SOME people on here are very competitive, it's strange. Firstly, people coming on her and talking about how easy suicide is and that everyone still here is just a pussy and should get it over with (????). Secondly, the constant posts dragging " fake" attempts, if u believed u were going to die I dont see why people keep making up new criteria. Trying to die is trying to die, no matter the method. People are really snobby about methods in general actually. I dont like reading method threads that aren't like SN, or hanging because alot of times it goes from advice to like mocking. Like the poster is too stupid to figure out how to kts- like they're supposed to have experience????? For a community thats main goal is openness and accepting, people on here can be AT TIMES very hostile. I guess this is a common symptom of a lot of mental disorders, so not surprising to see it here, but still annoying. I have fallen into those ways of thinking before so I get the need for people to know ur not joking, but atleast have the decency to keep it to yourself. Its just funny to me, you're trying to kill yourself not win a race man. Chill out, u dont have competition.
CTB is not fucking easy. That's for sure. That's why most people end up getting drunk or high to do it. Our innate SI is powerful. We don't really want to die, none of us. It's just that a lot of us don't have much of a choice. It's pure torture or nothing, and nothing sounds a hell of a lot better.
But yeah. Humans are competitive sometimes. It's also just a personality type, and males especially with testosterone will have competition. It's good for growth, sometimes. If you have a rival, you can one-up each other. But it does depend on the personality type. Other personality types are more cooperative, and that's usually the feminine virtue style. Men on a football team will constantly be giving each other shit, while women tend to be more supportive and empathetic--as a standard, not absolute: my ex girlfriend was a real competitive asshole.
I also admit, as a man who holds to stoic and masculine ideology, ctb'ing without blood and gore and being able to just ultra-violence myself wounds my pride, too. Most men go out by gun. Of course, I'm also not most men. But, yeah. Can't deny that is a no if and or buts about it way. But I guess part of my issue is that I adopted the feminine virtues, which doesn't work too well as a man.
Anyway. Dead is dead. Method, as you say, really doesn't matter in the end. And getting there is pretty difficult.
But yeah. People is the way they is. We get emotional about it, they get emotional about it. Just how it is. I recently got into it on here for feeling like I was being misunderstood, and they were feeling like I was being rude to an OG OP. Those conflicts inevitably happen. But yeah, you also bring up a good point--people who are on this board aren't exactly in the most stable point in their lives, so we can get triggered a bit easier. Or a lot easier.
All that is to say I BET I CAN CTB WAY BETTER THAN YOU OP!
