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vira

vira

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Apr 28, 2025
175
I dont understand what i am doing wrong.

rundown of my method:

what i use:
thin lace acquired from a pair of pajamas. similar to that of a shoelace, but th ends are folded rather than aglets.

what ive tried:
i took the lace and put it behind my head, holding equal parts infront of me. i tie a half knot at the front, pull hard, then tie one at the back. after im holding the two infront of me again, i tie a square/reef knot.

the expectation is that, once i head to tie the reef knot, i should start to feel dizzy or light-headed. that is NOT the case for me, im getting the help-me-my-head-is-exploding feeling instead, not fun.

ive tried this method on multiple areas, (right above my adam's apple, right beneath my jawbone, somewhere in-between the two, and more when i was trying to repeat it over & over) with absolutely no luck. its always the exploding feeling, then lips get numb, then nothing. ive tried waiting patiently with that feeling to no avail- it just keeps going and going and going for 5-10 minutes, it just. doesnt. stop.

i dont know what im doing wrong!!! ive tried doing the method with tight socks as padding on my 'carotids' (apparently not), with each position i mentioned earlier, nothing changes. sometimes with the padding, i cant even get the exploding feeling, just discomfort in my throat.

it might be because of two things:

a. me swallowing, changing the position. (which, mind you, ive done runs where i havent gulped at all--same story.)

b. im not pressing/pullung hard enough. (i am pulling my ABSOLUTE HARDEST, i assure you.)

what happens, p2:

imagine everything is in place.. and im pulling.

PUUUULLLL... [discomfort] [discomfort]... pump.. pump.. pump.. pump.. (pumping continues)... ~swallow~ (which ive been able to avoid a good few times).. (pumping continues)... lips start numbing and face turns red (sometimes with white spots/ my face turns purple).. and then everything keeps going for another 5-10 minutes, no signs of improvement.

I have zero clue what im doing wrong?? just as a not, i am incapable of feeling my carotids. i have trid for months, 20 minutes just feeling around, pushing, pressing hard, nothing. maybe i dont have carotids??? lol

i have tried partial, night night, nothing has been working. all the same story. please help me!
 
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Galahad

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Mar 21, 2024
277
Can you feel your carotid pulse? It took me an age to even feel mine.

Although I haven't used a ligature I've never been able to collapse my carotids with my hands and pass out like some do.
 
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