Perpetual Sleep

[Graham.N]

I do not want to be a live anymore. I have felt this way for years. Maybe even decades. Daily my strength to do anything is declining. I spend most of the day, almost every day, looking forward to the day I die, like a kid in school watching the clock waiting to go home, counting the days on the calendar till summer vacation, like death is celebratory event, a long planned and anticipated vacation. Like a wrongly convicted prisoner with no resources waiting to be paroled or released.

 

[FishRain3469]

Yepp, I'm Right there with you... such as Many of us are on this site I believe. Sorry I don't have much good to tell you, But Please Trust... And Rest Assured that you are Not Alone in these thoughts and feelings.

Take care of yourself if possible, if not.. I understand that also. Godspeed ♥

 

[flightless bird]

same here.

 

[opro111]

Beautifully said.

 

[ginko0]

You and me both, pal...

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand as I'm also only looking forward to ceasing to exist and it's all I hope for, every second I wish for non-existence, I just want peace from the torturous and futile burden of existence that I never would had chosen that to me is just waiting to die, I really understand feeling so tired of it all.