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Defective Personel
- Jan 20, 2023
- 490
I'm just sick of it all. repeat repeat, same-same, distract distract. Computer being shit, lagg @ FPS, no work, fkn USELESSS.
Junk crap all!
fuuking....!
Shit doesn't work, shit won't matter! Then I'm supposedly "entitled" for having any standards or expectations for literally anything in this world!
Fuck it all!!!!
I fkn fkn swear, ppl just accept this crap?
Jeez.
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There's so often this sort of "frustration" in me, a tense sensation, not necessarily anger. Can't rly express/open-up since I'd just be given drugs in this shit society. I'm sick of being alive, I'm sick of living for distractions. Could life have any meaning? Well all lives are different, so mine would be pointless apart from death regardless.
Boredom, frustration, anger, rage; those emotions are the majority of what I feel nowadays, or a calm numbness and droplets of retard-joy. It's all at nothing, but also everything, everywhere.
This sounds like nonsense to you, doesn't it? I'm rly thinking about ending it all /w these emotions, existence is pointless. No hope, No power, no goal, nothing.
It'd be real useful to have that gun right now, but I must put it off, still more thinking and consideration to do before I'm really sure of ctb.
In this state I'd make a mistake, maybe if I'm successful. But I could actually take action.
Well, it's becoming more and more common, so I don't think there'll be a lack of strong feelings to follow through if need be.
I just kinda wish there was something to attack and kill that'd make things better, apart from myself
Junk crap all!
fuuking....!
Shit doesn't work, shit won't matter! Then I'm supposedly "entitled" for having any standards or expectations for literally anything in this world!
Fuck it all!!!!
I fkn fkn swear, ppl just accept this crap?
Jeez.
---
There's so often this sort of "frustration" in me, a tense sensation, not necessarily anger. Can't rly express/open-up since I'd just be given drugs in this shit society. I'm sick of being alive, I'm sick of living for distractions. Could life have any meaning? Well all lives are different, so mine would be pointless apart from death regardless.
Boredom, frustration, anger, rage; those emotions are the majority of what I feel nowadays, or a calm numbness and droplets of retard-joy. It's all at nothing, but also everything, everywhere.
This sounds like nonsense to you, doesn't it? I'm rly thinking about ending it all /w these emotions, existence is pointless. No hope, No power, no goal, nothing.
It'd be real useful to have that gun right now, but I must put it off, still more thinking and consideration to do before I'm really sure of ctb.
In this state I'd make a mistake, maybe if I'm successful. But I could actually take action.
Well, it's becoming more and more common, so I don't think there'll be a lack of strong feelings to follow through if need be.
I just kinda wish there was something to attack and kill that'd make things better, apart from myself