Venting People just can't seem to leave me alone.

[Navi]

Putting up a front is hard. I'm just so tired of it. Masking is painful as hell. Pretending to be cheerful while having an ache in your chest is the worst. I know I have it in me to stop and get people to leave me alone but for some reason I can't. How do I get rid of this need for other people? How can I get over the fear of dying so I can finally just do it? How can I make it so other people suffer around me too? Like after I die, is there anything I can do to make it harder for them? I don't know what I'm feeling but I just know that I wanna hurt people for hurting me.

 

[Morte]

One of the reasons I don't CTB yet is because some people I hate would be happy about it, I would just want them to rot before me

 

[Hikikomori1]

I know exactly how you feel OP.