Psychodelics, weed, "natural drugs", ketamine, and more in the short/ long run.

[dandan]

I spent 20 years in depression.
As i looked for treatment and pharmaceuticals medicine didn't bring relieve in the long run many of them, I looked into "drugs" or psychoactive substances. Yes, some of them brought experiences and what seemed to be a mild relieve, but nothing sticks in the long run, I personally cat recommend any single one,
I have continued to smoke weed every two, three months i have found the taste to buy a big bag and smoke it during 1 or 2 weeks. And then quit again, because my mind cant function great with it, I get more scared about the future in my life.
Few beers every now and then sure, I don't have a problem with 2,3, 4 beers.
But in my personal experience drugs did more damage than good, in the long run.

The only thing that has worked for me in the last 20 years, is Testosterone and Dianabol, and hitting the gym every morning, not today because today I fast and ho for blood samples for my doctor, doctor which I consulted after feeling good with testo and dianabol, only 1 week after consuming it.

I'm pretty glad I have found something that works for me, if someone is trying a combination of drugs because he/she:
Feels antisocial
Wants to die
Dont want to leave the bed
Is sad about life
Doesn't understand what is happening
Finds reasons to be sad but cant understand why they cant do nothing about it
Or are you thinking about CTB , or attempting to CTB again like me.....

Trying Testosterone and Dianabol seems far fetched..... but after I tried it all..... I was not able to drink my N without making an attempt first to the recommendation I got here on SS.
Testosterone is the masculine hormone, present in woman too according to my doctor.
Dianabol is an anabolic steroid which practically I heard it also has the properties of making you feel good.

Downside: Testosterone sure has it disadvantages, I only know if I didn't use it i would feel like dying.
And that's not today.

 

[helpmehelpme]

have me thinking about testosterone ... also ketogenic diet supposed to raise T, I have heard

 

[dandan]

have me thinking about testosterone ... also ketogenic diet supposed to raise T, I have heard

Never heard that one before, I'll check it later , writing it down

 

[Throwawaysoul]

Downside: Testosterone sure has it disadvantages, I only know if I didn't use it i would feel like dying.

I want to try testosterone, but this statement scares me.

How long after not taking testosterone do these feelings start again?

Do you need to take it for life now? The little research I've done says it's pretty pricey.

 

[dandan]

I want to try testosterone, but this statement scares me.

How long after not taking testosterone do these feelings start again?

Do you need to take it for life now? The little research I've done says it's pretty pricey.

First of all I have not stopped using it for the last almost 6and a half months.
If I stopped and I went to feel back as i did before it wouldn't be nice or good. Going back to wish to stay in my room and scared of life, like i did before, i dont even want to make the test of stop using it.
Is it for life? Gosh... probably i really dont know but i go with a specialist he says we can try stop using it and see if we can get my body to create Testosterone again, it's my choice if I want to give it a shot.
Could it be for life, yeah its possible. Would I mind? Probably , but it's something I can deal with.

I believe it's the cheapest treatment ever lol.
In Mexico it's cheap.
Pricey? Pricey is going to a shrink, or buying psychiatric medication. Testosterone can be bought underground in muscle building gyms or Facebook.

I also take dianabol. It's a feel good anabolic.

And no, you wont get like Arnold Schwarzenegger. not with small amount and with little gym and regular food, no way.

 

[helpmehelpme]

Tempted to try a mushroom trip to get me out of this hole. Have a source. Need a trusted guide ...
ps ketamine didn't move the needle for me. Weed is highly variable. Sometimes worsens things, sometimes helps.

 

[dandan]

Tempted to try a mushroom trip to get me out of this hole. Have a source. Need a trusted guide ...
ps ketamine didn't move the needle for me. Weed is highly variable. Sometimes worsens things, sometimes helps.

ketamine didnt move the needle..... then that probalby wasnt ketamine, that shit is strong as I cant say, very strong....
did you cooked it yourself in the microwave? or oven or something? must have been aquired from an unworthy source...

in mexico some shrooms are available. dont know in USA, but everything is on facebook man, you just gotta learn how to search for it... may take you 1 day or two

 

[helpmehelpme]

ketamine didnt move the needle..... then that probalby wasnt ketamine, that shit is strong as I cant say, very strong....
did you cooked it yourself in the microwave? or oven or something? must have been aquired from an unworthy source...

in mexico some shrooms are available. dont know in USA, but everything is on facebook man, you just gotta learn how to search for it... may take you 1 day or two

It was a ketamine clinic, so it was the real thing. Unfortunately I wasn't a responder.

 

[LittleJem]

It was a ketamine clinic, so it was the real thing. Unfortunately I wasn't a responder.

did they give you a series of treatments? Think it takes a series to test it. Really sorry it didn't work for you, truly. I tried it at home and it nhelped me for around six days. The first time I took it, didn't do much.

5 MEO DMT is very beautiful and worth trying. it didn't cure my depression, but I do like it!

I am currently personally taking Profrontal (Sarcosine and NAC supplements). They have been helping a lot - it's anbout week 2 ish. I did start to feel low again tihs morning, so I threw some Phenibut at myself.

there is a Russian Nootropic called Bromantine - that is meant to be good. Worth looking up.

Phenibut is nice - it can safely be used maybe once a week.

I am also going to take Modafinal once or twice a week. it really brightens my mood - though apparent the mood-brightening effects can fade after a few days or a week - so I am rationing it.

I am also getting Fisher Wallace headphones. No clue if htey will work, but looking forward to trying them.

I wish I could help everyone with this shitty illness.