xX.mlnchli
melancholy
- Jul 4, 2023
- 20
im beginning to care less about the world and the things I'll leave behind. My next attempt will potentially be my last.
Im growing tired.
I wake up everyday, have the same routine.
I watch shows,
Study,
I go on social media, it bores me.
I try to get into relationships, eventually they decide to ghost me after us being in a situationship for a couple days.
I left you messages that i've never been able to tell anyone, and you left me on read. Seriously what went wrong this time?
We both acted like we really wanted something with eachother, we talked as friends for a month. it's not like i lovebombed you either, all i wanted was a friendly reply because we both were going our separate ways and knew our relationship wasn't gonna go far.
I loved the person you showed me
But now I feel lead on.
I didnt ask for love, i just at least wanted a "good luck to you too" or something..
you're going to go off the grid and i'll know nothing of you. Nothing at all. You're going to go to another country and come back God knows when.
Im still aware that people come and go, but how much longer until I find the right person, or at least the right friend I can actually connect with emotionally..
I'm starting to go back to my old mindset of," I'll actually be better off alone. " "If I wasn't bothered I wouldn't have to deal with these thought's every day."
I feel like you just abandoned me.
Im not as hurt as I sound, but seriously,
did someone curse me?
. Am I just overthinking shit way too much?
Should I even feel any sort of way because he left me on read? This isn't the thing that will stop me in life because it's such a simple thing, jst for clarity, but Im having a hard time figuring people out. And also trying to figure out if i should even continue on my goal of finding a life long partner. Im starting to lose interest in it all now.
Im growing tired.
I wake up everyday, have the same routine.
I watch shows,
Study,
I go on social media, it bores me.
I try to get into relationships, eventually they decide to ghost me after us being in a situationship for a couple days.
I left you messages that i've never been able to tell anyone, and you left me on read. Seriously what went wrong this time?
We both acted like we really wanted something with eachother, we talked as friends for a month. it's not like i lovebombed you either, all i wanted was a friendly reply because we both were going our separate ways and knew our relationship wasn't gonna go far.
I loved the person you showed me
But now I feel lead on.
I didnt ask for love, i just at least wanted a "good luck to you too" or something..
you're going to go off the grid and i'll know nothing of you. Nothing at all. You're going to go to another country and come back God knows when.
Im still aware that people come and go, but how much longer until I find the right person, or at least the right friend I can actually connect with emotionally..
I'm starting to go back to my old mindset of," I'll actually be better off alone. " "If I wasn't bothered I wouldn't have to deal with these thought's every day."
I feel like you just abandoned me.
Im not as hurt as I sound, but seriously,
did someone curse me?
. Am I just overthinking shit way too much?Should I even feel any sort of way because he left me on read? This isn't the thing that will stop me in life because it's such a simple thing, jst for clarity, but Im having a hard time figuring people out. And also trying to figure out if i should even continue on my goal of finding a life long partner. Im starting to lose interest in it all now.
