Leaving religion made suicide an option. It's hard to progress in life knowing I can just end it -- at the same time, I know I never will. Can't transfer that pain onto my family.
Making money / life achievements in general give me no joy or satisfaction....other than temporary relief that the job's finished. My ADHD might be to blame for this, and there are no meds for that in Egypt.
Above all I'm tired of wanting and longing. Desire is so heavy. I don't know what I want anymore or if there's truly something I want.
Making money / life achievements in general give me no joy or satisfaction....other than temporary relief that the job's finished. My ADHD might be to blame for this, and there are no meds for that in Egypt.
Above all I'm tired of wanting and longing. Desire is so heavy. I don't know what I want anymore or if there's truly something I want.
