Discussion Probably ctb tonight

[Red87]

I'm probably going to do it my anxiety is high right now . I wish it was easier to go I'm just hoping it's not painful .I'm doing sn I wish I could of got the meto or propnolol but I couldn't. I took a tagment at 1 and zofran because I have acid reflux I'm trying to make sure it stops it from hurting I ate my last meal at 12 I won't be found for least 9 hrs

At 930 I will take tagment 400mg
8mg of zofran
800mg Advil
1mg Xanax
And half of Tylenol 3
At 10:15 I'll take 25g of sn in 50mls of water. I'm also making a second or third glass just in case. I'm not sure I'll be able to post the process of doing it . Because I pretty freaked out that I will fail or it will hurt . I'm just so tired of this life nothing has gone right for me . And I'm ready to see what will come after. I hope it's peaceful and fast I don't want to suffer .I'm already suffering as it is my heart has been racing all day . I think the medicine like the Xanax will calm me down I hope anyway .

Mods don't ban me yet because this is just me talking about it if I don't come back on here in a day or two u can ban me then thanks

 

[Deleted member 14386]

Wishing you peace man :), love your avatar! Such a cutie
edit: oh I hope you take more just in case you throw up with no meto an all

 

[falloutcarter13]

I read all about your situation last night, and I can understand why you're ready to go. Just try to be as sure as you can be that you're actually ready, and that you don't *want* to try to make things better anymore. I don't know you well, but sending you love and understanding...may you find peace, whatever your decision.

 

[Red87]

Thanks I appreciate it yeah she's a cutie but I think she's ADHD really hyper lol

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[Red87]

Thank u fallout Carter it's been along hard road I know I'm ready I guess it's just the pain that scares me but Im hoping I can take it I don't want to fail and be in a psych ward and have to deal with the aftermath I think that would be harder then actually dying I'm hoping soon I'll find the peace I've been looking for all my life

 

[Deleted-User-0]

I'm probably going to do it my anxiety is high right now . I wish it was easier to go I'm just hoping it's not painful .I'm doing sn I wish I could of got the meto or propnolol but I couldn't. I took a tagment at 1 and zofran because I have acid reflux I'm trying to make sure it stops it from hurting I ate my last meal at 12 I won't be found for least 9 hrs

At 930 I will take tagment 400mg
8mg of zofran
800mg Advil
1mg Xanax
And half of Tylenol 3
At 10:15 I'll take 25g of sn in 50mls of water. I'm also making a second or third glass just in case. I'm not sure I'll be able to post the process of doing it . Because I pretty freaked out that I will fail or it will hurt . I'm just so tired of this life nothing has gone right for me . And I'm ready to see what will come after. I hope it's peaceful and fast I don't want to suffer .I'm already suffering as it is my heart has been racing all day . I think the medicine like the Xanax will calm me down I hope anyway .

Mods don't ban me yet because this is just me talking about it if I don't come back on here in a day or two u can ban me then thanks

I'm probably going to do it my anxiety is high right now . I wish it was easier to go I'm just hoping it's not painful .I'm doing sn I wish I could of got the meto or propnolol but I couldn't. I took a tagment at 1 and zofran because I have acid reflux I'm trying to make sure it stops it from hurting I ate my last meal at 12 I won't be found for least 9 hrs

At 930 I will take tagment 400mg
8mg of zofran
800mg Advil
1mg Xanax
And half of Tylenol 3
At 10:15 I'll take 25g of sn in 50mls of water. I'm also making a second or third glass just in case. I'm not sure I'll be able to post the process of doing it . Because I pretty freaked out that I will fail or it will hurt . I'm just so tired of this life nothing has gone right for me . And I'm ready to see what will come after. I hope it's peaceful and fast I don't want to suffer .I'm already suffering as it is my heart has been racing all day . I think the medicine like the Xanax will calm me down I hope anyway .

Mods don't ban me yet because this is just me talking about it if I don't come back on here in a day or two u can ban me then thanks

Hey I feel your pain. But you don't have to do it because you probably feel anxious and under pressure right now.
Maybe just take some Xan to fall asleep?
Whatever happens you are in our thoughts

 

[falloutcarter13]

Oh and just a quick note, I've read that zofran isn't an effective anti-emetic for the SN method, due to mechanism of action. Can't 100% confirm this cuz I'm too stupid and its too much science, but it sounds legit. Just be aware of the possibility, that's all.

 

[Red87]

I know I want to do it I've had anxiety attacks sence my husband past but I know that the Xanax will calm me down here in a bit I'm not scared of dying just leading up to it what scares me and I guess once I get to it .it won't be as bad as I think it's the waiting that's hard if u know what I mean lol I guess if life worked out like I wanted it I would not even be here but it has and I want to join my husband everday I'm in a constant panic of waiting for him to come home but I know he's not that's why I've made the choice to join him soon because once I take this step I think all the waiting and anxiety will be gone like the pressure. hurt I feel will be realised I'm excited but at the same time I feel a over whelming feel of dispair creeping in on me the darkness feels like it's closings in and I can't see my way threw but I know in my heart this is the right thing for me
Yeah I know zofran is not the best with sn but it's all I got that's why I'm making 3 glasses just in case I'm thinking of taking another anit vomit I got over the counter to just to make sure

 

[BetterInthanOut]

I'm probably going to do it my anxiety is high right now . I wish it was easier to go I'm just hoping it's not painful .I'm doing sn I wish I could of got the meto or propnolol but I couldn't. I took a tagment at 1 and zofran because I have acid reflux I'm trying to make sure it stops it from hurting I ate my last meal at 12 I won't be found for least 9 hrs

At 930 I will take tagment 400mg
8mg of zofran
800mg Advil
1mg Xanax
And half of Tylenol 3
At 10:15 I'll take 25g of sn in 50mls of water. I'm also making a second or third glass just in case. I'm not sure I'll be able to post the process of doing it . Because I pretty freaked out that I will fail or it will hurt . I'm just so tired of this life nothing has gone right for me . And I'm ready to see what will come after. I hope it's peaceful and fast I don't want to suffer .I'm already suffering as it is my heart has been racing all day . I think the medicine like the Xanax will calm me down I hope anyway .

Mods don't ban me yet because this is just me talking about it if I don't come back on here in a day or two u can ban me then thanks

If you decide to go tonight, I hope you pass peacefully and reach a place where you're no longer in pain. I hope you see your husband again <3

 

[Red87]

Thank u

 

[falloutcarter13]

Yeah I know zofran is not the best with sn but it's all I got that's why I'm making 3 glasses just in case I'm thinking of taking another anit vomit I got over the counter to just to make sure

From what I've read, vomiting seems almost unavoidable with this method no matter what you do...it seems to be a matter of getting enough SN in your system before you pass out, but I've pretty much accepted that when I do it, I'm gonna leave a little puke behind. Hopefully its not *too* nasty, and I'll take steps to make sure its all liquid. I'd like to leave less of a mess behind, but this is still the cleanest available method. Liquid salty puke is definitely the least of all evils with what I have available.

Please stay in touch and let us know whatever you decide, and let us be here to support you if that's something you want. Safe travels, new friend.

 

[Meditation guide]

I know I want to do it I've had anxiety attacks sence my husband past

It sounds unbearable what you've been going through. I wish there was some other way for you to find some peace but I understand and respect your decision. Wishing you an easy exit and remember you can always change your mind. I'm here if you need to message me also to have a chat.

I hope your adorable dog has a new home to go to.

 

[aminend]

Even by anti vomiting pills, vomiting is possible. Having Second SN is necessary alot. As I know there are some bearable discomfort around 10_15mints which u must be ready for that

 

[AlreadyGone]

Good Luck

 

[Red87]

Thank u all for your comforting words yeah I know I'll probably throw up im hoping it's not alot but if I do I will drink a second glass I'm hoping to hold as much down as I can so I won't have to take a second drink but if I do I'll have it I'm hoping I pass out fast I know meds effect me fast so I'm hoping and will do the same thing as them thank u all for your prayers and support

 

[Ulisses]

we will be here if you need, no matter your choice.

 

[Meditation guide]

Thank u all for your comforting words yeah I know I'll probably throw up im hoping it's not alot but if I do I will drink a second glass I'm hoping to hold as much down as I can so I won't have to take a second drink but if I do I'll have it I'm hoping I pass out fast I know meds effect me fast so I'm hoping and will do the same thing as them thank u all for your prayers and support

I hope you send us a message when you do it.

 

[Red87]

I will but I'll let u know I'm about to drink it but I'll have to clear my phone so I'll not respond after that thank u all 5 hrs left count down begins

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

I'm probably going to do it my anxiety is high right now . I wish it was easier to go I'm just hoping it's not painful .I'm doing sn I wish I could of got the meto or propnolol but I couldn't. I took a tagment at 1 and zofran because I have acid reflux I'm trying to make sure it stops it from hurting I ate my last meal at 12 I won't be found for least 9 hrs

At 930 I will take tagment 400mg
8mg of zofran
800mg Advil
1mg Xanax
And half of Tylenol 3
At 10:15 I'll take 25g of sn in 50mls of water. I'm also making a second or third glass just in case. I'm not sure I'll be able to post the process of doing it . Because I pretty freaked out that I will fail or it will hurt . I'm just so tired of this life nothing has gone right for me . And I'm ready to see what will come after. I hope it's peaceful and fast I don't want to suffer .I'm already suffering as it is my heart has been racing all day . I think the medicine like the Xanax will calm me down I hope anyway .

Mods don't ban me yet because this is just me talking about it if I don't come back on here in a day or two u can ban me then thanks

I wish you a peaceful ride tonight. We'll be here for you until the time comes.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

I will but I'll let u know I'm about to drink it but I'll have to clear my phone so I'll not respond after that thank u all 5 hrs left count down begins

I wish you all the best, but there's no shame in changing your mind last minute and postponing it.

 

[Flump]

 

[Tigeress Lost]

Wishing you peace with whatever you choose

 

[LastRide]

Have a safe and painless last ride and find rest, finally ! We're here with you !

 

[Red87]

Thank u all I hope you all find peace what ever it maybe thank u for listening to me and making it easier just to let me vent and not judge me

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[wanttodie]

I wish you all the best,

 

[aminend]

R u Still with us?

 

[Meditation guide]

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[Sinai Silence]

Wishing you peace friend