeking professional help for this.

 

[Niko]

I would try seeking professional help for this.

i think you're correct actually. i had a therapist, actually 2 therapists now, who i can honestly say made my life better. i miss them dearly but they had to move on with new jobs and the like. it just feels like such a rare thing, kind of like a soulmate in a non-romantic way, to find somebody you can connect with and can truly help you out and i can't see me getting that lucky again. but yeah, i would like some help.

 

[hunter_lewis]

i think you're correct actually. i had a therapist, actually 2 therapists now, who i can honestly say made my life better. i miss them dearly but they had to move on with new jobs and the like. it just feels like such a rare thing, kind of like a soulmate in a non-romantic way, to find somebody you can connect with and can truly help you out and i can't see me getting that lucky again. but yeah, i would like some help.

in what country are you?
Are you German?
I can totally understand how hard it is to find a therapist-most of them have little interest in your problems and only want your cash.
Anyway, I would really recommend somone professional to you. You don't seem like you want to die quite yet. There is hope for you left. If this is what you want.

 

[Niko]

in what country are you?
Are you German?
I can totally understand how hard it is to find a therapist-most of them have little interest in your problems and only want your cash.
Anyway, I would really recommend somone professional to you. You don't seem like you want to die quite yet. There is hope for you left. If this is what you want.

no i'm an american actually.

but yeah i don't know what i want anymore or where i'm going. i'm in a lethargic chaos, everything i thought i knew was a lie and the world feels like a really long and really bad dream i'm sleepwalking through. i'd give anything to go back in time and stay where i was when things made sense, but that's impossible so what else can i do.

i appreciate your feedback though