Prepared my SN

[punisheralbum]

I was maybe going to ctb today by driving my car to a parking garage by my work, cranking up the tunes and doing my thing. but then my car didn't start (it's really old), so my girlfriend, thinking I actually had work, selflessly drove me there, and I just walked to a nearby library. I had everything with me in my bag, and I just now dissolved my SN (25g) in a few ounces of water. I have strong mints for after I take it. I obviously can't die in a library, but there's a big park right behind it and nobody would be any the wiser until I'm gone. I'm scared. also I'm sorry I'm bad at replying. I've been really scared the last couple days

 

[NothingElseMatters]

At least you have a girlfriend

 

[AQUA]

WOW. That sounds like a scary situation. Are you sure you want to do it in a park?

 

[booray]

WOW. That sounds like a scary situation. Are you sure you want to do it in a park?

I agree. Sounds like you want to be rescued to me. It's ok to back out if you're unsure.

 

[scarletbluebell]

Take your time and really think about this

 

[x~Sophia~x]

At least you have a girlfriend

What difference does that make?

 

[Fehler]

And postpone it? If things didn't work out for me, I'd change it for another day. If you've been scared these days, maybe it's that you're not sure? I'm not saying it's a bad thing.

 

[punisheralbum]

yeah. yeah. I'm sorry. if I'm going to die I think I'd really feel at peace if I could be home in my own bed. I just have to wait until Monday for that opportunity. I'm being too impulsive. thank you for the replies x

 

[scarletbluebell]

I'm still trying to find my perfect location. I don't want my partner or son to find me at home and I'm trying to think of a location where I won't be found for a while

 

[Outofhope]

Lucky. I wish I could join you.

 

[booray]

I'm still trying to find my perfect location. I don't want my partner or son to find me at home and I'm trying to think of a location where I won't be found for a while

How about a hotel or motel room? You'll have privacy, you won't be found until checkout time, and it will be by somebody else.

 

[Lost10]

You want 8+ hours hours undisturbed. I think your choice to wait until you can do it at home is a good one.

I'm still trying to find my perfect location. I don't want my partner or son to find me at home and I'm trying to think of a location where I won't be found for a while

I'm going to bring a blanket and pillow into my bathroom and leave a clear note on the door to not open and call the police or a hearse. I'm guessing there will be enough odor after a day that the note will be followed. I live in a very loud place so hitting the bathtub a few times or getting sick won't be an issue.

 

[saltshaker]

What difference does that make?

OP has something going for them at least?

Good luck with whatever choices you make OP.