Venting Pornography addiction

[its_joever]

Nobody gives a flying fuck. The world will continue on without me. Whether I kill myself or I don't.

I serve no purpose if any it's negligible. I can't live for myself. Everything sucks. It's all fucking Gray.

I got this addiction. Can't get rid of it. My mind is infested with porn. I know I'm 19 and a guy and I have raging hormones but I can't stop anymore. I can't go a day without porn. Maybe cuz I'm a nolife lonely loser. Idfk. Every attempt fails on the first day.

I can no longer enjoy shit. Nothing. Everything sucks now. Nothing matches up to the extent of the dopamine surge I get when I watch porn. It's not funny. It's tragic. I wanna kill myself. Everyday everything becomes even more boring and repetitive than before. What point to march forward for anyway? People suck everyone sucks everything sucks. Fuck life.

 

[GettingOut]

The raw emotion in your post is so relatable. It is so hard to break free from such strong addictions. Suffering from porn addiction too, I feel so disgusted at myself. I know that if people knew the real me, they would be disgusted too. People will never understand how much I hate the person I have become. If I were to tell someone irl, they'd think I'm a pervert.

Can't give you amazing wise words or anything, apart from I feel your pain, share your dispair and wish you peace. When you're able to DM, fell free to reach out if you want. I'm here for the time being.

 

[WaffleWoman]

Nobody gives a flying fuck. The world will continue on without me. Whether I kill myself or I don't.

I serve no purpose if any it's negligible. I can't live for myself. Everything sucks. It's all fucking Gray.

I got this addiction. Can't get rid of it. My mind is infested with porn. I know I'm 19 and a guy and I have raging hormones but I can't stop anymore. I can't go a day without porn. Maybe cuz I'm a nolife lonely loser. Idfk. Every attempt fails on the first day.

I can no longer enjoy shit. Nothing. Everything sucks now. Nothing matches up to the extent of the dopamine surge I get when I watch porn. It's not funny. It's tragic. I wanna kill myself. Everyday everything becomes even more boring and repetitive than before. What point to march forward for anyway? People suck everyone sucks everything sucks. Fuck life.

Im happy someone has brought this up I also suffer from a addiction to porn something I found when I was way to young. Ive tried to Ive tried all that bs that people online say nothing works I'm tired and done with having this addiction

 

[foreverfalling]

Sorry about how you feel. I understand, we all need to cope somehow. I hate all these things that our bodies make us do. But no one can really know how you actually feel about this. We all have to suffer alone.

 

[Green Destiny]

Yep I'm right here in the same situation as well. Stayed up very late looking at videos until I was finally satisfied. It's a terrible cycle for me, I get very depressed which eventually leads to the only coping mechanism I have which is Pornography. I won't go into details but I've looked at some very unappealing things too when looking up pornography. I'm so ashamed of it.

 

[brokeandbroken]

Nobody gives a flying fuck. The world will continue on without me. Whether I kill myself or I don't.

I serve no purpose if any it's negligible. I can't live for myself. Everything sucks. It's all fucking Gray.

I got this addiction. Can't get rid of it. My mind is infested with porn. I know I'm 19 and a guy and I have raging hormones but I can't stop anymore. I can't go a day without porn. Maybe cuz I'm a nolife lonely loser. Idfk. Every attempt fails on the first day.

I can no longer enjoy shit. Nothing. Everything sucks now. Nothing matches up to the extent of the dopamine surge I get when I watch porn. It's not funny. It's tragic. I wanna kill myself. Everyday everything becomes even more boring and repetitive than before. What point to march forward for anyway? People suck everyone sucks everything sucks. Fuck life.

I think it's safe to say I do. Whether or not I could stop I don't know. I'm not sure it's about porn per se but the fact I have so little in my life that gives me anything related to happiness or joy. Makes those fleeting seconds of pleasure necessary. If the same thing occurred by I don't know eating broccoli I'd be a broccoli eating machine. I think it's just extreme loneliness, isolation, severe depression, and lack of hope. I know there's no chance I get married or have children. I don't think it's likely I am alive by Christmas frankly. So I am not sure I see the downside. My life is over. Then again maybe it is more simple I just want to see people getting more fucked then me.