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itchingtoend

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Is there a solid SN source in the US? I need to CTB before having to see my rapist for the holidays. I'm starting to panic as I'm running out of time. I've never even held a gun so SN seems the best, most reliable option. Please. I need some help so I can do this soon.
 
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MediumRareChicken

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Oooof, having to see your rapist at family gatherings sounds fucking dreadful. I don't know how to get SN, but I really feel for you. Is there any way that you could possibly avoid such an encounter?
 
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imontheloose

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I am so sorry you had to go through that. Wishing you peace and bumping for you, lovely.
 
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elenaboo25

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Could you pretend you're ill so you don't have to go see them?
 
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Rape Abuse and Incest Network has people who can talk to you about how you feel. If you tell them you are suicidal, it could result in locked care, but if you just chat with them about how you are feeling it may help you get through this:


I am so sorry you are going through this.
 
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Are you sure there is absolutely no other way of dealing with your rapist. It sounds horrible that you had to go through with that and that someone like that can roam the streets freely. Have you told anyone you know about what they've done or tried going to the police. After you drink that SN there's no going back. Your rapist might look for new victims afterward too. Please try and make it through the holidays
 
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itchingtoend

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Oooof, having to see your rapist at family gatherings sounds fucking dreadful. I don't know how to get SN, but I really feel for you. Is there any way that you could possibly avoid such an encounter?
I wish. It's complicated…but there's no avoiding him.
I am so sorry you had to go through that. Wishing you peace and bumping for you, lovely.
Thank you.
Could you pretend you're ill so you don't have to go see them?
I've done that before…but I can't. My parents would never forgive me not making the holidays.
Rape Abuse and Incest Network has people who can talk to you about how you feel. If you tell them you are suicidal, it could result in locked care, but if you just chat with them about how you are feeling it may help you get through this:


I am so sorry you are going through this.
Thank you. Me too. It's horrific it happened. But seeing him is continued agony.
Are you sure there is absolutely no other way of dealing with your rapist. It sounds horrible that you had to go through with that and that someone like that can roam the streets freely. Have you told anyone you know about what they've done or tried going to the police. After you drink that SN there's no going back. Your rapist might look for new victims afterward too. Please try and make it through the holidays
This happened so long ago it's too late for the police. And I'm confident he is t hurting anyone else. He barely leaves his house.
Even if I make it through the holidays I'll continue to see him at family events. It's the fact I can't escape him that I must CTB. Right now taking the SN sounds like the only peace I could find.
 
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I wish. It's complicated…but there's no avoiding him.

Thank you.

I've done that before…but I can't. My parents would never forgive me not making the holidays.

Thank you. Me too. It's horrific it happened. But seeing him is continued agony.

This happened so long ago it's too late for the police. And I'm confident he is t hurting anyone else. He barely leaves his house.
Even if I make it through the holidays I'll continue to see him at family events. It's the fact I can't escape him that I must CTB. Right now taking the SN sounds like the only peace I could find.
The Rape Abuse and Incest Network has trained counselors. I have no idea what to say about your situation, but think it might be a sensible idea to at least chat with them and see what they think. I really hope you use their online chat. There is a button in the center of the page. Would you please at least try it? They may log IP so use tor browser if you don't want to be tracked. (https://www.torproject.org/download/)
 
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itchingtoend

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The Rape Abuse and Incest Network has trained counselors. I have no idea what to say about your situation, but think it might be a sensible idea to at least chat with them and see what they think. I really hope you use their online chat. There is a button in the center of the page. Would you please at least try it? They may log IP so use tor browser if you don't want to be tracked. (https://www.torproject.org/download/)
I'll take a look. Thank you.
 
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