[Poll] For what reason you want to end your life?

[sauan]

Wow, I didn't realize that the existential crises were so prevalent here.

Peace and love to all, take care of yourselves.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I don't think that anyone is labelled as mentally ill just for believing that life has no meaning.

You're right, I should've been more specific. It's people who conclude from that assertion that life is not worth living who are described as mentally ill (suicidal ideation alone is taken as evidence of a disorder).

 

[Olisop21.]

This is difficult to answer. By assumed normal standards, it would be classed as mental illness but I don't see it that way.

For me: I've seen what life is like and know I don't want more of it. I've seen how the world is and know I don't belong. I've experienced pain and don't have it in me to experience anymore on the vague assumption that everyone makes that "it will get better". Because my whole life experience tells me it won't.

I just don't enjoy living.

I don't enjoy living either.

 

[strangelife]

I am so tired, I was healthy, and now I am really weak, I can't live in this condition, this is not my life, I can't handle it. Better rest in peace than live like this

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

None of these really, I'm just someone who the world would be better off without.

 

[hadenough58]

I choose "Existential crises" as I did not think any of the other fitted but it truth my expriances have undoubtedly cause me some Mental illness or why else would I want to end my own life?

 

[Ligottian]

Loneliness. No social or sex life. Anxiety and depression. I wont go on.

 

[DOKTOR_G'HUL]

The closest vote available in the poll for me was " existential crisis ", so that's what I voted, although I actually prefer being descriptive of being constantly weary and disappointed by the human race as a whole, and no longer wanting to strut and fret my hour on this decrepit stage. I just want to take the mask and costume off and leave this pointless play, this meaningless dance with the other marionettes. I'm just tired of seeing all the food tubes, the sheep bleating and reproducing and wasting oxygen on each other. I just want off the bus.

 

[Olisop21.]

None of these really, I'm just someone who the world would be better off without.

Same

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

If I could I'd vote all of them. There's other stuff like unable to get rid of terrible things I've done to people and things that have happened to me. It's also the fact that I'm fucking scared of the future cuz I know fo sho I will not be able to take care of myself. Trauma trauma trauma

I also didn't want to say this here but basically I'm dying. I'm losing the ability to think normally. I'm afraid I will lose my eyes and I need to go to the hospital.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

my reasons aren't related to any of the above.

"Normal" people assume it must be due to my mental illness i feel the way i do, however that's incorrect.
my main reason is due to accepting reality and knowing some facts.

Can you elaborate on your theories of existential crises? Thanks.

 

[hadenough58]

Wow, I didn't realize that the existential crises were so prevalent here.

Peace and love to all, take care of yourselves.

I think in the absents of an "Other" option many of us choose it as it can more or less be applied to our own circumstances as we see them.

 

[deathslament]

alot of things i don't want to keep repeating it

 

[RemainingDubious]

Can you elaborate on your theories of existential crises? Thanks.

Yes i can, however i won't since i've explained my reasons before even though my reasons are personal to me. i also find it strange how i get messages asking things like this, after answering i've never heard from them again. i find it rather rude people wanting to know personally things yet they aren't even willing to say why they want to know. You have also made an assumption that the facts i have accepted are "theories" or i'm having a exponential crisis.

i personally don't think a existential crisis covers other reasons.

"In psychology and psychotherapy, existential crises are inner conflicts characterized by the impression that life lacks meaning or by confusion about one's personal identity."

The text in bold is only truly applicable if life actually does have meaning. It's rather dismissive to categorise someone's experience as a "existential crisis" due to others assuming life actually does have meaning.
It can't be proven either way.

It's a possibility that those who believe life has actually got a meaning and label those with the opposite belief have a superiority complex. The belief that life is meaningless could make them feel inferior.

i personally feel you're displayed your ignorance with your assumptions, so i do not wish to elaborate further.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

For me it's all 5 reasons, technically.
Which is pretty fucked up

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I probably wouldn't want death if I didn't have autism as I'd be more emotional than logical to even consider what death truly is. I'd probably be one of the many pro lifers who love living even if that means perpetually working for no reason. So I guess that goes under "developmental disability" though I still consider it as just me being rational and understanding how pointless and cruel life is for me as well as how beautiful permanent non existence is for me

 

[bluebird16]

I don't even know anymore. I just want to.

 

[Callie]

To stop hurting.

Honestly, I don't want to because I still hear this faint little voice in my head that says to keep going. I still have illusions of myself being happy, and understood, and loved, and having peace. But the pain is too much. I pray that I can remove this fear and hope in me so I can finally do the deed and be free. But even with ending my pain, I am still a coward.

 

[LifelessStranger]

I probably wouldn't want death if I didn't have autism as I'd be more emotional than logical to even consider what death truly is. I'd probably be one of the many pro lifers who love living even if that means perpetually working for no reason. So I guess that goes under "developmental disability" though I still consider it as just me being rational and understanding how pointless and cruel life is for me as well as how beautiful permanent non existence is for me

Exactly dude, literally what I think.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

To end the pain, fear, and anxiety.

 

[Chelsea Leng]

Honestly I don't understand why anyone would wish to delay their inevitable fate especially as existence is beyond undesirable. Wanting to not exist is all that makes sense to me especially as there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist yet nobody can be harmed by the absence of everything.
It comforts me to think of permanently ceasing to exist, I don't have any interest in the futile and torturous burden of existing of a human, I see nothing appealing about suffering for decades just to be tormented by old age and die anyway.

To me existence is so incredibly evil and an abomination, for me suicide is the way to prevent and find safety from suffering, I don't want to suffer in any way, instead I want the true peace of non-existence, I find it such a terrible tragedy how life even exists at all.

what would be your preferred method to cease to exist?

 

[FuneralCry]

what would be your preferred method to cease to exist?

It would be Nembutal as that sounds the most peaceful to me, I want a death which is like never waking again but of course we exist in this hellish world where such a peaceful death isn't an option.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

Yes i can, however i won't since i've explained my reasons before even though my reasons are personal to me. i also find it strange how i get messages asking things like this, after answering i've never heard from them again. i find it rather rude people wanting to know personally things yet they aren't even willing to say why they want to know. You have also made an assumption that the facts i have accepted are "theories" or i'm having a exponential crisis.


i personally feel you're displayed your ignorance with your assumptions, so i do not wish to elaborate further.

No, you're mistaken, as well as being hypocritical in making assumptions as you made your own incorrect presumption theory on my question. On your poll, you listed examples/definitions or whatever of every option except the "existential crisis." I simply wanted to know if this was sort of an umbrella term for "other." I wasn't inquiring your personal answering of the poll; I was asking the theory (examples/definitions, again not your own personal ones) of that option of the poll, because I misread it, there was no additional details to that option. Simple as that. So you worked yourself up because you didn't practice your preaching about "assuming" things from folks, for nothing. Thanks for projecting your personal crap and bad experiences based off your poll onto me. Perhaps the others were inquiring the same thing as well. What you meant as the option for "existential crisis" so they would better know how to correctly partake in the poll. Perhaps they weren't asking your personal answer at all; and you're just too arrogant and defensive to notice. That's your problem, so don't make it mine. No need to respond to this as I could care less. This has wasted enough of my time.

 

[Dark Window]

Things decay overtime. Our sun will even burn out one day.


Yes i'm sure. Years ago (before my reality was this bad) a psychologist or psychiatrist (when i was in a psychiatric hospital and they were trying to get me on the right medication) said he thinks the reason medications aren't doing what they're supposed to very well, is because i don't just have a chemical imbalance in my brain. my heart is full of pain too.


ignorance isn't a solution.

I never said anything about ignorance did I?

Sigh. I really do find it sad when someone thinks they've figured everything out and therefore don't need to bother being open to other ideas.

If you want to have a deeper discussion about this, feel free to DM me if you're willing to put aside your arrogance.

I've had similar experiences to what you are describing.

 

[tbroken]

A stupid trauma, caused by careless people and maybe careless parents, ruined all my life.
I suffered all alone in silence and suppressed the pain with stupidity and reckless actions.
Anxiety and depression ruled great part of my life and now i don't know who i am and I just live day by day not giving a f**k about anything.
There were a lot of things i was good at, i lost interest in everything. I don't like myself and I don't like my life. I'm broken, there are some parts i can't connect or i refuse to do so.
We were a nice family, i had some good friend, this place destroyed us, maybe God didn't like me, who knows?
I hate this place more than everything in the world.

 

[Silent_cries]

I voted mental illness and developmental disabillity since I have autism and likely multiple undiagnosed mental illnesses, but I have a third reason too witch is my current life situation. I'm never going to be able to have a worthy life anymore due to my own actions in the past. It's too late to fix anything anymore for me.

I voted mental illness and developmental disabillity since I have autism and likely multiple undiagnosed mental illnesses, but I have a third reason too witch is my current life situation. I'm never going to be able to have a worthy life anymore due to my own actions in the past. It's too late to fix anything anymore for me.

There is a fourth reason too actually, witch is the fact that I'm a horrible person that humanity would be better off without.

 

[Final_Choice]

auto dysfunction and chronic illnesses are my main reasons, though mental illnesses assist it as well.

 

[trashprincess]

Trauma and Disability

Or Money

Either I need money or I need the ability to make money so...

 

[BardBarrie]

I didn't ask to be here.
I don't like this reality.
We're all going to die anyway, potentially in a long drawn-out manner after going through the grinder of life.

 

[Alex Fermentopathy]

If the illness leads to buildup of toxins in the brain that affect how the brain works and feels to the point that one wants to kill himself in such moments. Is it mental or physical? Sure toxins are physical, but pain is rather mental.