Philosykos
Student
- May 30, 2020
- 196
The person who witnessed this (whom I will refer to as W from this point onwards) is conflicted about whether they should release this information as full documentation of the SN method could not be obtained due to technical difficulties. But it was the person's last wish to document their experience for the members of this site so they could get a firsthand account of what SN ingestion does to the body. No one should be denied their last wish. MX (whom I will refer to by M from this point onwards), this is for you. 
Before SN ingestion
7:25pm (PT) - text conversation was started between M and W. M says he feels calm, not anxious at all. M and W converse a bit, but not much is said between them. W asks once again if M is absolutely sure of his decision, which is confirmed by M. He says he is aware he can stop at any time before or after ingestion.
7:36 - M starts to prepare his supplies. He will make three cups with 25 grams of SN, mixed into 60ml of water each. No other medication was taken, a risk M is aware of which is why he decided for two back up doses in case he vomits. W mentions their feeling sorry that life has brought M to this point but M is determined and seems fairly uninterested in talking about his reasons much. An emergency plan is agreed upon; in case M wants to call it quits after ingestion, he will share his location with W and specifically say: Save me. He instructs W not to try and get help for him under any other circumstances, no matter what happens.
7:47 - M shares some basic information that he considers important for others to know: He is a 20 year old male, 5'6 ft tall (~168cm) and weighs around 210lbs (~95kg). He has not eaten in seven hours and has had only moderate water consumption over these seven hours; almost none in the past hour.
7:52 - M says he is not afraid at all and simply hopes that it will go quickly without too many complications.
7:56 - After W asks M if there's anything he'd like to say to the people on SS, he instructs W to thank everyone on the forum and sends a heart emote.
8:01 - Video call was started.
8:02 - M starts mixing the first cup. W is shown everything of relevance: the scale, the amount of SN on it, the amount of water added to the cup and the bottle of the SN used.
8:08 - M prepares his second and third cup. The mixture which he shows W looks a bit milky, not clear.
8:10 - M mentions feeling a bit of anxiety now that everything is prepared. W once again mentions that he can stop this at any time, that W will be there for him no matter what and the backup plan is once again confirmed by both parties.
8:12 - M mentions his phone battery being almost dead and leaves the bathroom to charge it for another 20 minutes or so just to make sure it won't die before he passes out. He shows W the note taped to the bathroom door, instructing housekeeping not to enter and call emergency services.
8:22 - M mentions his phone is charging very slowly.
8:24 - M returns to bathroom to stir his mixtures some more, says that the SN dissolves in the water for 90% or so, asks if the mixture will keep for a bit while his phone charges. W mentions that they think it will be fine for a bit. M spreads a blanket on the bathroom floor along with a bucket in case he needs to vomit and a backup cup in case he cannot get up later.
8:27 - after once again confirming that he is absolutely certain of his decision and is aware W is there and will call emergency services if M wants them to as per agreed upon backup plan, M drinks the first cup in one big gulp. He shows W some small salt residue at the bottom of the cup. He says it tastes very salty but not too bad. He does not have a mint or sweet to mask the taste afterwards.
After ingestion
8:28 - M mentions his heart beating faster than normal but is unsure whether this is due to anxiety or if it is SN induced tachycardia.
8:29 - M complains of lightheadedness and the urge to burp. He says he will lie down now and does so. Visual is lost at this point and W can only see the blanket. Audio is still fine and they can hear each other.
8:31 - M says he feels nauseous and sweaty.
8:32 - W tries to speak to M to put him at ease as much as they can and asks if M is all right, but M asks them for silence, not intending offence.
8:34 - after two minutes of silence, M picks up his phone and W gets a short visual of his face. He is drenched in sweat and starts groaning profusely. The phone falls on the blanket again and W cannot see anything anymore, only hear M's groans. W calls out to M several times but only gets groaning in response. No more words are spoken and the connection is lost soon after. Whether this was due to a poor internet connection or if M's phone died, W could not say.
I am very sorry it had to end like this for MX and his last wish to document the entire experience could not be fulfilled. No one knows what happened after, if he called emergency services or not or if other hotel guests overheard his groans and alerted hotel staff to it. W had no means to contact M in any way whatsoever after the call was ended. Whatever happened to you, MX, I hope with all my heart that you are in a better place now.
Before SN ingestion
7:25pm (PT) - text conversation was started between M and W. M says he feels calm, not anxious at all. M and W converse a bit, but not much is said between them. W asks once again if M is absolutely sure of his decision, which is confirmed by M. He says he is aware he can stop at any time before or after ingestion.
7:36 - M starts to prepare his supplies. He will make three cups with 25 grams of SN, mixed into 60ml of water each. No other medication was taken, a risk M is aware of which is why he decided for two back up doses in case he vomits. W mentions their feeling sorry that life has brought M to this point but M is determined and seems fairly uninterested in talking about his reasons much. An emergency plan is agreed upon; in case M wants to call it quits after ingestion, he will share his location with W and specifically say: Save me. He instructs W not to try and get help for him under any other circumstances, no matter what happens.
7:47 - M shares some basic information that he considers important for others to know: He is a 20 year old male, 5'6 ft tall (~168cm) and weighs around 210lbs (~95kg). He has not eaten in seven hours and has had only moderate water consumption over these seven hours; almost none in the past hour.
7:52 - M says he is not afraid at all and simply hopes that it will go quickly without too many complications.
7:56 - After W asks M if there's anything he'd like to say to the people on SS, he instructs W to thank everyone on the forum and sends a heart emote.
8:01 - Video call was started.
8:02 - M starts mixing the first cup. W is shown everything of relevance: the scale, the amount of SN on it, the amount of water added to the cup and the bottle of the SN used.
8:08 - M prepares his second and third cup. The mixture which he shows W looks a bit milky, not clear.
8:10 - M mentions feeling a bit of anxiety now that everything is prepared. W once again mentions that he can stop this at any time, that W will be there for him no matter what and the backup plan is once again confirmed by both parties.
8:12 - M mentions his phone battery being almost dead and leaves the bathroom to charge it for another 20 minutes or so just to make sure it won't die before he passes out. He shows W the note taped to the bathroom door, instructing housekeeping not to enter and call emergency services.
8:22 - M mentions his phone is charging very slowly.
8:24 - M returns to bathroom to stir his mixtures some more, says that the SN dissolves in the water for 90% or so, asks if the mixture will keep for a bit while his phone charges. W mentions that they think it will be fine for a bit. M spreads a blanket on the bathroom floor along with a bucket in case he needs to vomit and a backup cup in case he cannot get up later.
8:27 - after once again confirming that he is absolutely certain of his decision and is aware W is there and will call emergency services if M wants them to as per agreed upon backup plan, M drinks the first cup in one big gulp. He shows W some small salt residue at the bottom of the cup. He says it tastes very salty but not too bad. He does not have a mint or sweet to mask the taste afterwards.
After ingestion
8:28 - M mentions his heart beating faster than normal but is unsure whether this is due to anxiety or if it is SN induced tachycardia.
8:29 - M complains of lightheadedness and the urge to burp. He says he will lie down now and does so. Visual is lost at this point and W can only see the blanket. Audio is still fine and they can hear each other.
8:31 - M says he feels nauseous and sweaty.
8:32 - W tries to speak to M to put him at ease as much as they can and asks if M is all right, but M asks them for silence, not intending offence.
8:34 - after two minutes of silence, M picks up his phone and W gets a short visual of his face. He is drenched in sweat and starts groaning profusely. The phone falls on the blanket again and W cannot see anything anymore, only hear M's groans. W calls out to M several times but only gets groaning in response. No more words are spoken and the connection is lost soon after. Whether this was due to a poor internet connection or if M's phone died, W could not say.
I am very sorry it had to end like this for MX and his last wish to document the entire experience could not be fulfilled. No one knows what happened after, if he called emergency services or not or if other hotel guests overheard his groans and alerted hotel staff to it. W had no means to contact M in any way whatsoever after the call was ended. Whatever happened to you, MX, I hope with all my heart that you are in a better place now.
