Planning to CTB soon -- finally feeling at peace

[koalahymm]

I'm going to ctb June 5th and since I made that decision I have felt better than I can remember feeling. I have a few hundred diphenhydramine pills that are now a lot of powder. I plan to mix that with peppermint tea and drink it, followed by using as many Belbuca films as I can. I have a box of 60 Belbuca films (150mcg) and I'm hopeful that since I haven't touched opioids in four years and did 5g once or twice a week when I was using that the the Belbuca will work. The pharmacist cautioned that chewing or swallowing the film will result in a rapid overdose so that's what I plan to do.

I know I haven't posted here much but I've read a lot of posts and I feel like you people are the only ones that understand why anyone would chose this. I hope that you all find the peace that we are all seeking.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be a relief to feel at peace, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[sugarh1gh]

I am happy that you are feeling better.
I hope your journey is peaceful and pleasant.
Hopefully the diphenhydramine would ease you any disturbance.