willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
- 1,672
I have a plan in place. I have not yet decided if I will be taking some form of alcohol with it. I think that will be part of the moment to moment decision. I also haven't decided if I will go somewhere or do it at home. I would hate for my roommate to find me but at the same time I just don't have it in me to go anywhere anymore. The most important parts of my plan are thought out. I don't think I will plan a time though. I need the moment to moment impulsivity to be able to go through with it without hesitation. I know I want to die, but I have moments of higher anxiety and moments of absolute apathy, and I will be most successful if I reach a moment of apathy and just do it.