Discussion Probably a goodbye thread/ Taking less sn because of fear of throwing up?

[iloveyoualex]

I am well aware this is advised against, but i am deathly afraid of throwing up after i take SN, so im going to try just a little, about 6 grams, and without water because i dont see a need for it. My body fought it off with no issue when i ingested the little bit that was on my fingers but for a while i did feel like i was dying, so im thinking if i just take a little more it will be too much to fight off but also not enough to throw up. We'll see how this goes

some info about me to keep in mind as i update this thread.
I am 19F, 5 foot 6 inches and 148lbs, didnt eat anything today(its been over 24 hours), drank only water and a small sip of apple juice, and i cant get anti-emetics or any of that without my mom being nosy and yelling at me so i wont be taking anything but the SN (i told her SN was for witchcraft when i got it a year ago)

 

[Estrella87]

I wouldn't do this really. Low dose can lead to slow agony or no death but bad sequels.

And really think well before doing this as there is no way to go back.

Feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

 

[nayomi]

do the protocol or dont do it at all.

 

[iloveyoualex]

do the protocol or dont do it at all.

Ive tried a small amount and came close to death with no vomiting, i just want to recreate that but actually lethal, and some of us cant easily get the rest of the protocol (anti emetics, benzos whatever.) Its not like im experimenting on anyone elses life.

 

[Estrella87]

It's not, it's your life, but still, I believe you don't want a hours long agony death or staying with brain damage? Then you shouldn't do this

 

[iloveyoualex]

It's not, it's your life, but still, I believe you don't want a hours long agony death or staying with brain damage? Then you shouldn't do this

The lack of oxygen in my brain felt nice the first time around. All my anxiety went away. I liked feeling that for as long as i did

 

[nayomi]

Ive tried a small amount and came close to death with no vomiting, i just want to recreate that but actually lethal, and some of us cant easily get the rest of the protocol (anti emetics, benzos whatever.) Its not like im experimenting on anyone elses life.

how you know you were close to death? sn can give you coma

 

[Estrella87]

I see, but you are playing with something dangerous. Maybe the first time you took few and had this effect, but a little more and it will be the brain damage or a long painful death. Usually or you take all or nothing, all what's between is unsafe.

 

[iloveyoualex]

how you know you were close to death? sn can give you coma

I was close to losing consciousness, but never did

 

[Estrella87]

Even if you lose consciousness you won't necessarily die. Instead you can in a coma and wake with brain damage. Isn't worth the risk

 

[nayomi]

I was close to losing consciousness, but never did

losing consciousness sounds like close to coma.
not taking sn right is basiclly fucking your life even more and you might be in a situation when you cant ctb again and suffer way more

 

[iloveyoualex]

losing consciousness sounds like close to coma.
not taking sn right is basiclly fucking your life even more and you might be in a situation when you cant ctb again and suffer way more

Ok then ill take more, just like you said ;)

 

[nayomi]

Ok then ill take more, just like you said ;)

make sure to take around 25, also i hope you have anti puking meds or you have couple of glasses

 

[iloveyoualex]

I took it, not much, 5 minutes ago. i took probably about 10-12 grams, that was all i could down without water lmao, although i did drink a half a little plastic bottle after, it wasnt salty like before, this time bitter, and the power felt sharp going down my throat, it definitely tastes like poison, but i am feeling nothing as of now

 

[nayomi]

I took it, not much, 5 minutes ago. i took probably about 10-12 grams, that was all i could down without water lmao, it wasnt salty like before, this time bitter, definitely tastes like poison, but i am feeling nothing as of now

why you are not doing the protocol....

 

[iloveyoualex]

some little heart flutters and chest tightness so far, some of this is going to be anxiety related

 

[Die.A.Ria]

I took it, not much, 5 minutes ago. i took probably about 10-12 grams, that was all i could down without water lmao, although i did drink a half a little plastic bottle after, it wasnt salty like before, this time bitter, definitely tastes like poison, but i am feeling nothing as of now

Theres a table where you can see the correct amount for each weight like for me i need about 18g

 

[iloveyoualex]

Theres a table where you can see the correct amount for each weight like for me i need about 18g

Well, doesnt matter anymore

 

[Die.A.Ria]

why you are not doing the protocol....

Shes not able to get any of the other stuff needed like benzos and antiemetics but you could try talk to a doctor

 

[iloveyoualex]

My fingernails are already turning blue, been 14 minutes since i took it

Shes not able to get any of the other stuff needed like benzos and antiemetics but you could try talk to a doctor

Thank you, lmao at people correcting me on how to take poison. If i throw it up and dont die so be it, i have more, i was just a little bit of a pussy this time and couldnt bare to take more

 

[Die.A.Ria]

My fingernails are already turning blue, been 14 minutes since i took it

Thank you, lmao at people correcting me on how to take poison. If i throw it up and dont die so be it, i have more, i was just a little bit of a pussy this time and couldnt bare to take more

Omg i hope you find peace

 

[iloveyoualex]

Feeling weak now

Omg i hope you find peace

Thank you, i will be with my husband, its going to be amazing, i felt him yesterday when i took that little bit and felt the most loving, beautiful feeling

 

[Die.A.Ria]

Feeling weak now

Thank you, i will be with my husband, its going to be amazing

I never knew it could work without the other stuff in the protocol im so happy for you and i hope you go peacefully

 

[iloveyoualex]

I never knew it could work without the other stuff in the protocol im so happy for you and i hope you go peacefully

Thank you, we have yet to see about if it will kill me and not just give me symptoms though, if im not back by tomorrow or the next day, then you can assume it worked

 

[nayomi]

Shes not able to get any of the other stuff needed like benzos and antiemetics but you could try talk to a doctor

there is a protocol to do it without antiemetics with taking 25 two times (or more)

 

[iloveyoualex]

Sharp pain in the back of my head, nausea but i can control it
Extreme weakness and kind of a tingly feeling, might go unconscious soon, god i hope i dont throw it up

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I never knew it could work without the other stuff in the protocol im so happy for you and i hope you go peacefully

It can and it has, it just has a better chance of working with the other meds esp the antiemetic.



OP, can you tell us how you're feeling now?

 

[darksouls]

peace and love to you, my friend

 

[Estrella87]

Omg I believe she's gone. All this went so quick also her decision to take it, was a bit impulsive
I hope she's in a better place

 

[Macedonian1987]

Omg I believe she's gone. All this went so quick also her decision to take it, was a bit impulsive
I hope she's in a better place

I hope so too, that she is freed from her torment and at peace.