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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
What's so bad with jumping?

Jumping is not bad per se, but it's hard to find suitable spots, and too many people judge badly the required height and survive. Besides, it requires too much courage. I'm not sure if I'd be able to go through with a jump. Going halfway and giving up may be bad, because other people might find out.
 
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Virgo

Arcanist
Oct 3, 2018
497
Jumping is not bad per se, but it's hard to find suitable spots, and too many people judge badly the required height and survive. Besides, it requires too much courage. I'm not sure if I'd be able to go through with a jump. Going halfway and giving up may be bad, because other people might find out.
True, a lot of people jump from four stories.
 
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JazzyWolfWhistle

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
347
What is your dream career?
 
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ouvreyes

ouvreyes

シシ
Oct 7, 2018
131
Costume maker

I'm sorry man... have a friend in uni for fashion design right now. Sucks that your environment is discouraging— seems like a great path.
 
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ctoan

ctoan

Arcanist
Sep 30, 2018
437
tent + charcoal carbon monoxide suicide
 
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TheLastTrip

TheLastTrip

Experienced
Nov 2, 2018
285
Oh geez age is no barrier, I had my first attempt about 11, so you will find nothing but support from me.

Being younger is certainly tricky. SN is so innocuous that you could get it delivered to an Amazon locker? If you have them in New Zealand. Or can you get it delivered to a friend's house? Say it's a present for a family member and you can't risk them seeing the parcel and asking you what is in it ;)
 
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nzdarkshark

The Loved Mistake
Sep 4, 2018
400
Oh geez age is no barrier, I had my first attempt about 11, so you will find nothing but support from me.

Being younger is certainly tricky. SN is so innocuous that you could get it delivered to an Amazon locker? If you have them in New Zealand. Or can you get it delivered to a friend's house? Say it's a present for a family member and you can't risk them seeing the parcel and asking you what is in it ;)
That sounds like a good idea, and I've thought about it. I don't know anyone who I could get it sent to though...

My friend made a deal with me - I know it's extremely risky but if I go about it very carefully I should be ok - he knows of this 'treatment' for depression - a natural thing of sorts? He begged me to at least try it - and if it didn't work he'd stay out of my way. He's the closest friend I have...so I'm going to try it. I don't have very high hopes for it but it's worth a shot? May as well give some peace of mind before I go...?
 
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TheLastTrip

Experienced
Nov 2, 2018
285
Look at it this way, what do you have to lose? If it helps great, if not then you are already taking action on the other path.

Personally I have heard that hallucinogenics like LSD/mushrooms/peyote etc can really genuinely help people with depression. Apparently it can wipe away the ego and let you experience the world in a totally different way, and rebalances the chemicals in your brain. That's just an interesting tidbit, as you can't get ahold of SN I doubt you can sneak off to take anything quite as illegal as the above!

I really hope the natural treatment helps, but we're all here for you if it doesn't.
 
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nzdarkshark

The Loved Mistake
Sep 4, 2018
400
Look at it this way, what do you have to lose? If it helps great, if not then you are already taking action on the other path.

Personally I have heard that hallucinogenics like LSD/mushrooms/peyote etc can really genuinely help people with depression. Apparently it can wipe away the ego and let you experience the world in a totally different way, and rebalances the chemicals in your brain. That's just an interesting tidbit, as you can't get ahold of SN I doubt you can sneak off to take anything quite as illegal as the above!

I really hope the natural treatment helps, but we're all here for you if it doesn't.

Thank you - either way I hope I can find some form of peace.
If it doesn't work I'll save up for Sn and order it online. See if I can find someone I trust to receive the package so I can pick it up without my parents finding out.
 
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TheLastTrip

Experienced
Nov 2, 2018
285
Yes having parcels delivered is tricky... you could get imaginative though. Maybe someone on fiverr.com would be willing to receive the parcel for you? I have just checked and some people offer the service, finding one near you might be more tricky though.

Else money greases the wheels, so you could offer a local business some cash to take delivery for you, using the birthday present excuse again.

Or there is this: https://www.nzpost.co.nz/personal/r...receiving-your-parcels/parcel-collect-service

I hope it all works out for you.
 
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