Venting preparations

[wastingtime]

I cleaned my apartment as much as i could, i still have a room and my balconies which are an absolute fucking mess but i can't bother to touch them at this point. i took out bags and bags of garbage and made small gift bags of items i couldnt stand throwing away to give to my friends.
My entire phone gallery is deleted, all my personal images and files from my PC are deleted, social media accounts deactivated..

Now i need to write my letters and my will. i need to figure out how to make it easier for my family to retrieve my body from another country so they can have a proper funeral. I dont believe in their religion but i think they deserve to send me off in their own peaceful way.
i feel so bad for my little brother and sister. they're going to be devastated to hear about my end. i just hope they can recover fast and get over me as soon as possible. nobody deserves to mourn over someone like me.

i can't wait to die. the only regret i'll feel is leaving behind my siblings and my 2-3 friends. and whoever is gonna have to clean up my apartment behind me cus its such a god damn mess.

i'm going to take a nice warm bath today, watch madoka, order some nice food and enjoy my last few days.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck with your plans, I hope that you find the freedom you wish for when the time is right for you to leave.

 

[Enlighten]

I'm really sorry your circumstances brought you to this. If you want to talk during these days, i'd love to talk with you.
Either way i hope you can find peace, be it dead or alive.

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

All the best, I hope it all goes smoothly for you!

 

[deadbody]

Wish you best!

 

[cheese.out]

You just gave me goosebumps.. I truly wish you that you can find your peace and that you enjoy your last days as much as possible.

 

[loneliness0]

It sounds like you are kind and empathetic person as I hear in your message lot of concern about people left behind like your siblings and few friends and even you gave consideration about your parents being left with your remains. I am sorry to hear such kind soul must go but I also hear that you been considering this lot and it not rush decision as you clearly planning it out.

I wish you easy way out and hope to hear from you again before you go. Much love wastingtime.