Poll: Would you want your enemies/bullies to know that you have committed suicide?

[noname223]

I think about my enemies. My former therapist and the people I ghosted in my self-help group who tried to bully me. And all the bullies from my time in school.

Honestly, I don't want them to know it. I think it would feel like a victory for them. Maybe it would be one second guilt (for some of them), some schadenfreude and a big chunk indifference. My opinion on this question differs though depending on my mood.

I start to become scared of people. These people really wanted to harm me. In general I often think I want to be forgotten. And my whole existence should be eradicated. But this won't happen. I just read a text that postulates with digital legacies many people will live forever. If I was acutally dead though I think I won't have to care about my digital legacy.

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

I wouldn't give a flying rats petunia who knew I killed myself; I won't be here to know about it.

 

[Zvetok26]

I don't care anymore. I am just tired

 

[noname223]

I don't care anymore. I am just tired

I added this option.

 

[existentiallinguine]

Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. Some days I'm feeling like a martyr and I nobody had met me in the first place, that i want to go out kind. Sometimes, I hope the guy who SA'd me opens the news or hears about my college memorial, that he pukes and cries, sometimes i hope my abusive family realizes they could have done anything to stop it as a kid and are upset. But overall that's a fantasy and I have no idea what the reaction will be either way.

 

[Zvetok26]

Thank you :) I've already "no", though

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not sure I care much. I doubt they are capable of feeling guilt or remorse. It maybe matters more to me that friends who knew me during that period will know that the inevitable eventually happened. I get some satisfaction out of them secretly blaming my bully because initially- they did set me on this path.

 

[Ariii]

I want to be completely forgetten but if someone had to know, it better be people I hate and not people who love me

 

[darksouls]

as a child,
I always wished I could be invisible,
a long time ago,
I moved far away from the city where I grew up,
I hope my abusers never find out anything about me,
they would definitely enjoy my suffering,
they already did back then,
they are perverse sadists

 

[Matchaaa]

I don't want them to know, because I don't want to burden them emotionally, nor do I want to put myself under unnecessary pressure. So, if possible, I hope I can die in peace.

 

[lpdsvm]

They are nothing compared to me. I don't care where they are. Probably living pathetic lives or died fighting for money. They are not even in my head. Brainless no talent schmucks. I didn't meet a smart bully.

 

[itsgone2]

I'm at fault where enemies are concerned. They were right. I was a bad person.
Some will delight in it. Some won't.
I don't care. I wish I had no enemies though

 

[Malfunction]

Probably not. I don't plan to leave any parting words. I figure I've wasted too many in life, its not like anyone's going to pay attention suddenly.

 

[cluefixphantom]

No, because they either make fun of it or the not-so-bad of them don't care at all. I try to go this year with CO, but I'm sure the neighbors will gossip again. They already did after the police took me away and put me in a psychiatric hospital. That's another reason why I prefer to stay indoors. The people here are schadenfroh, - they mock me, as r'tard, ugly and crazy. I know none of them, they are strangers but everyone knows me because I am always the ugly one. It's a rural city, and very right-conservativ. I was alone with myself and the attacks of people I don't even know, since so many years. This is my last year. I survived near 30, for nothing. If someone is born into such bad circumstances like me, I can honestly say that, no it will not get better. I wished I could have CTB with 10. I never received compensation and there was never someone who liked me, who wanted to support me.

 

[thehorizons]

I feel hate begets hate. I wouldn't say I had enemies in this life, but definitely people that I'm not on good terms with because of my own foolish actions and sometimes not.

If they hate me still after I'm gone then it's their business, but it's a toxic trait to have and it partially led me into this place.

Still, I don't know about my past life, which could revebrate to this life (if you believe that sort of thing). Anyways, I don't want to hold grudges before I go. I guess even though I lost a lot of my faith, I still kind of believe in reincarnation, so I don't want to take grudges and hate with me to the next life.

In the end we're just a blip in the cosmos, so their wouldn't be any point having a last say, at least that's my opinion.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

No. I know most people who know who I am would get off on it. Some might care in a good way, a lot wouldn't care but a lot would care in the wrong way. They'd talk about it together and at first pretend like they're all mature and feel bad but eventually it would turn into a malicious circle jerk.

 

[XxEstenxX]

I think about my enemies. My former therapist and the people I ghosted in my self-help group who tried to bully me. And all the bullies from my time in school.

Honestly, I don't want them to know it. I think it would feel like a victory for them. Maybe it would be one second guilt (for some of them), some schadenfreude and a big chunk indifference. My opinion on this question differs though depending on my mood.

I start to become scared of people. These people really wanted to harm me. In general I often think I want to be forgotten. And my whole existence should be eradicated. But this won't happen. I just read a text that postulates with digital legacies many people will live forever. If I was acutally dead though I think I won't have to care about my digital legacy.

Yep :) every single ex-fp that I had, I want them to know that I died and I hope my blood stains their hands for eternity and it eats them alive because they gave up and abandoned me when they say they wouldn't...that they used and manipulated and lovebombed me and wasted my time and made me spiral. All of them are a huge portion of why I'm in this forum to begin with. For once I just want to feel like I won, not them, so if my death even gives them a drop of guilt, I'm all for it.

Well, every ex-fp besides two. One from fourth grade, and one from eighth grade. I have no hate in my heart for those two people.

Everyone else though, yeah ^.^

 

[barely_afloat]

If I want those people to know, I'd ctb in the most brutal way I can go. I'd be dead anyways so their reactions won't really matter, sure. But maybe someone will feel remorse or guilt

 

[krsm98]

sometimes i fantasize that ill matter if i do, like finally be taken seriously or like i mattered or something. Tho that is mostly impulsive, afterwards i quickly remind myself that it probavly doesnt rlly matter, sooner or later is not like it matter so what is the point, and just like that it becomes a thing where it doesnt matter anymore or is not like i rlly matter enough to give much of a reaction or impact

 

[nails]

i don't really have enemies, just people who have wronged me and don't seem to care that much. the anger is too one-sided for me to call them enemies, lol. either way, i'd like it if everyone knew that i offed myself. i don't think any of them would feel any type of way about it, but i'd still want them to know. i'm not necessarily upset over the idea of them never finding out, though. i'd just greatly prefer if they knew.

 

[thevoidpointer]

I haven't been bullied in years

 

[Dark Moon]

I wouldn't want them to know that, they would either like/celebrate that I did it and show no remorse, they might not care or have forgotten since many years have past but still I'd rather them not know I did it.

 

[heiwa2]

They would probably like the news but I wouldn't care cuz I would be dead

 

[meiherasayuri]

I wouldn't mind, and neither would they

 

[NeverHis]

So they could know they won? No.