Probably leaving this world next month, any sort of advice?

[Jupit3rs]

Hello wonderful souls... I'm thinking of ending everything next month if possible. I don't have a fix date yet but I just realized that I cant do this any longer, too much pain, too much suffering. Nothing seems to change my destiny and trying to be normal doesn't work at all, i feel like impostor, like a puppet pretending to be human.
My method is (sadly) hanging, so I'm curious if there is any precautions I should take? Maybe some advice? Idc if its about my method, I just wanna know if i'm missing something.

Thanks for the help in advance, I'm hope everyone is having a better night than me rn.

 

[Zegers]

Have you thought about the method or is it the option available to you?

See you on other side

 

[Jupit3rs]

Have you thought about the method or is it the option available to you?

See you on other side

I only had two options: hanging or trying the baking soda+citric acid method... Which doesn't have much information based on my research, so I don't wanna risk it. I'm going with hanging bc I already have the rope and i'll just do it in my room... But I'm terrified of messing everything up

 

[Zegers]

I only had two options: hanging or trying the baking soda+citric acid method... Which doesn't have much information based on my research, so I don't wanna risk it. I'm going with hanging bc I already have the rope and i'll just do it in my room... But I'm terrified of messing everything up

It's curious how everyone is different, for me hanging would be unfeasible... but not jumping and for other people the opposite.

 

[IntelligentLeg]

Try to make sure that nobody will find you. If someone finds you too soon, you could end up as a vegetable.Your body will jerk around afterwords. Make sure the rope is tight.

 

[A simple aid]

Im not trying to raise uproars....but dont you guys think that as a community if you see someone in a pit...you dont just bring em the matches to light themselves up...but you kind of ask ....how did you get here...perhaps see if he can get up and finally if theres no hope then accept his choice....most of the people who are here the only ears theyve had are medical people thinking they mad....or people wholl never(relatively) understand.........so yeah yeah yeah...ill ask.....i hope people kinder and better than me can continue.....

Hello wonderful souls... I'm thinking of ending everything next month if possible. I don't have a fix date yet but I just realized that I cant do this any longer, too much pain, too much suffering. Nothing seems to change my destiny and trying to be normal doesn't work at all, i feel like impostor, like a puppet pretending to be human.
My method is (sadly) hanging, so I'm curious if there is any precautions I should take? Maybe some advice? Idc if its about my method, I just wanna know if i'm missing something.

Thanks for the help in advance, I'm hope everyone is having a better night than me rn.

so.....the obvious ....how...why...and you have like a week ryt to it wont really change much if you say fuck the world once and for all...and share your woes

 

[SectOfValtiel]

Im not trying to raise uproars....but dont you guys think that as a community if you see someone in a pit...you dont just bring em the matches to light themselves up

I know where youre coming from, and I know its something Im still trying to fully understand myself
But I get the impression that just isnt the kind of place this is, you dont come here if you werent already going to light those matches, at least for a lot of people here I think thats the case
A lot of them have because theyve already given up, or theyve already tried everything else, or theyre more scared of trying than of giving up, or because theyre tired of having to explain this to people that dont understand it and would rather give up

I dont want *anyone* to have to CTB, its awful needing to go to such extremes to escape
But ultimately its exactly that, an escape
Sometimes having to explain it- or having someone try to 'fix' it for you- is exactly part of why they need to escape in the first place
I try to keep that in mind is all Im saying

 

[A simple aid]

I know where youre coming from, and I know its something Im still trying to fully understand myself
But I get the impression that just isnt the kind of place this is, you dont come here if you werent already going to light those matches, at least for a lot of people here I think thats the case
A lot of them have because theyve already given up, or theyve already tried everything else, or theyre more scared of trying than of giving up, or because theyre tired of having to explain this to people that dont understand it and would rather give up

I dont want *anyone* to have to CTB, its awful needing to go to such extremes to escape
But ultimately its exactly that, an escape
Sometimes having to explain it- or having someone try to 'fix' it for you- is exactly part of why they need to escape in the first place
I try to keep that in mind is all Im saying

dude i love u your competent.....the problem is ....whatever they may have tried may not have been absolute and the help they sought 99% of the time did not understand them....becoming used to those things they generalised everything....its like going to ten 8am-9pm stores...not knowing the time range....looking mind you for an all night store....after going to the 10...(human nature being factored) you are very likely to assume theres no all night store in your area....that to me is the beauty of this community...people who understand ....some better some worse...have felt the sting of the world....and usually band up to blame and curse the world...but anyway....theres no better place for a last solution than here.....theres no better place for understanding than here....and to those who have supposedly given up....give each and everyone of them a chance and youll see not only a sliver of hope in their eyes but why their situation is what it is and how to manage it

 

[Muach]

@A simple aid : i don't think you get it, maybe you are prolife or something:

But most of us here are decided: we need to end it all. There is no 'what if's for us.

There are infinite good possibilities but life's trends show they don't happen for us
but For me, NOTHING DOES MATTER ANYMORE, I am dead already,

I Just need to stop breathing, but you don't understand.

 

[Jupit3rs]

Im not trying to raise uproars....but dont you guys think that as a community if you see someone in a pit...you dont just bring em the matches to light themselves up...but you kind of ask ....how did you get here...perhaps see if he can get up and finally if theres no hope then accept his choice....most of the people who are here the only ears theyve had are medical people thinking they mad....or people wholl never(relatively) understand.........so yeah yeah yeah...ill ask.....i hope people kinder and better than me can continue.....

so.....the obvious ....how...why...and you have like a week ryt to it wont really change much if you say fuck the world once and for all...and share your woes

First of all, i'm not going to change my mind about ending my life. I'm choosing this path and you might like it or hate it, that's not my problem. It can be next month or even in a few years, the thing is that I'll do it.
I been suffering since i was a little child so I dont see the point in keep trying because nothing has worked. This world is not for me and im okay with it.
I'm here, right? So I know what i'm doing, I know that others will be hurt in the process and that there's the chance of failing, yet, I still want to quit everything.
Thanks for your concern anyways.

 

[A simple aid]

@A simple aid : i don't think you get it, maybe you are prolife or something:

But most of us here are decided: we need to end it all. There is no 'what if's for us.

There are infinite good possibilities but life's trends show they don't happen for us
but For me, NOTHING DOES MATTER ANYMORE, I am dead already,

I Just need to stop breathing, but you don't understand.

well im not prolife...im not really pro anything....im simply an aid....now your great desire for death comes from a great desire to flee something...relief is born out of suffering....therefore theres something amiss....now you say i dont understand .....i may not understand you my dear person...but i do understand your world...you are right life is pointless and meaningless in totality...so all humans give it meaning and to those that fail to......death becomes their reason....the thing is... however long you lived youve only met the kind of person youd find on this site ) 0.1% in proportion to the people in the world as youd call pro lifers....now there is the possibility that if possible those here understand your pain and being outside of your pain can address your wound after all the guy screaming usually doesnt heal himself....so trust me i get it.....maybe not you....but the idea...the people on this site whom you say are beyond reach...stand right at the gate....for they are alive...a good number also with many attempts....ask how many wouldnt just like to die in peace asleep...naturally .....rather than try so hard in vain and be ostracized by all who hear their plight....i ask those who are willing to be of aid....to aid these people....understanding their pain and sorrow...and to those who are dead set....if they die...we salute them "good luck sir/madam" ...and if they fail....and are in a worse state most likely....to sum up...its like jumping into a freezing pool and not dying and coming out....we are the warm blanket for them as they contemplate their next supposed attempt...or perhaps try again with a different tactic....that is all.....

 

[Jupit3rs]

dude i love u your competent.....the problem is ....whatever they may have tried may not have been absolute and the help they sought 99% of the time did not understand them....becoming used to those things they generalised everything....its like going to ten 8am-9pm stores...not knowing the time range....looking mind you for an all night store....after going to the 10...(human nature being factored) you are very likely to assume theres no all night store in your area....that to me is the beauty of this community...people who understand ....some better some worse...have felt the sting of the world....and usually band up to blame and curse the world...but anyway....theres no better place for a last solution than here.....theres no better place for understanding than here....and to those who have supposedly given up....give each and everyone of them a chance and youll see not only a sliver of hope in their eyes but why their situation is what it is and how to manage it

This is just ridiculous, if i wanted this kind of advice, i would have gone anywhere because this is the mentality most people has. "What if"... always about the potential self ignoring the person suffering right now. We can talk about hypotheticals for hours, but trust me, it will not change a thing because guess what? Many of those scenarios can either happen or not, possibilities are endless but my pain cannot wait more.
Thanks? But really, this is just not it.

 

[A simple aid]

First of all, i'm not going to change my mind about ending my life. I'm choosing this path and you might like it or hate it, that's not my problem. It can be next month or even in a few years, the thing is that I'll do it.
I been suffering since i was a little child so I dont see the point in keep trying because nothing has worked. This world is not for me and im okay with it.
I'm here, right? So I know what i'm doing, I know that others will be hurt in the process and that there's the chance of failing, yet, I still want to quit everything.
Thanks for your concern anyways.

lol.....anyway...as im sure my intentions have been well stated earlier....why dont you tell me what your woes are and of course being as absolute as they may be even i wont dare question your intentions....you claim to notice people may be hurt by your departure....deep down i know that give you comfort...truth be told people care about death because of potential of the dead...nostalgia of the dead....and the guilt of not being able to do something about it...very selfish many here would say.....you are going to die anyway...so why not give anyone who reaches a hand out a chance....its like a pit.... if your really that stuck....no number hands will pull you ...out

This is just ridiculous, if i wanted this kind of advice, i would have gone anywhere because this is the mentality most people has. "What if"... always about the potential self ignoring the person suffering right now. We can talk about hypotheticals for hours, but trust me, it will not change a thing because guess what? Many of those scenarios can either happen or not, possibilities are endless but my pain cannot wait more.
Thanks? But really, this is just not it.

well at least you are conversing with me which is good....you will die soon...as you believe...you are in pain...but fit enough to type and respond...probably feel some rage also...i understand the oversaturation of the general populace and their beliefs...but i ask you as a friend sitting by you in the wind asking why the need for the trip....not necessarily the typical..well whatever to you is typical....but i mean i never knew a person who preferred to suffer alone...even i never share though my problem is always based on if the person can understand...surely if you feel i cant...which i probably can...then thats fine...you came alone you suffer alone you die alone....what have you got to lose...who can hurt a dead man or backstab him....

Also truth be told.....you wont find this supposed advice elsewhere....thats the point of this site

 

[SectOfValtiel]

theres no better place for a last solution than here.....theres no better place for understanding than here....and to those who have supposedly given up....give each and everyone of them a chance and youll see not only a sliver of hope in their eyes but why their situation is what it is and how to manage it

Hope is a finite resource that a lot of us just do not have
And I can promise you, trying to force your own hopefulness on others can cause a lot more harm than good- I know because Ive been on both sides of that

Yes, I wish we could all find happiness and move on from the things that hurt us
Yes I think theres value in talking about it
But ultimately this all boils down to respecting someones right to do what they want with their own life, and by having this mentality and acting on it, you are not

I can respect you a lot for trying to help, please dont get me wrong
But the fact is help wasnt asked for
Not the kind youre offering

 

[A simple aid]

Hope is a finite resource that a lot of us just do not have
And I can promise you, trying to force your own hopefulness on others can cause a lot more harm than good- I know because Ive been on both sides of that

Yes, I wish we could all find happiness and move on from the things that hurt us
Yes I think theres value in talking about it
But ultimately this all boils down to respecting someones right to do what they want with their own life, and by having this mentality and acting on it, you are not

I can respect you a lot for trying to help, please dont get me wrong
But the fact is help wasnt asked for
Not the kind youre offering

no problem my guy.....i dont believe in hope....im a realist im a pessimist....i look at probability and likelyhood...so when i look at people in interesting situations i dont feel hopeful....i simply see problems that if they might be interested can be managed...if.....now happiness is subjective ....and moving on is almost impossible...im the management kind of guy .....but anyway bro do what you think is best....perhaps someone might benefit from my crusade or maybe not...after all you cant push them harder to death...

Hope is a finite resource that a lot of us just do not have
And I can promise you, trying to force your own hopefulness on others can cause a lot more harm than good- I know because Ive been on both sides of that

Yes, I wish we could all find happiness and move on from the things that hurt us
Yes I think theres value in talking about it
But ultimately this all boils down to respecting someones right to do what they want with their own life, and by having this mentality and acting on it, you are not

I can respect you a lot for trying to help, please dont get me wrong
But the fact is help wasnt asked for
Not the kind youre offering

oh and yes you are very right help wasnt asked for but....why not...i mean its not like its some obnoxious little girl pestering and asking you why you dont have a right testicle....its people like you who have no manhood at all...so yeah....plus they still alive....they should be dead...yet even that is hard and gets harder

Also if youve noticed a lot of people complain saying no one cares....and they call empathy being able to sense and feel peoples pain...so usually they mean people dont care when they going about in life and no ones asking em whats wrong...and even when they do ...how could they understand....if we all waiting for some to say i need help or want it...wed be in a way worse world driving people to way more suicide...thats just my 2 cents anyway...

 

[Euthanza]

Where are you from? In my country Indonesia, SN SA and propranolol can be ordered online easily but afaik they don't ship abroad, sadly

 

[Jupit3rs]

lol.....anyway...as im sure my intentions have been well stated earlier....why dont you tell me what your woes are and of course being as absolute as they may be even i wont dare question your intentions....you claim to notice people may be hurt by your departure....deep down i know that give you comfort...truth be told people care about death because of potential of the dead...nostalgia of the dead....and the guilt of not being able to do something about it...very selfish many here would say.....you are going to die anyway...so why not give anyone who reaches a hand out a chance....its like a pit.... if your really that stuck....no number hands will pull you ...out

well at least you are conversing with me which is good....you will die soon...as you believe...you are in pain...but fit enough to type and respond...probably feel some rage also...i understand the oversaturation of the general populace and their beliefs...but i ask you as a friend sitting by you in the wind asking why the need for the trip....not necessarily the typical..well whatever to you is typical....but i mean i never knew a person who preferred to suffer alone...even i never share though my problem is always based on if the person can understand...surely if you feel i cant...which i probably can...then thats fine...you came alone you suffer alone you die alone....what have you got to lose...who can hurt a dead man or backstab him....

Also truth be told.....you wont find this supposed advice elsewhere....thats the point of this site

Why should i tell you my "woes"? Will you judge if my pain is valid or no? Is that even okay to do here? Thanks for trying to "help" but I really didn't ask for this.
I hope you have a great day anyways.

 

[niiina]

My method is (sadly) hanging, so I'm curious if there is any precautions I should take? Maybe some advice? Idc if its about my method, I just wanna know if i'm missing something.

Strong ligature, strong knots, make sure to tie it in a way it won't slip away, make sure no one will come
And based on my experience: kick that chair when you step out of it, so no return for sure

 

[Jupit3rs]

Where are you from? In my country Indonesia, SN SA and propranolol can be ordered online easily but afaik they don't ship abroad, sadly

South america, sadly my country is pretty strict so I'm stuck with what I have

 

[A simple aid]

Why should i tell you my "woes"? Will you judge if my pain is valid or no? Is that even okay to do here? Thanks for trying to "help" but I really didn't ask for this.
I hope you have a great day anyways.

its pretty funny how you said will you judge if my pain is valid or no........i get it bro ...youve suffered...your tired your exhausted....and youve had enough...its just in case your interested...perhaps youll consider it if you fail....after you fail...if you never do it....if your gone ....enjoy man.....its just most "help" medical or otherwise is pretty sucky...so hopefully it doesnt give everything else a bad name

 

[Forever Sleep]

perhaps someone might benefit from my crusade or maybe not.

I'm guessing your 'crusade' is to help/ save people? That's admirable that you care. I do see where you are coming from- that perhaps some people can still be 'saved' given a genuinely concerned ear and constructive advice... Maybe.

However- I'd say- you can generally tell whether someone is looking for a lifeline by what they post. I think/ hope your intentions are good and kind (although you might not want to use 'lol' in conversations like these. The subject isn't all that funny...) However, you're more likely to get a lot of flack for asking people to open up about their woes- I'm sure again that your intentions are kind but it also can come across as you wanting to judge whether their reasons are good enough.

Plus, I'm not sure HOW you are going to solve everyone's problems. Asides from reframing them/ making practical steps to change them... which they most likely have heard all their lives and you also need to bear in mind many people here are already too beaten down and exhausted to turn their lives around.

Sorry for having a go at you. I do admire what you are trying to do in terms of you caring about your fellow person. However, I imagine either the 'Recovery' section or posts where people seem to be asking for advice is the best place to try to help. All the best to you though.

 

[A simple aid]

I'm guessing your 'crusade' is to help/ save people? That's admirable that you care. I do see where you are coming from- that perhaps some people can still be 'saved' given a genuinely concerned ear and constructive advice... Maybe.

However- I'd say- you can generally tell whether someone is looking for a lifeline by what they post. I think/ hope your intentions are good and kind (although you might not want to use 'lol' in conversations like these. The subject isn't all that funny...) However, you're more likely to get a lot of flack for asking people to open up about their woes- I'm sure again that your intentions are kind but it also can come across as you wanting to judge whether their reasons are good enough.

Plus, I'm not sure HOW you are going to solve everyone's problems. Asides from reframing them/ making practical steps to change them... which they most likely have heard all their lives and you also need to bear in mind many people here are already too beaten down and exhausted to turn their lives around.

Sorry for having a go at you. I do admire what you are trying to do in terms of you caring about your fellow person. However, I imagine either the 'Recovery' section or posts where people seem to be asking for advice is the best place to try to help. All the best to you though.

nice post...well you are kind of right....i picked here instead of recovery because its a different frame of mind...now this so called crusade aint about helping people and being all self righteous...its more like a chat with a random guy while waiting for a train...plus it seems some people been here for a loooong while...and i do dare to imagine that id tell them stuff people likely havent after all...people in your lives are generally average...that is why you go to specialists....oh and you didnt have a go at me you made good points and are relatively defending the interests of well....i guess someone seeking a method....also his post was kinda open...not like a method or this or that but....oh well no problem...and forgive my laughing im not social capable

 

[Euthanza]

South america, sadly my country is pretty strict so I'm stuck with what I have

I'd still suggest you at least to buy some alcohol or benzos to minimize the pain.
I have seen several hanging videos in gore site, not sure if you want to see it to learn more technical infos. I personally think hanging is better than jumping since I have chronic acrophobia but actually I also think jumping is faster despite the mess.
However you decide I wish you strength to the end.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

oh and yes you are very right help wasnt asked for but....why not...i mean its not like its some obnoxious little girl pestering and asking you why you dont have a right testicle....its people like you who have no manhood at all...so yeah....plus they still alive....they should be dead...yet even that is hard and gets harder

...really didnt expect to have my manhood insulted in todays age, but here we are
But this divulged into an argument really quickly and I dont need to speak for the OP any more than I already have or keep muddying their thread

Nip this in the bud and end it there

 

[A simple aid]

...really didnt expect to have my manhood insulted in todays age, but here we are
But this divulged into an argument really quickly and I dont need to speak for the OP any more than I already have or keep muddying their thread

Nip this in the bud and end it there

horribly sorry manhood in my culture means penis...so i meant people eunuched like the ailing person.....i didnt mean you or anyone at all....and i didnt think it was an argument...i thought we were in some agreement...but sorry if it caused any ill intent.....but youre right ill relatively stop ...thx anyway

 

[Jupit3rs]

I'd still suggest you at least to buy some alcohol or benzos to minimize the pain.
I have seen several hanging videos in gore site, not sure if you want to see it to learn more technical infos. I personally think hanging is better than jumping since I have chronic acrophobia but actually I also think jumping is faster despite the mess.
However you decide I wish you strength to the end.

Yeah, i was thinking about it. Maybe just alcohol, no idea how to get benzos here without a prescription. But thanks!
I have seen photos of hanging... No videos yet. I know my SI will kick in, but oh well... Thank you! I wish the same to you.

 

[Forever Sleep]

nice post...well you are kind of right....i picked here instead of recovery because its a different frame of mind...now this so called crusade aint about helping people and being all self righteous...its more like a chat with a random guy while waiting for a train...plus it seems some people been here for a loooong while...and i do dare to imagine that id tell them stuff people likely havent after all...people in your lives are generally average...that is why you go to specialists....oh and you didnt have a go at me you made good points and are relatively defending the interests of well....i guess someone seeking a method....also his post was kinda open...not like a method or this or that but....oh well no problem...and forgive my laughing im not social capable

Very fair points. It's true, a lot of us are lingering here and it would probably be refreshing to hear a new perspective now and then by someone who genuinely cares. So- thank you for caring.

I'm sure a lot of people will be open to hear your 'take' on life and solving problems. I'd just throw my two penneth in again though to suggest not doing it when someone hasn't asked for it and DEFINITELY don't do it in a goodbye thread. (Not saying that you would necessarily but I have seen it before and it causes a lot of distress.)

I'm sorry for having a go at your 'lol'. I'm not very socially capable either to be honest!

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never attempted the hanging method before as I would fear it going wrong but I've always envied those with the courage for it. I hate the fact how in a world like this ctb can be so difficult and I do get that it can be tiring having to endure a life that is just constant suffering. Your feelings of wishing to leave this world are understandable, I hope that you find the freedom that you are looking for.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[eternapeace]

I have no advice on hanging (I have not done much research on it or have tried it before) but I hope you can find peace in the remainder of your life and afterward. It sucks to see so many of the kindest, gentlest souls forced into making this decision.