Please help I wanna die so bad right now

[PrettyKitty]

I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back than I saw this thing of a girl on tiktok around the same weight and height being called chubby and I know Asian standards are different than Canada's or USA but it hit hard. It's not just that Im going through med withdrawal (lexapro and prisitq) hurts like hell I haven't eaten in a day or two. Because I'm trying to starve myself to death or to get really skinny I just wanna die like cut my wrist I know not good method no point or hang which I have the stuff for so why not why not shut die I'm fucking useless fat piece of shit who does nothing right how could anybody want me here or love me it's the end make it stop please I just wanna be dead please help me

I just wanna be okay I want help but nothing helps meds mental hospitals doctors therapists of tried it all countless times what's stopping me this time last time I failed I wanna make sure I don't anymore I want this to be the last time I see this hell of a earth

Am I aloud to have a last meal before I hang myself? Or is that bad. I will hang myself I have too

 

[darkythoughts876]

Cutting your wrists is easy, you just gotta cut it on the right places, first of all, do a horizontal cut right on the vein, resist your instincts, and you may end up dying, another way you could try is, find a cliff and jump off said cliff then try to land right on your head for a Quick death, its not as bad as it sounds, youll feel pain for a small fraction of a second, then its finally over.

 

[SexyIncél]

I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back than I saw this thing of a girl on tiktok around the same weight and height being called chubby and I know Asian standards are different than Canada's or USA but it hit hard.

People say these things to make themselves feel better. Not because it's the truth. Also helps them practice controlling people

Cutting your wrists is easy, you just gotta cut it on the right places, first of all, do a horizontal cut right on the vein, resist your instincts, and you may end up dying, another way you could try is, find a cliff and jump off said cliff then try to land right on your head for a Quick death, its not as bad as it sounds, youll feel pain for a small fraction of a second, then its finally over.

Slashing wrists is a notoriously low-probability ctb method. And I hear it's very difficult to land on your head. Though I'm not a diver. One can search this forum for more details, once you meet whatever posting threshold

 

[PrettyKitty]

Cutting your wrists is easy, you just gotta cut it on the right places, first of all, do a horizontal cut right on the vein, resist your instincts, and you may end up dying, another way you could try is, find a cliff and jump off said cliff then try to land right on your head for a Quick death, its not as bad as it sounds, youll feel pain for a small fraction of a second, then its finally over.

I know alot about cutting wrists but can you maybe PM me and give some much needed advice or like a thing that can help me. Also I there's no cliffs anywhere near here I rather slit my wrist. Also how much pain will I be in after doing it

 

[darkythoughts876]

People say these things to make themselves feel better. Not because it's the truth. Also helps them practice controlling people


Slashing wrists is a notoriously low-probability ctb method. And I hear it's very difficult to land on your head. Though I'm not a diver

What would you suggest then?

 

[SexyIncél]

What would you suggest then?

These megathreads have lots of info. Hanging, firearms and SN/poisons are common methods

 

[PrettyKitty]

People say these things to make themselves feel better. Not because it's the truth. Also helps them practice controlling people


Slashing wrists is a notoriously low-probability ctb method. And I hear it's very difficult to land on your head. Though I'm not a diver

I know alot of people say mean things out of insecurities or just being a bully but for some reason it really gets to me alot I'm not sure what to do I really do wanna slit my wrists because nobody checks on me so if I do it right and deep enough all be able to bleed out I'm just scared of the pain. Even though I'm already a cutter

 

[darkythoughts876]

I know alot of people say mean things out of insecurities or just being a bully but for some reason it really gets to me alot I'm not sure what to do I really do wanna slit my wrists because nobody checks on me so if I do it right and deep enough all be able to bleed out I'm just scared of the pain. Even though I'm already a cutter

Do you have any drugs or meds to numb the pain?

 

[SexyIncél]

I know alot of people say mean things out of insecurities or just being a bully but for some reason it really gets to me alot I'm not sure what to do I really do wanna slit my wrists because nobody checks on me so if I do it right and deep enough all be able to bleed out I'm just scared of the pain. Even though I'm already a cutter

You can search for people's experiences on slitting wrists. Just note they frequently cite 2% or less success rate

 

[PrettyKitty]

You can search for people's experiences on slitting wrists. Just note they frequently cite 2% or less success rate

That's mostly because they don't do it right or get saved. Like it you cut an artery not a vein that's a different story.
Extreme strength advil

Do you have any drugs or meds to numb the pain?

Just advil

 

[darkythoughts876]

That's mostly because they don't do it right or get saved. Like it you cut an artery not a vein that's a different story.
Extreme strength advil

Just advil

Well, hm, have you tried drowning or poisoning?

 

[SexyIncél]

That's mostly because they don't do it right or get saved. Like it you cut an artery not a vein that's a different story.

As you wish. This forum has a ton of experienced wrist-slitters who seem to think otherwise, but ymmv. Also, people claim it's an error to reduce your suffering by trying something that'll likely just increase your suffering. And there's self-inflicted fates worse than death

But if you're sure, please ignore me. I just hope you update us on the outcome, if you survive and your hands still work

 

[that smell]

Cutting your wrists is easy, you just gotta cut it on the right places, first of all, do a horizontal cut right on the vein, resist your instincts, and you may end up dying, another way you could try is, find a cliff and jump off said cliff then try to land right on your head for a Quick death, its not as bad as it sounds, youll feel pain for a small fraction of a second, then its finally over.

If cutting the wrists were so easy it wouldn't have a 2% success rate. Jumping is not as easy as it sounds either; overcoming the SI to throw yourself over the edge is a challenge for most. Hopefully the height is sufficient so you don't just end up with permanent damage.

PrettyKitty, sorry you're having such a hard time with your body image. I saw your picture in one of your threads and I personally think your body is great for what it's worth.

I hope you're able to find some peace and make the decision that's right for you.

 

[MrShino]

I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back than I saw this thing of a girl on tiktok around the same weight and height being called chubby and I know Asian standards are different than Canada's or USA but it hit hard.

There's really no.. and I absolutely mean that, no reason to be hurt by that. I know it's easier said than done, because sometimes we don't make choices on how to react, but try to think about it. People say all kind of nonsense on the internet that has no meaning whatsoever. No matter what you look like, there are people to judge and today even thin girls would sometimes be called chubby by some idiots. You really shouldn't be worried about that. And even if you would have been chubby, so what? There's absolutely nothing wrong with that either, and many people like that.

You should feel good about your body that you already have regardless, and you could even start to do some running, training and eating healthy (fruits and vegetables) and you would probably soon have the body you want.

 

[RapierDude]

I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back than I saw this thing of a girl on tiktok around the same weight and height being called chubby and I know Asian standards are different than Canada's or USA but it hit hard. It's not just that Im going through med withdrawal (lexapro and prisitq) hurts like hell I haven't eaten in a day or two. Because I'm trying to starve myself to death or to get really skinny I just wanna die like cut my wrist I know not good method no point or hang which I have the stuff for so why not why not shut die I'm fucking useless fat piece of shit who does nothing right how could anybody want me here or love me it's the end make it stop please I just wanna be dead please help me

I just wanna be okay I want help but nothing helps meds mental hospitals doctors therapists of tried it all countless times what's stopping me this time last time I failed I wanna make sure I don't anymore I want this to be the last time I see this hell of a earth

Am I aloud to have a last meal before I hang myself? Or is that bad. I will hang myself I have too

hey dont do that, you were almost on the good path. I bet you just need some more days to actually feel better

I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back than I saw this thing of a girl on tiktok around the same weight and height being called chubby and I know Asian standards are different than Canada's or USA but it hit hard. It's not just that Im going through med withdrawal (lexapro and prisitq) hurts like hell I haven't eaten in a day or two. Because I'm trying to starve myself to death or to get really skinny I just wanna die like cut my wrist I know not good method no point or hang which I have the stuff for so why not why not shut die I'm fucking useless fat piece of shit who does nothing right how could anybody want me here or love me it's the end make it stop please I just wanna be dead please help me

I just wanna be okay I want help but nothing helps meds mental hospitals doctors therapists of tried it all countless times what's stopping me this time last time I failed I wanna make sure I don't anymore I want this to be the last time I see this hell of a earth

Am I aloud to have a last meal before I hang myself? Or is that bad. I will hang myself I have too

"I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back" you got trough the most difficult part and im sure you can actually recover.

 

[MrShino]

I agree.. this is a very fixable situation. It might not feel like it right now, but I would REALLY advice you to don't give up now. You were on a good track and you can soon be again.

 

[Teikoku]

It's a shame you can't give more weight to the positive comments people are saying rather than focus on the negative.

I suggest trying to take your mind off it somehow by doing something you enjoy. Watch a film, read a book, listen to music. Hopefully there is something you enjoy doing that can help you get through the day, rather than making a rushed attempt at ctb, which could put you in an even worse position.

 

[RapierDude]

I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back than I saw this thing of a girl on tiktok around the same weight and height being called chubby and I know Asian standards are different than Canada's or USA but it hit hard. It's not just that Im going through med withdrawal (lexapro and prisitq) hurts like hell I haven't eaten in a day or two. Because I'm trying to starve myself to death or to get really skinny I just wanna die like cut my wrist I know not good method no point or hang which I have the stuff for so why not why not shut die I'm fucking useless fat piece of shit who does nothing right how could anybody want me here or love me it's the end make it stop please I just wanna be dead please help me

I just wanna be okay I want help but nothing helps meds mental hospitals doctors therapists of tried it all countless times what's stopping me this time last time I failed I wanna make sure I don't anymore I want this to be the last time I see this hell of a earth

Am I aloud to have a last meal before I hang myself? Or is that bad. I will hang myself I have too

And btw you shouldnt feel that bad over you body, like its ok to have insecurities and everyone has but... Not a thing to put your life into account, im sure you must be really pretty for most of the persons. just ignore that idiot Andrew Tate fans

 

[RapierDude]

I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back than I saw this thing of a girl on tiktok around the same weight and height being called chubby and I know Asian standards are different than Canada's or USA but it hit hard. It's not just that Im going through med withdrawal (lexapro and prisitq) hurts like hell I haven't eaten in a day or two. Because I'm trying to starve myself to death or to get really skinny I just wanna die like cut my wrist I know not good method no point or hang which I have the stuff for so why not why not shut die I'm fucking useless fat piece of shit who does nothing right how could anybody want me here or love me it's the end make it stop please I just wanna be dead please help me

I just wanna be okay I want help but nothing helps meds mental hospitals doctors therapists of tried it all countless times what's stopping me this time last time I failed I wanna make sure I don't anymore I want this to be the last time I see this hell of a earth

Am I aloud to have a last meal before I hang myself? Or is that bad. I will hang myself I have too

I know how it is to be shamed just like you. im autistic and i do feel that on my skin you know? But even that cant block me from hearing the positive comments people make. And when you feel you are being ignored you should consider that most persons get a little bit anxious when thinking about talking to new persons. Im sure that sooner or later it will be better okay? ^_^

 

[starrvingstar]

your body will be able to change quickly, dont you want to stick around to prove to others you can achieve a low bmi and perfect shape? the fat on your body is not permanent.

losertown calorie calculator: use this calculator to see how much weight you can lose in a short amount of time, it might help you pick a goal to live for.

of course starving is not the right option either but if its your last resort you can have a chance at a longer life if you want to stick around for it.

 

[Mirrory Me]

I used to be self-loathing and anorexic. It took quite a while but i got over it.

I was very hard on myself- I played sports and went days without eating. I started to feel sick due to hunger and lack of energy, but I just looked after people who had behaved the same way.

Even though I reached a very low weight, it did not make me happy.

Later I started eating more and found I enjoyed it. I decided that I don't want to suffer because of this anymore. It didn't matter what I looked like, just that I was happy inside.

 

[charlotte_]

hey there, please dont take this in an insensitive manner bcz i by no means want to invalidate your will to die. but just like many ppl have said here, you've almost passed the first stage of recovery which is feeling good about your body. you should take it at your own pace, and those who are disrespectful towards others' body shapes aren't worth listening to since they're selfish mfs who only say things that doesn't affect themselves. it's your choice if you want to decrease your weight, not anyone's choice, so there's no need to listen about others opinions and let them put you down. best wishes to you!

 

[FuneralCry]

To me cutting and starving sound like terrible ways to try and die, as I've mentioned in other threads I don't really think they are recommended if one wishes to succeed. Cutting is a self harm method while starving sounds close to impossible to succeed with at least to me. But after all, only the individual can decide on what method, I do hate how we exist in a world where those who want to die cannot just pass away in peace without struggle, it really shouldn't have to be so difficult for humans to finally exit existence.

 

[PrettyKitty]

It's the next day here and I've read every one of your responses I can't reply to all of them because I didn't know that many people would reply/care. For people saying I have a nice body and to not focus on other opinions I truly love you and thank you. I also wanted to bring up the calorie diets and exercise people are suggesting me I'm already exercising everyday and have been on a calorie deficit for many months I should be proud I'm losing weight but like alot of people said doesn't make you happy.thank you for all the comments I'm still pretty set on the wrist thing but maybe I can reach out and change my mind. I still have a will to live.

To me cutting and starving sound like terrible ways to try and die, as I've mentioned in other threads I don't really think they are recommended if one wishes to succeed. Cutting is a self harm method while starving sounds close to impossible to succeed with at least to me. But after all, only the individual can decide on what method, I do hate how we exist in a world where those who want to die cannot just pass away in peace without struggle, it really shouldn't have to be so difficult for humans to finally exit existence.

hey there, please dont take this in an insensitive manner bcz i by no means want to invalidate your will to die. but just like many ppl have said here, you've almost passed the first stage of recovery which is feeling good about your body. you should take it at your own pace, and those who are disrespectful towards others' body shapes aren't worth listening to since they're selfish mfs who only say things that doesn't affect themselves. it's your choice if you want to decrease your weight, not anyone's choice, so there's no need to listen about others opinions and let them put you down. best wishes to you!

I used to be self-loathing and anorexic. It took quite a while but i got over it.

I was very hard on myself- I played sports and went days without eating. I started to feel sick due to hunger and lack of energy, but I just looked after people who had behaved the same way.

Even though I reached a very low weight, it did not make me happy.

Later I started eating more and found I enjoyed it. I decided that I don't want to suffer because of this anymore. It didn't matter what I looked like, just that I was happy inside.

your body will be able to change quickly, dont you want to stick around to prove to others you can achieve a low bmi and perfect shape? the fat on your body is not permanent.

losertown calorie calculator: use this calculator to see how much weight you can lose in a short amount of time, it might help you pick a goal to live for.

of course starving is not the right option either but if its your last resort you can have a chance at a longer life if you want to stick around for it.

I know how it is to be shamed just like you. im autistic and i do feel that on my skin you know? But even that cant block me from hearing the positive comments people make. And when you feel you are being ignored you should consider that most persons get a little bit anxious when thinking about talking to new persons. Im sure that sooner or later it will be better okay? ^_^

It's a shame you can't give more weight to the positive comments people are saying rather than focus on the negative.

I suggest trying to take your mind off it somehow by doing something you enjoy. Watch a film, read a book, listen to music. Hopefully there is something you enjoy doing that can help you get through the day, rather than making a rushed attempt at ctb, which could put you in an even worse position.

I agree.. this is a very fixable situation. It might not feel like it right now, but I would REALLY advice you to don't give up now. You were on a good track and you can soon be again.

 

[SexyIncél]

PrettyKitty, sorry you're having such a hard time with your body image. I saw your picture in one of your threads and I personally think your body is great for what it's worth.

I agree! Your post led me to check. PrettyKitty's body shape will cause her virtually zero social problems in mainstream society

So it is a psychological problem, not physical nor social

There was a guy who posted here recently, convinced he was ugly. Actually he was quite handsome. This is very similar, both are considered attractive but they believe they're not. Very common phenomenon

 

[PrettyKitty]

I agree! Your post led me to check. PrettyKitty's body shape will cause virtually zero social problems in mainstream society

So it is a psychological problem, not mental nor social

There was a guy who posted here recently, convinced he was ugly. Actually he was quite handsome. This is very similar, both are considered attractive but they believe they're not

I wish I could see what you see, thank you though for your kind words your ana amazing human being I'm also very thank full for all the help and replies you have given me much love and wishes

 

[starrvingstar]

It's the next day here and I've read every one of your responses I can't reply to all of them because I didn't know that many people would reply/care. For people saying I have a nice body and to not focus on other opinions I truly love you and thank you. I also wanted to bring up the calorie diets and exercise people are suggesting me I'm already exercising everyday and have been on a calorie deficit for many months I should be proud I'm losing weight but like alot of people said doesn't make you happy.thank you for all the comments I'm still pretty set on the wrist thing but maybe I can reach out and change my mind. I still have a will to live.

keep taking good care youve got this

 

[SVEN]

I was starting to feel good about my body and weight due to getting alot of positive feed back than I saw this thing of a girl on tiktok around the same weight and height being called chubby and I know Asian standards are different than Canada's or USA but it hit hard. It's not just that Im going through med withdrawal (lexapro and prisitq) hurts like hell I haven't eaten in a day or two. Because I'm trying to starve myself to death or to get really skinny I just wanna die like cut my wrist I know not good method no point or hang which I have the stuff for so why not why not shut die I'm fucking useless fat piece of shit who does nothing right how could anybody want me here or love me it's the end make it stop please I just wanna be dead please help me

I just wanna be okay I want help but nothing helps meds mental hospitals doctors therapists of tried it all countless times what's stopping me this time last time I failed I wanna make sure I don't anymore I want this to be the last time I see this hell of a earth

Am I aloud to have a last meal before I hang myself? Or is that bad. I will hang myself I have too

Yes PK, you're always allowed to have a meal irrespective of what you choose to do later. That's the wonderful blessing of you being in control. If you decide to CTB that is your choice, everyone on this group understands, accepts and supports you. Equally, as you were just beginning to feel that wee bit better and moving forward a bit, if you decide to wait for the next 'bus for a day or two, that's fine as well.
Just don't feel you need to make a decision based on a chance comment made to someone else. Do what is best for you based on where you are now. All your choices and options remain open, and yours to make.

 

[RapierDude]

It's the next day here and I've read every one of your responses I can't reply to all of them because I didn't know that many people would reply/care. For people saying I have a nice body and to not focus on other opinions I truly love you and thank you. I also wanted to bring up the calorie diets and exercise people are suggesting me I'm already exercising everyday and have been on a calorie deficit for many months I should be proud I'm losing weight but like alot of people said doesn't make you happy.thank you for all the comments I'm still pretty set on the wrist thing but maybe I can reach out and change my mind. I still have a will to live.

so great that you are trying to develop that matter, that decision can be hard but it is incredible to give a chance to the future.

 

[Catastrofe]

I know how hard it is, to look at your body and hate it, like it is not yours.

Because many people have answered already, I will try to gife you a point of view that has not been written yet.
You are focused on how your body looks.
Why do not you focus on what your body can do? :)
For example : your body is that awsome thing that can take you for a walk if you wish ; your hands can take care of your plants or pers, if you have any ; your eyes can let you see your fav movie, so your ears with music ; your mouth can talk friendly and loving.
Your body is the mean you have to experiende something you like.

Of course everything is your choice, but I see you had a bit of a crisis so I am trying to help while you are overwhelmed. :)

ps: social medias are crap, delete if you can.