Parent finding my body

[fox_wannabe]

What should I do? book hotel? I am kinda lazy but I might be able to do it. It would safe a lot of trauma. Service finding my body will be less traumatize than my father finding my body.
I was also thinking about making a note on the door in my house, If i were to ctb in it.

My suicide will be not expected at all. So shock value will be huge and my body will be blue and unpleasent. I was thinking I could also ctb in the forest in the evening.
Also If you read that far: I want to talk on discord after taking sn. So I can just chat and take my mind of things. It is a big thing to ask but I would love to chat with somebody on discord. I could be part of sn statistic, so people know more about this method. I am think about ctbing in next week.

 

[Sakura94]

I think a hotel sounds nice.

 

[whitelacedress]

What should I do? book hotel? I am kinda lazy but I might be able to do it. It would safe a lot of trauma. Service finding my body will be less traumatize than my father finding my body.
I was also thinking about making a note on the door in my house, If i were to ctb in it.

My suicide will be not expected at all. So shock value will be huge and my body will be blue and unpleasent. I was thinking I could also ctb in the forest in the evening.
Also If you read that far: I want to talk on discord after taking sn. So I can just chat and take my mind of things. It is a big thing to ask but I would love to chat with somebody on discord. I could be part of sn statistic, so people know more about this method. I am think about ctbing in next week.

I think you should book a hotel, if you can, I will do the same. I think in the forest it will be cold and uncomfortable, I'd rather spend my last moments in a cozy hotel room. I'm planning to go on Thursday, see you soon, if you decide to go! I'm sorry I won't be able to talk to you, I have to focus on myself :(

 

[bed]

it's ultimately up to you. The only two places i'll be considering is in a forest and in my room. I feel a lot more comfortable doing it in my room though.

 

[Originaldon]

The only thing that makes me second guess a hotel room is the potential cost to loved ones… I don't want them having to pay for me and replacing hotel furniture or bath tubs

 

[whatev3r]

What should I do? book hotel? I am kinda lazy but I might be able to do it. It would safe a lot of trauma. Service finding my body will be less traumatize than my father finding my body.
I was also thinking about making a note on the door in my house, If i were to ctb in it.

My suicide will be not expected at all. So shock value will be huge and my body will be blue and unpleasent. I was thinking I could also ctb in the forest in the evening.
Also If you read that far: I want to talk on discord after taking sn. So I can just chat and take my mind of things. It is a big thing to ask but I would love to chat with somebody on discord. I could be part of sn statistic, so people know more about this method. I am think about ctbing in next week.

going for a hotel seems better so i'd aim for that, that's what i'm planning on at least. and for the discord thingy, is there an existing server for everyone to join or do you mean more a one on one call? you can add me if you want

 

[Cheers]

I'm in a similar situation bc my suicide will clearly come of as a shock and so, well you've seen my thread, i'm booking a hotel to avoid such a shock to my mom.

 

[fox_wannabe]

thank you all for wonderful responses <3
I will do It probably in a forest because I am afraid of any costs for my family and I do feel quite good in the forest, It used to be my place of refuge. i know a good place which is safe and secluded.
I will join discord but not now i rather do it before the ctb.

 

[Chockles]

I'll be taking N once it arrives at home living with my elderly parents once they go to bed. Im too sick & bed ridden to get to a hotel. They're expecting me to attempt to end my life can see how much I'm suffering physically but I still don't want them finding me blue especially my mum. It would be a shock for both but i think my dad would handle it better. It's a worry but I simply have no choice. A

 

[fox_wannabe]

I'll be taking N once it arrives at home living with my elderly parents once they go to bed. Im too sick & bed ridden to get to a hotel. They're expecting me to attempt to end my life can see how much I'm suffering physically but I still don't want them finding me blue especially my mum. It would be a shock for both but i think my dad would handle it better. It's a worry but I simply have no choice. A

I hope you find peace from pain <3
It is good that your parents at least understand your pain. I cannot tell my parents about my pain.

 

[Dot]

I'll be taking N once it arrives at home living with my elderly parents once they go to bed. Im too sick & bed ridden to get to a hotel. They're expecting me to attempt to end my life can see how much I'm suffering physically but I still don't want them finding me blue especially my mum. It would be a shock for both but i think my dad would handle it better. It's a worry but I simply have no choice. A

Blue is more of SN process than N.

 

[Chockles]

I hope you find peace from pain <3
It is good that your parents at least understand your pain. I cannot tell my parents about my pain.

I tried not to in early days but it's so bad now I cannot mask how debilitating it is I was waking them up screaming with my inability to breathe much at all hours & jolting all day like I'm attached to an electric fence . It's just a pity it's taken .e being so Ill to build bridges with them after years of a difficult relationship. Roll on arrival of N can't continue this much longer

Blue is more of SN process than N.

That's what I thought until I read a report from timetoexit on a live stream from 2 ss members who decided to ctb on N. One went blue.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I tried not to in early days but it's so bad now I cannot mask how debilitating it is I was waking them up screaming with my inability to breathe much at all hours & jolting all day like I'm attached to an electric fence . It's just a pity it's taken .e being so Ill to build bridges with them after years of a difficult relationship. Roll on arrival of N can't continue this much longer

I hope your suffering end soon. I cannot say more than this and that I am sorry that things like that happened to you or that they happen to people and animals in general. Life is really cruel and It should not be imposed on anybody, knowing the risk it poses. Your suffering is huge and I see no reason why you should be denied right to stop the pain in dignifying way, if it cannot be cured of course.

 

[Chockles]

I hope your suffering end soon. I cannot say more than this and that I am sorry that things like that happened to you or that they happen to people and animals in general. Life is really cruel and It should not be imposed on anybody, knowing the risk it poses. Your suffering is huge and I see no reason why you should be denied right to stop the pain in dignifying way, if it cannot be cured of course.

It can't be cured. I don't qualify for assisted suicide under 50 with rare conditions not recognised by nhs + mold toxicity & severe nerve damage. A year of total hell now. Yet anxiety blamed dor everything by nhs. Thank you for your kind words.

 

[FuneralCry]

A isolated forest is also my ideal spot for ctb, far away from people. I would also rather not be found by family members, but I guess in a way whoever finds me will not be my concern as I will not be existing at that point. I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[fox_wannabe]

It can't be cured. I don't qualify for assisted suicide under 50 with rare conditions not recognised by nhs + mold toxicity & severe nerve damage. A year of total hell now. Yet anxiety blamed dor everything by nhs. Thank you for your kind words.

Only thing I can do. Remember you are owner of your body, your time and your soul. You decide where you want to go, here, after and forever. Nobody can force you to suffer. Peace be with you and I hope you find some good things to take your mind from pain before getting N. If pain comes remember It will pass like everything. There is a mantra "It too shall pass". I give it to you in hope that it will take your mind off pain when it arises. Pain does not have to be suffering. Buddhist monk set himself on fire and didn't move or flinch. I hope you find strength to keep your mind focused and calm before your bus arrives and takes you.

 

[Chockles]

Only thing I can do. Remember you are owner of your body, your time and your soul. You decide where you want to go, here, after and forever. Nobody can force you to suffer. Peace be with you and I hope you find some good things to take your mind from pain before getting N. If pain comes remember It will pass like everything. There is a mantra "It too shall pass". I give it to you in hope that it will take your mind off pain when it arises. Pain does not have to be suffering. Buddhist monk set himself on fire and didn't move or flinch. I hope you find strength to keep your mind focused and calm before your bus arrives and takes you.

I'm in torturous pain 24/7 have been 10 months now get the foul fluid down dont vomit & it'll only be 5-10 mins more of agony. I won't be calm but I honestly couldn't get iller death will bring peace. My current existence is now hell.

 

[Circles]

The only thing that makes me second guess a hotel room is the potential cost to loved ones… I don't want them having to pay for me and replacing hotel furniture or bath tubs

Wait I never heard of this, is this true? They can go after families to pay for damages? I've heard about them doing this for train suicides in some countries but they do this whenever someone does this using a hotel? Wtf. Surely the family doesn't have to.

 

[YourNeighbor]

Wait I never heard of this, is this true? They can go after families to pay for damages? I've heard about them doing this for train suicides in some countries but they do this whenever someone does this using a hotel? Wtf. Surely the family doesn't have to.

Of course the hotel can't go after families to pay for damages. Maybe if they book the room for you.

 

[fly away]

Unfortunately it is true. They will charge for the "cleanup costs" (sorry).
They will try to get It from your estate. Or any insurance.

 

[Dot]

Unfortunately it is true. They will charge for the "cleanup costs" (sorry).
They will try to get It from your estate. Or any insurance.

Surprised hotels not have own insurance 2 cover.

 

[fly away]

I'm sure they do, but the insurance companies will fight it out. Everyone has to make some money