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lovelulu

lovelulu

even the iron still fears the rot.
Jan 3, 2026
103
it seems like I keep running into dead ends with my ctb. I was going to jump, but now im unsure due to the height. I was going to overdose, but there's no pills I could successfully overdose on. I cant get access to a firearm either. Please, I beg, someone help me find a way. I'm really desperate.
 
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Fadenself00

Student
Sep 21, 2025
141
We can't tell you what to do/which method to use. All we can do is point you to resources..

(Quick question though - I've skimmed your posts, and you said you have pretty severe mood swings - are you on any meds right now? They can have these severe mood side effects, and those are hard to tell apart from illness symptoms)
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,648
I understand, I just wish to be free from this torturous existence as well, the fact that there isn't the option to just peacefully cease existing is such terrible cruelty to me, I hope you find peace.
 

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