Partial suspension

[setspiritfree]

I wake up everyday looking at this stupid noose that I wish would have taken me to the bus already. This IS the day I must go. I am tired of waking up to the same nightmare: a man who has lost everything except the one thing that will free him….his life. I tried to get it right (life that is) and at one time was right with God and the world. But that is no more. For someone who has lost everything already there is still much more suffering for me here if I stay. Why then is it so hard for me to take the final step when I know, I KNOW, that is the absolute best option, not just for me, but for everyone who knows me (even though they don't know that, yet). I have done much study and preparation and think I have really good odds at getting partial suspension right. I just need to figure out how to tie a knot that will only tighten and not loosen. I was wondering if anyone knows if I manage to get the carotid arteries right and sustain pressure that I will die from hypoxia as opposed to the way everyone is trying to avoid. I know there is no guarantee.

 

[xjxj]

I wish u the best of luck in ur attempt :) Find peace.

I just need to figure out how to tie a knot that will only tighten and not loosen. I was wondering if anyone knows if I manage to get the carotid arteries right and sustain pressure that I will die from hypoxia as opposed to the way everyone is trying to avoid.

I think the Arbor knot works for partial after testing it with my arm.

 

[darksouls]

I wish you peace

 

[setspiritfree]

I wish you peace

Thanks, that is all I want and will NOT find it on this side.

 

[setspiritfree]

I wake up everyday looking at this stupid noose that I wish would have taken me to the bus already. This IS the day I must go. I am tired of waking up to the same nightmare: a man who has lost everything except the one thing that will free him….his life. I tried to get it right (life that is) and at one time was right with God and the world. But that is no more. For someone who has lost everything already there is still much more suffering for me here if I stay. Why then is it so hard for me to take the final step when I know, I KNOW, that is the absolute best option, not just for me, but for everyone who knows me (even though they don't know that, yet). I have done much study and preparation and think I have really good odds at getting partial suspension right. I just need to figure out how to tie a knot that will only tighten and not loosen. I was wondering if anyone knows if I manage to get the carotid arteries right and sustain pressure that I will die from hypoxia as opposed to the way everyone is trying to avoid. I know there is no guarantee.

I did not succeed yesterday but not giving up. I am going to keep going over to my noose and playing with it hoping to get lucky. Maybe I will slip or leave the rope around my neck just a little too long before my SI kicks in. That is my hope now anyway.

I wake up everyday looking at this stupid noose that I wish would have taken me to the bus already. This IS the day I must go. I am tired of waking up to the same nightmare: a man who has lost everything except the one thing that will free him….his life. I tried to get it right (life that is) and at one time was right with God and the world. But that is no more. For someone who has lost everything already there is still much more suffering for me here if I stay. Why then is it so hard for me to take the final step when I know, I KNOW, that is the absolute best option, not just for me, but for everyone who knows me (even though they don't know that, yet). I have done much study and preparation and think I have really good odds at getting partial suspension right. I just need to figure out how to tie a knot that will only tighten and not loosen. I was wondering if anyone knows if I manage to get the carotid arteries right and sustain pressure that I will die from hypoxia as opposed to the way everyone is trying to avoid. I know there is no guarantee.

Did not succeed yesterday but I ain't giving up just yet. Hell, I am going over to my set up more than ever now getting used to it and hopefully passing out before I even realize it and it will be too late (but never too soon for me).
Nobody knows what I am going through. (nobody who matters anyway).