Planning to ctb

[micheal7271]

Tomorrow will be the day I choose wheater or not I am going to ctb. I am a student tomorrow is going to be the announcement of university entrance exam. If I don't get into uni tomorrow I am going to ctb, I feel that I don't pass the exam bcz I did poorly in the exam. This is the only path I can take, as this is the only possible way my parent can afford my education. My mom said that it's okay even if I don't make it but I knew deep down that she is going to be disappointed and ashamed of my failure, my grandpa and my grandma are going to shame me, maybe other people are going to shame me too as I did well in high school. I cannot take anymore mockery, my family is not the best I had always been my mom emotional punching bag, I fix my family problems, my family is really religious to the point I have to wear things I honestly hate and they shamed me even threaten to cut me off if I don't wear the things they want, and they think that only crazy people did therapy so never seek help. I never had vacation just so I can afford uni, I already sacrificed a lot for this exam, time, money, and health. Honestly I don't want to ctb, I want to try lots of things, I building a relationship, going to places I want to go, and try different style. I already acquired sn and I have domperidone for antiemetic.

I am so sorry for my bad English, I am not a native speaker

 

[derekWest]

You have so much pressure ! As in many cases, religious and poverty don't improve the situation.

You want to ctb for external causes.
So obviously, I hope that you will cancel your decision to ctb.

I don't have a magic wand. But I hope that it will get better for you.

Stay safe as you can.
.
Me too, I decided to make a choice between life and death.
I choose life because I thought that I have again some interesting things to do in my life. It was true.
I hope that you will see such good perspectives tomorrow and cancel tour ctb attempt to profit of your life as you can.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever you decide.

 

[darksouls]

I wish that everything will be better for you in your future

 

[Linda]

Tomorrow will be the day I choose wheater or not I am going to ctb. I am a student tomorrow is going to be the announcement of university entrance exam. If I don't get into uni tomorrow I am going to ctb, I feel that I don't pass the exam bcz I did poorly in the exam. This is the only path I can take, as this is the only possible way my parent can afford my education. My mom said that it's okay even if I don't make it but I knew deep down that she is going to be disappointed and ashamed of my failure, my grandpa and my grandma are going to shame me, maybe other people are going to shame me too as I did well in high school. I cannot take anymore mockery, my family is not the best I had always been my mom emotional punching bag, I fix my family problems, my family is really religious to the point I have to wear things I honestly hate and they shamed me even threaten to cut me off if I don't wear the things they want, and they think that only crazy people did therapy so never seek help. I never had vacation just so I can afford uni, I already sacrificed a lot for this exam, time, money, and health. Honestly I don't want to ctb, I want to try lots of things, I building a relationship, going to places I want to go, and try different style. I already acquired sn and I have domperidone for antiemetic.

I am so sorry for my bad English, I am not a native speaker

I don't think you should ctb in these circumstances. If you don't get into university, you should look for another way forward in life. You will find one.