The Schizoid
Specialist
- Oct 24, 2023
- 306
Hello, I'm not 100% sure I'm ending it all yet, but I'm making plans just in case it doesn't get any better with the last few options I have.
I have been considering the train method, but don't want to ruin anyone's mental health, and all of these other methods such as SN and anything relating to drugs/substances I just fear wont work.
I think finding a very high cliff to jump off is probably best. I know someone could find my body, but I'm thinking of going way out into nature to find a place, and then creating emails that I can send to the police and my family so they'll get it soon after I'm dead so hopefully a professional will find my body. Someone who is mentally prepared.
I am just wondering if there's any drug or substance or anything I can try that will reduce fear/inhibitions that much?
Was considering taking something that makes me drowzy/half conscious or whatever and then just let myself go?
So questions -
1) Is there any drug/substance that will help make me "not care" and just jump?
2) How far do I need to be from the ground so that I don't feel anything?
3) If I jump from a very high height, how long will it take me to die and will I even feel anything after?
Thanks.
I have been considering the train method, but don't want to ruin anyone's mental health, and all of these other methods such as SN and anything relating to drugs/substances I just fear wont work.
I think finding a very high cliff to jump off is probably best. I know someone could find my body, but I'm thinking of going way out into nature to find a place, and then creating emails that I can send to the police and my family so they'll get it soon after I'm dead so hopefully a professional will find my body. Someone who is mentally prepared.
I am just wondering if there's any drug or substance or anything I can try that will reduce fear/inhibitions that much?
Was considering taking something that makes me drowzy/half conscious or whatever and then just let myself go?
So questions -
1) Is there any drug/substance that will help make me "not care" and just jump?
2) How far do I need to be from the ground so that I don't feel anything?
3) If I jump from a very high height, how long will it take me to die and will I even feel anything after?
Thanks.