Phenobarbital Questions

[lotus-flowers]

Hi everyone,

I'm new to this website but have been a lurker for nearly two years. It's nice to meet anyone and everyone in these forums. I don't know if I'll ever be comfortable sharing my story, but to simplify things, my life was changed in a horrific way two years ago. It's very hard to talk about, but something was physically done to me that left me in severe pain and completely traumatized. I have lost trust in medical professionals since this event.

I'll admit, I've always struggled depression and anxiety. But after this happened two years ago, I have barely been able to function. It's hard enough dealing with mental health, but having something physically devastating and unfixable makes things so much harder. I have been through countless painful medical procedures, medications, therapies, hospitalizations, and multiple suicide attempts. At this point, I think everyone in my life knows I just want to die. I have put my all in trying to "recover" from this nightmare. It just isn't working. I feel like I'm going to be stuck in this limbo of depression, anxiety, pain, and humiliation for the rest of my life. PTSD can be excruciating.

It's been hard because there used to be so many things that I enjoyed, and NOTHING brings me any enjoyment anymore. I've been in such a dark place and exposed to so many horrible things that I have a completely different view of life now. I have lost the want to keep going. I used to want to further my career and build a meaningful life. It's all been destroyed. More than anything, I just want to fall asleep for one final time and not wake up. It's very hard to shake this thought, no matter how much help I get.

I have attempted partial hanging multiple times, and even full suspension (I don't know if I can really qualify it as an attempt - I quickly scrambled back onto the stool I was standing on.) I had one half-assed attempt at a Bupropion overdose, where deep down I realized it probably wasn't going to kill me. I ended up with multiple grand mal seizures and profuse vomiting for a few days before another psych hospitalization.

I hate how much anger I have inside of me now. I was always a very peaceful person, but now I'm just angry that so much damage can be inflicted on innocent people with no repercussions. This anger is hard to live with when combined with intense depression.

I have seen multiple users post about Phenobarbital (not to be confused with Pentobarbital or "N"). Are there any members who are planning on a Phenobarbital overdose? It's a long-acting barbiturate, and from what I've read, it can take up to three days to pass from overdosing on this medication. The three days wouldn't be an issue for me, as I live alone and never have unexpected visitors. I don't know what would happen during a large overdose (20 grams?) I assume it would take a while to pass out. I have tried to read up on overdose cases and I'm unclear what the main cause of death is. Respiratory depression, aspiration, organ failure, etc. Either way, I am looking into this method and wondered if anyone else is as well.

Thanks for taking the time to read, it means a lot. *hugs*

 

[Deleted member 60002]

Welcome to the website and thank you for sharing. Words cannot express the sorrow I feel for you. Whatever you went through, it sounds like you still carry a massive weight on your shoulders. Hopefully, you can at least find a bit of comfort here. I'm also very new here and I can tell you that this forum has already helped me a lot. I'm not planning on a Phenobarbital overdose, but I hope you find the information you're looking for. Whatever path you choose to take, I wish you the best.

 

[lotus-flowers]

Welcome to the website and thank you for sharing. Words cannot express the sorrow I feel for you. Whatever you went through, it sounds like you still carry a massive weight on your shoulders. Hopefully, you can at least find a bit of comfort here. I'm also very new here and I can tell you that this forum has already helped me a lot. I'm not planning on a Phenobarbital overdose, but I hope you find the information you're looking for. Whatever path you choose to take, I wish you the best.

Thank you very much for the kind words. I find a lot of solace coming on here, which is a rare thing nowadays. Best wishes to you too

 

[Sparx]

@Shadowlord900 was doing phenobarbital in combination with a zene opioid. I'm not sure if he's still around, he hasn't been on the site in a few weeks.

20g is good idea though, someone survived 16g. It's said to be like pentobarbital just slower to do the job. You should pass out within 3 hours.

 

[lotus-flowers]

@Shadowlord900 was doing phenobarbital in combination with a zene opioid. I'm not sure if he's still around, he hasn't been on the site in a few weeks.

20g is good idea though, someone survived 16g. It's said to be like pentobarbital just slower to do the job. You should pass out within 3 hours.

I have kept up with their threads on phenobarbital as well, and yeah it does look like it's been a little while since they have been active on the site. I've seen a few users who have recently discussed phenobarbital. From what I understand, it can only be sourced off from the darknet. Which is understandable - I just have no experience navigating it and it gets confusing very fast, even with all of the guides out there. I don't know where to even start…and then the hopeless spiral starts up again

 

[prv]

Hi everyone,

I'm new to this website but have been a lurker for nearly two years. It's nice to meet anyone and everyone in these forums. I don't know if I'll ever be comfortable sharing my story, but to simplify things, my life was changed in a horrific way two years ago. It's very hard to talk about, but something was physically done to me that left me in severe pain and completely traumatized. I have lost trust in medical professionals since this event.

I'll admit, I've always struggled depression and anxiety. But after this happened two years ago, I have barely been able to function. It's hard enough dealing with mental health, but having something physically devastating and unfixable makes things so much harder. I have been through countless painful medical procedures, medications, therapies, hospitalizations, and multiple suicide attempts. At this point, I think everyone in my life knows I just want to die. I have put my all in trying to "recover" from this nightmare. It just isn't working. I feel like I'm going to be stuck in this limbo of depression, anxiety, pain, and humiliation for the rest of my life. PTSD can be excruciating.

It's been hard because there used to be so many things that I enjoyed, and NOTHING brings me any enjoyment anymore. I've been in such a dark place and exposed to so many horrible things that I have a completely different view of life now. I have lost the want to keep going. I used to want to further my career and build a meaningful life. It's all been destroyed. More than anything, I just want to fall asleep for one final time and not wake up. It's very hard to shake this thought, no matter how much help I get.

I have attempted partial hanging multiple times, and even full suspension (I don't know if I can really qualify it as an attempt - I quickly scrambled back onto the stool I was standing on.) I had one half-assed attempt at a Bupropion overdose, where deep down I realized it probably wasn't going to kill me. I ended up with multiple grand mal seizures and profuse vomiting for a few days before another psych hospitalization.

I hate how much anger I have inside of me now. I was always a very peaceful person, but now I'm just angry that so much damage can be inflicted on innocent people with no repercussions. This anger is hard to live with when combined with intense depression.

I have seen multiple users post about Phenobarbital (not to be confused with Pentobarbital or "N"). Are there any members who are planning on a Phenobarbital overdose? It's a long-acting barbiturate, and from what I've read, it can take up to three days to pass from overdosing on this medication. The three days wouldn't be an issue for me, as I live alone and never have unexpected visitors. I don't know what would happen during a large overdose (20 grams?) I assume it would take a while to pass out. I have tried to read up on overdose cases and I'm unclear what the main cause of death is. Respiratory depression, aspiration, organ failure, etc. Either way, I am looking into this method and wondered if anyone else is as well.

Thanks for taking the time to read, it means a lot. *hugs*

Iam planning on that route just figuring out of 30grams will actually do the trick

I have kept up with their threads on phenobarbital as well, and yeah it does look like it's been a little while since they have been active on the site. I've seen a few users who have recently discussed phenobarbital. From what I understand, it can only be sourced off from the darknet. Which is understandable - I just have no experience navigating it and it gets confusing very fast, even with all of the guides out there. I don't know where to even start…and then the hopeless spiral starts up again

I sourced mine from a vet in cambodia

 

[beforeistoolate]

Iam planning on that route just figuring out of 30grams will actually do the trick

I sourced mine from a vet in cambodia

I have phenobarbital too but have you seen the size of a 100mg pill? 30g would be way too many pills and almost guaranteed your body will reject them. I was planning for 20g but that also seems like way too many pills so I'm considering 15g orally and 10g rectally.

 

[jonward55]

I have phenobarbital too but have you seen the size of a 100mg pill? 30g would be way too many pills and almost guaranteed your body will reject them. I was planning for 20g but that also seems like way too many pills so I'm considering 15g orally and 10g rectally.

Wow is that 30 pills for 30g ? I can't imagine trying to take 30 of those at the same time without being

 

[beforeistoolate]

Wow is that 30 pills for 30g ? I can't imagine trying to take 30 of those at the same time without being

30g is three hundred pills 300

 

[prv]

To be completely honest I think this is a terrible way to do it as
We'll you'll probly just injure your self and be found.

 

[prv]

From other stuff I've read anyways it seems a little bit reliable