Powers that be believe it is my time to end

[jimmyinnout]

I have searched suicide related terms for the past ~5 years.

Usually, they would result in things like: why you shouldn't do it, or "help lines". Nowadays, I increasingly find I am lead directly to sights with instructions or direct encouragement of CBT.

I seriously wonder if I am being encouraged to KILL MYSELF by whatever algrothims which have monitored me since I was young, and why this may be.

 

[MatiSendiri]

Algorithm should be the last reason for this tbh. Since algorithm manipulation is real and genuinely terrifying, there's a chance your frequent searching makes them to "encourage" your CTB. But then again, you should ask yourself if CTB is in your plan right now. Ignore algorithm and hopefully you'll be fine man