please vote. What is more responsible that you intend to commit suicide?

[sadstargazer231]

yes .sure. top of the page you can see

It took a few posts before it appeared for me!

 

[VileLiquid]

For me I simply do not like existing. I see life as tedious and pointless and life does not interest me in any way. I want to ctb to prevent decades of meaningless suffering, as in this life there is no limit as to how bad it can get. This life holds unlimited potential for suffering. I dislike simply being conscious. It is uncomfortable. I am tired of the same thoughts.

I have had bad luck and have experienced health problems and I dread the future. I do not want to reach an old age. I have always struggled with life and I am not meant for this world. I just prefer the sound of non existence. I would rather rest and be at peace. I despise everything about living and that is my reason. It is hard to say what is more responsible as for me the problem is life itself. In a way I have already died.

Coincidence you are the one who commented on my recent post? I understand this, it resonates with me. If I've already been through so much, even after trying and exhausting all possibilities, and having *everything* not ever work out... what is the point? I don't think there is one. And I gave the universe another year to prove me wrong but it hasn't.

Which goes against my rule of "don't ever expect anything" but... it might have been nice to be proven wrong.

 

[insanedoomer]

vote 6 : all of em .

 

[Geturdone]

Yo I am convinced I have schizoid!!!!! I forgot about it, thanks for reminding me! I'm high-key reluctant to add it to my list of fun identity labels tho haha. My gf made fun of me "collecting disorders" when I went for my autism diagnosis smh

Sometimes having the "label" is beneficial if one is getting treatment or hopes to. Gotta have that ICD9 coding to satisfy the insurance company or other bureaucrat. You seem both articulate and self a aware so plz allow me to ask you this: why do you continue to keep this "girlfriend" if she treats you as you described? No judgement on my part as there can be many reasons but what you've described makes it sound hurtful and exploitive on her part. Telling me it's none of my business is an acceptable answer. Best wishes. Pax.

 

[little helpers]

Yo I am convinced I have schizoid!!!!! I forgot about it, thanks for reminding me! I'm high-key reluctant to add it to my list of fun identity labels tho haha. My gf made fun of me "collecting disorders" when I went for my autism diagnosis smh

six college shrinks were made fun of when my ex-gf went on "shrink-testing sprees" with her autism. she got tight lips, kept each shrink in the dark, couple months later we were both laughing our heads off cuz she got six different diagnosis.

I think she was just being real cautious cuz her dad wanted a written-down diagnosis from psycheval back then. I have to say she's too fucking right with that caution. "free shrink testing kits".